Tinu's Silent Words

2011-09-12T15:17:00.002+01:00

the heart of man is desperately wicked and sprawn like woven leaves of dirt and mud.
who says?
who knows?
who sees? and is not himself seen?
truth speaks,
its words are heard in tones
its colours in spectrums of grey
its message polluted,
diluted,
mangled with selfish ambitions,
thoughts of naked exploitation.....
Those who weep do,

The gist as said by me :-)

2009-10-01T13:29:00.000+01:00

Found an old blog i dont think i published...
well here it is

The gist as said by me :-)

I don’t know how I’ve managed to transform into a glorified gossip. I mean honestly, I have friends who keep up with me just to hear the latest gossip because for some reason, I attract gist. Ha! See my life. I do not find it funny o! You people, you know yourselves...be warned or Imma (I’m gonna) cut you off! (that’s Yeye inc’s threat, lol, you should hear her say it)
Ok, let’s get back to the basics...where do I need to resume filling the blanks. Hmmm.... for the sake of those who do not know me, well, read my earlier blog entries...I guarantee you’ll be just as frightened as I am now. The weird thing is that I feel so mature all of a sudden. That is so annoying! Not that I can’t run around or whatever (that reminds me, maybe I should) but the fact that the yeye boyfriend I have is making me calm. I have not experienced that with any guy. I mean even my ‘forbidden fruit’ ex and our psycho connection only managed to keep my blood running at extreme levels, but this boy/man keeps the calm and the fire at the same time. Hmmm! Lord help this faithful daughter of yours.

Right! Enough soul searching...more gist giving!
1st,
Buble got a girlfriend??? Imagine the yeye boy, after I dreamt of him, prayed for him, listened to all his songs, what more did that nigga want that I didn’t do for him? Well, for starters, he aint a nigga! LOL. I am happy for him but that girl had better come pay homage to me if she loves herself or else...imma show her why they call me ‘Wonder Teva’
2nd,
I told y’all I moved out of my old flat. Well before I left...hmm you should hear the weird things that happened. OMG every day, it was one bizarre story after another. Let’s begin the great news... ‘yep! I broke the lodge house curse’. I know I lost half the readers with that statement. Well the lodge house curse is that ‘Any single (mostly female) person that got into lodge house would leave the house single.’ Well, what can I say, ‘some mothers do have em’. The odd thing is, several days to our departure, all the girls started acting up. They just couldn’t stand each other. The irony of it all was that they all confided in me. So roomie C would say crapy stuff about roomie E, roomie E and A would complain about roomie C. The thing for me was that as soon as roomie F left, they all became boring to me. So C would try to chat me up for a while then curse out E, E would make me eat dinner in the kitchen so we could chat...then A would come and E would fashi me...can you imagine? Anyways that chapter of my life is closed now, and what a grand finale it had. Then omo as I was packing to leave, omo, all the guys suddenly remembered me. It was funny.
Ok, with all said and done, I am grateful to the almighty. His love for me remains a wonder, and how he sorts my life, I can never say thank you enough.

Just Like Me

2009-09-27T16:47:00.003+01:00

..She's just like...
....He's just like me...

Have you heard the Jamie Foxx song? 'Just like me'. I love the R&B, even though I want to reach across the radio...in this case my TV scream to smack his face! Oooh, so its cool to play games on your girl, but if she flips the script on you...its wrong???? N***a if i werent so in love with Jesus, I would give you a beatdown. He actually brings Joe to mind...i wonder where that guy is anyway???

Hello mes ami :)
J'apprends francais avec un tres belle prof, tres marront ... Yes, i'm showing off my level 3 soon to migrate to level 5 french. Damn, shortcuts arent as great as they are made out to be.
Ok. I am rambling...Will start afresh.
OLA!!!!
Eyin peeps, bawo ni! What do you do when you come home and find your beloved on top some person, do you wait see if its a guy or a girl? Do you scream and run? Or do you stand and watch and learn some new tricks which might keep the next guy from doing dirt??
I mean, do you not that the slow motion feeling like every thing is grinding to a halt and no matter what you do, you cant rewind it just outside the door...I mean seriously, what idiot brings a trick to the home he shares with his girlfriend? Worse, Who asks a girl to marry him and the next week goes 'girl-shopping'???
What kind of men do we have in the world today??? As if all the drama in the world is not enough, men have to add a little fire to it...yes I said MEN! Just cause she hasnt acused you doesnt mean she doesnt know...

Its amazing though, I have met some guys who claim that the girls have screwed them up. I actually know one...but thats a tiny fragment right? It always feels that way to the one in pain anyway...so back to my question? What do you do when your gal calls you up in the middle of the night, screaming...crying...telling you that the guy you all know as the 'spiri' has a less than spiritual appetite for the pleasures of the flesh?
I honestly am speechless...you???

Prodigal Daughter returns

2009-09-17T23:11:00.002+01:00

It feels weird being back here...I have spent so much time away, the art of writing...putting my words to pen rather than saying the 'sweet mushy version' is becoming a bit strange to me.

yes i have been 'girlified' and 'mushified' and for what??

I am listening to this song right now with lyrics like 'what can I say? How many rules must I break?' Aaah maybe i'm just a bit bummed that two years doesnt seem to ignite the spark i was looking for. And again...i'm rambling!

Hello people!!!

Happy, so happy to see/ hear you...I've heard such great things happening! Some of us are now wonderful wives, others loving mothers of many children...some of our men have trail blazed! Achieved things aforehand thought to be impossible...gotten that dream job in a foreign land, made that entrepreneural dream come true.

For me its been another year gone so quickly. I dont know what i can grasp in my hand and call 'my thing'. I have done a lot of tiny good things...you know, like pay my bills...LOL, or go to church regularly, via internet or otherwise, or been a good samaritan any chance i got.

You know i'm the ambitious type...tiny person with dreams that scare even myself. I just cant help wondering if i am on track...i feel lost! in the wilderness of 'maybe's'. in the valley of the shadows of 'Its Ok' and the systems of 'It aint that bad'....boy! i've done it aint that bad in london and i think imma tired of that!

Hmm, I'm guessing alot of you are bored...so i'll skip the soul searching and head on straight to gist. GIST OOOO!! Naija people1

You remember my friend yeye inc....dont mind the yeye gal, she left my arse and shacked up with her beau...uuuh he fine and you should see her go all girlie on him...its almost a wonder to behold. I think she finally found her kryptonite...and he's one HUGE brother :)

My terrorist friend at uni, you wont believe that gal, she left all our asses in the single's club and got herself married to the sweetest guy ever. aah, they are cute to watch...only for a few seconds before you might gag from the plentious display of strong African affection.

Now that i think about it, all my friends are with much calmer and sweeter guys than they are. So does that mean i should stop complaining about mine? there is sweet and there is sweet, just as there are chalks and there are balls. Man, i need help! SHRINK!!!

On the bright side, have you heard the new buble song...See, i always knew that n**ga was looking for me...see there's my proof. his life is so imperfect without me...awww! its just 'cause he hasnt met me yet. Now i dont know if this is legal or not but i got the song, Its available on his webpage.. www.michaelbuble.com

Give him a holla,
Give me a holla....
Have a good one peeps,

Well its my birthday today... Happy birthday Buble's biggest fan!

TIME TO SHINE!!!

2008-11-06T22:49:00.000Z

OBAMA won!!!
Can we still say there is something too hard for God???

Hallo ma belle famille,

How are we all? Are we excited? Are we glad for what God is doing in our time? He said it himself that in the last days he will pour out his spirit on all flesh...and no one will need to tell his neighbour -"know God!", for the knowledge of the Lord will cover the earth as water covers the sea'. ARE WE EXCITED??? We are in the era where nothing is impossible, we are in the season of triumph and victory. Paul rightly puts it when he said ' Ye are past conquering' Romans 8:37-39, We have transcended the realm of uncertainty, the shackles of want and poverty, the captivity of hopelessness...IT IS A NEW DAY!!
A day when you can be whoever you want to be.... it doesnt matter where you come from, it doesnt matter what your geneology looks like, YOU CAN ASPIRE! YOU CAN BE GREAT!
It seems like the dream of Martin Luther King became a reality yesterday. His hope that '.... children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character." affirms the word of God in Joel 2 vs 28 "And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions". I will really encourage everyone that we should meditate on the book of Joel especially the second chapter because there God shows us a road map. He gives us the KEY to profitting in out time, he positions us to be at the forefront of success.

What are we doing to avail ourselves of this opportunity? Just as many prophets of old earnestly desired to see Jesus in the flesh, so the world around us is pining for a forecast, a map, a compass to direct their steps in the days to come...but friends we have a ANCHOR! we have a WAY!, we have the LIGHT that no darkness can resist...Oooh glory! Let us therefore STAND, knowing this '
1 Therefore we ought to give the more earnest heed to the things which we have heard, lest at any time we should let them slip. 2 For if the word spoken by angels was steadfast, and every transgression and disobedience received a just recompense of reward; 3 how shall we escape, if we neglect so great salvation; which at the first began to be spoken by the Lord, and was confirmed unto us by them that heard him; 4 God also bearing them witness, both with signs and wonders, and with divers miracles, and gifts of the Holy Ghost, according to his own will?
Hebrews 2 1-4.

My people, this is our time! Let us load our spirit with the arsenal we need to reign in this life. Let our minds be so rooted in God's word that we cannot complete our sentences without a thought to his greatness. Let us get excited for what great plans God has for us. He says " When men are cast down, then thou shalt say, There is lifting up; "Job 22 vs 29. Do not tremble because of the credit crunch, Do not let job creation statistics rule you! The Bible says, we should cheer that there is a lifting up! It has to get better, because God has brought me here for a time like this!
HALLELUYAH!!!

Take care and remember THIS IS YOUR TIME TO SHINE!!!

A less than inspirational speech

2008-10-16T10:33:00.002+01:00

Ok, so I've been busy, and now with the credit crunch, all the bad news hovering around me, people expecting more from me, me forgetting my brother's birthday...ok, he's not my biological brother, same difference! my darling boyfriend refusing to propose...i think i have some time to vent.
I dont know, I guess I expected more, I expected that we would be riding on some cloud of awesomeness, and sipping champagne with world leaders, trying to joggle all that work.
hmmmmmmmm
You know what bothers me most, the fact that I let it all get to me. I mean, look at me, I survived emotional trama, gave quite a few to be honest, didnt do any of the nasty stuff and yet I wind up literally 'wound up' to a guy who's just growing...I mean, come on! WAKE UP GIRL, this never happens to you! you know how to deal with this kind of things, you cut your losses and move on, that's why you'd have made a great businesswoman if you had just devoted a tiny portion of that time to something else other than him........

Now, anyone reading this that doesnt know me will so get the wrong idea. You will misunderstand everything I'm saying and come to the world's wrongest conclusion. Its safe to say I have been know to throw people off...not intentionally mostly but it generally happens. I mean, it really takes a 'yeye-inc' or a soundboard or a 'coulda-shoulda' or a 'NEO' to get me. So why sprechenth me? Because I cant keep silent anymore!
je déteste ce silence exaspérant!! I want to speak!!!
LET ME TALK!!!
I want to speak [this would be the appropraite time to cry but naah, dont wanna ruin my mascara]
Ooooh dear GOD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

I missed it,
I let it slip from my hand,
I let this perfect opportunity slide,
Now it scares the crap out of me that it may never come back again,
I may just have let it go...FOREVER[in phoebe's silly voice]

Damn!
I let him become more important than me...
I've become that woman...the one that throws it all away for love,
The sad sad cliche!
I've let him take that from me.
Right now i'm thinking of millions of ways to barbeque is tiny ass but i know i wont, so it makes me even more angry! if this is love, i'm sick of it!

In the midst of it all, i know i love him, i know i would do anything for him, but i hate that its true, is that normal? does every girl on the planet think like me? or is everyone thining...'psycho, lets get outta here!'
I really dont get why i have to be one in the relationship with the brain of a guy and the body/emotions of a girl. while he looks, talks, and craves like a guy but feels like a girl. He doesnt want me to move because he'll miss me too much...COME ON, i'll miss you too but that dont mean i'll pass up something that good just to keep staring at you...I mean honestly, I really dont think i'm being unreasonable...
Not to mention, my biggest concern in the future is how to leverage this, because i can think of ways to wangle out what i want, i mean that comes naturally to me...like air :)
But i cant with him....he's my achille's heel, my very own kryptonite!

To be fair, he is more than patient, i think no will be at peace with me as much as he is. I may scare him from time to time...but he sees me, he knows me, and he loves me with this kinda love thing that is like a sedative for raving madness. He hugs me and it feels like an avalange hit my erupting volcano...I should wring his neck!!!!
Well since i cant and i know i wont, i'll just succour in the knowledge that I at least vented!
Yearh!! HArd core chick...LOL

Help!

September - Winner's Circle!

2008-09-03T11:44:00.000+01:00

As I prepared to write this month's words of encouragement, i pondered on how we define REALITY. When the morning of the first of September started, I felt elated! First because, its the last month of the 3rd quarter, which means we are done 3/4th of 2008, also because the month of september is dear to my heart for many reasons. I rejoiced in my spirit, I knew it was going to be a turn-around month for many. And yet today, my heart is heavy and my mind hesitant to trust the same words I announced days earlier...Was it because the truth in the words had changed? Or was it that my perception had changed? This leads me to my question for this month...What makes a thing REAL?Is it our ability to percieve it with our senses? if that were true, that would make microbes unreal, that would make AIR unreal, that would make radiowaves, telecommunication signals and many of the perks of modern day life UNREAL.Is it whether or not it can be scientifically or emphirically measured? That would mean everything we are yet to discovered is UNREAL (the folly of that is in its definition, as we know that a discovery does not disprove the existence of a phenomenon prior to its discovery) or to bring it closer home, are our feelings, our intuition etc are unreal because we dont have an empirical definition for them? SO what then is REALITY? Recent theories of Quantum physics suggest that time is not a linear plane. In other words at every moment in time, we can alter the direction of our reality. It took scientists hundreds of years to discover what Jesus had told us 2000 years ago when he said 'ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE TO HIM THAT BELIEVETH'. He said 'If you say unto this mountain ...BE MOVED and do not doubt in your heart, it shall be done unto you'. He said 'Ye shall walk upon scorpions and...nothing SHALL BY ANY MEANS HURT YOU'. When i re-read this scripture, it occured to me that Christ was showing us THE way to discovering the many outstanding REALITIES that exist.So in September I ask you all, WHAT IS YOUR REALITY? Do you want God's reality to be yours, Do you want his thoughts for your life to be the only TRUTH for you? Do you want to look back at the end of this month and realise that you just walked on WATER???The Choice is yours today....May the Lord bless us, and teach us his words...his reality and help us become the Champions we really are...AMEN

Happy August...MY 100th post..Yippie!!

2008-08-05T10:07:00.001+01:00

This is what the LORD says, he who made the earth, the LORD who formed it and established it—the LORD is his name: 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." (Jeremiah 33:2-3)

Happy new month my bon famille.
As usual, I thank God for all his greatness, for his love, for the soothing gestures of his kindness. We have arrived at the 8th Month Mark. its August...the month of Lions :)
This month begins on a slightly overwhelming note for me. I dont know about you, but I feel a bit drawn on many sides....stretched to what appears to be an endless limit. But the word of the Lord (quick to the rescue) reminds me to count it all joy. As James 1:2 admonishes us. 'My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; ³Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. ⁴But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.'
What is that condition that itches...that annoys, that seems like its too strong, too demanding, vituperative to our person, smoothering our very being??? The bible says count it all joy...because your faith is working patience in you; because truthfully, the reason why it binds us and enslaves us so much is because we are earth-conscious, we are more lovers of SELF than lovers of GOD. If God were our focus, if his love, his sacrifce was our daily thought, our all-consuming passion....as the Psalmist said...'As a deer pants for the water, so my Soul (my being, everything that I am) pants for you' . if we yearn for him as much as we yearn for our very life, we will not be bound to these frivolities...to experience true REST. The Rest paul describes in Hebrews 4:10 'For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his.'

Indeed Reading the first 12 verses of Chapter 4 of Hebrews, Paul admonishes us...
Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
²For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
³For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
⁴For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
⁵And in this place again, If they shall enter into my rest.
⁶Seeing therefore it remaineth that some must enter therein, and they to whom it was first preached entered not in because of unbelief:
⁷Again, he limiteth a certain day, saying in David, To day, after so long a time; as it is said, To day if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts.
⁸For if Jesus had given them rest, then would he not afterward have spoken of another day.
⁹There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God.
¹⁰For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his.
¹¹Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.

The true Shalom, that Christ willed us upon his death, is yours for the taking...The question we need to ask ourselves is this...'is that situation? is that problem? is that thing, worth me losing this great promise from my saviour?' I pray that God will teach us to grow and to labour for that rest that only he can give.
AMEN

its August...i'm getting married soon...LOL

2008-08-04T10:08:00.001+01:00

hey ya!!!!
Whats up?

Month of champions!

2008-07-03T12:21:00.001+01:00

Those who know their God will be strong and do exploits! Daniel 11:32
That is the only thing that keeps running through my mind since the start of this month!
Congratulations my wonderful family, we have crossed the 50% mark for the year 2008. And this is our month of champions! As the opening scripture states, if you know God, the natural consequence of that is that you will do exploits...
The other day I was listening to pastor Chris's teaching on John 14 23-24 23And in that day ye shall ask me nothing. Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall ask the Father in my name, he will give it you. 24Hitherto have ye asked nothing in my name: ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may be full.
He said that the greek rendering of the word ask 'LAMBANO' [phonetic spelling] implies that God will fabricate it. in other words, if it didnt exist, the father, who wants your joy to be full always, WILL CREATE IT. When he asks, is there anything too hard for God? Indeed, what is that thing in your life you are pretty sure that God cant do? Why do we tell ourselves that God doesnt want us to be happy so that we can be humble? Christ died, I mean, do you know what it means to give your only son to die? to suffer? He paid the price for our happiness but it still remains our choice whether or not to be happy? whether or not to be healed, whether or not to be prosperous . God swore by himself...'Nothing that your mind can conceive is beyond my ability to do'.
There is now the question of whether what you want is the will of God...I would like to announce to you that your problem is not finding out God's will, because his will is in his word. READ MORE, KNOW MORE....
MAy God bless us as we strive to be who God says we are.

Happy June

2008-06-04T11:50:00.002+01:00

Dear Family,

A hearty congratulations all!
We have crossed May into a brand new month of limitless possibilities :)
It is June...we are officially halfway through the year 2008. WAOH!! how time flies eh?
And just as swiftly as the month came, its already on the move again....today is the 4th! You know what this year and indeed this month makes me think about?
It reminds me of the story of Jacob, who wrestled with the angel of the Lord and won! haha! How do you think he did it? Seriously, a human being, a treacherous, cunny human being, a lair and a cheat, one called the sub planter, who deceived his brother to gain the birthright, a man who knew nothing about Jesus or his saving power, STILL HE WRESTLED WITH THE ANGEL OF GOD's PRESENCE AND WON... how is that even fathomable? A man conquering in the most holy presence of God.

I often wondered why God granted Jacob the opportunity in the first place. He was clearly not 'blessings material' right? Then God directed my eyes to the book of Ecclesiastes 9:11 , the Bible says "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all. "
The facts are simply these - Jacob, knew who he was, but he refused to let that deter him from who he could be. He had seen how God blessed his father and his grand father, he had seen how his fathers walked with God. He yearned for such a relationship and he knew according to the word of God that God would send him an opportunity. So when the angel came with news for him, he recognised it as his opportunity to be blessed. He refused to let it GO. He grabbed on with his very life.

So what is the month of June to you? Just another month? with bills and worries? frustrations left and right? or just another plan ole 30 days in the calendar? I challenge you to see further, SEE what COULD BE, recognise the hand of God and challenge him to take you places you have never dreamed of.
The Bible says that God is no respecter of persons, what he does for one he would do for the other....so what are you waiting for! LAY HOLD ON YOUR BLESSINGS THIS MONTH AND REFUSE TO LET IT GO!

May the shouts of joy never cease from our homes in Jesus Name.
Have a blessed month,

I hope to write this monthly, even if i forget to update y'all with gist! But gist boku o!

TIWA TOPE

2008-04-10T09:34:00.007+01:00

A word for now....the audacity of faith! What? What can't you do? THE WORD SAYS, "IS THERE ANYTHING TOO HARD FOR HIM???" Oooh you need to hear this, When you yield yourself to the annointing...the spirit will lead you and move you and give you BOLDNESS!!!

I saw the royal airforce parade right over my office building. It was beautiful! and I thought to myself, what stands between me and that level of life...a level of life where there is precision! Where I determine who I talk to, where I determine how successful I will be..where I determine the course of my day.

You know, if you are working in God's divine plan for me. Do you know what level of life that is? What I can achieve?
I have attached pastor chris' message on the Audacity of Faith. I hope it blesses you.

I am a complex woman

2008-03-15T19:22:00.003Z

The danger with being a woman of my tastes, composition, structure and style is that i find nothing indispensible...apart from air and water and of course food. The core of my being starts with the desire to breath and to have space. To own my own territory even if i dont mark it out like testosterone driven men do. In my opinion, what men find most intimidating about me is that i know what i want and i'm never afraid to go for it. I may be timid and shy at first, but as my dear friend once put it 'She's like a caged wild cat that will scratch you behind the ear!'
I see now how pointless it is to deny who I am and what I am about. And trust me hon, its not sex related.
I read in the paper the other day about 'Asexuality'. what the F is that? Amongst humans??????ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? First the gays now this?? Is this nature's way of dealing with over population now that disease and pollution isn't ridding the earth of us fast enough? It started off as an interesting read. The article began with the story of two love birds at their honeymoon suite who had never had sex [I thought it was another interesting story about chastity and the virtues of monogamy] but were not having sex after they married. It later expounded that they met as members of a group of Asexuals and after a 2year courtship decided to marry. After going through the article, i spent the next couple of seconds considering the possibility of being asexual and ooh boy! Once the picture of Morris passed my mind, I knew I needed no further convictions.
So what is up with me? why do I outgrow men like clothes? Its not funny. I meet really really great guys; wonderful men! loads of fun! Great family, great potential dads. At first they are a challenge...I mean, they like me, they're attracted to me but when they start feeling just a tad too comfi...I get the itch!

Its better now. Trust me, over the years, I'd just let them wrap themselves all around me and afterwards I'd feel very chocked and hence have to cut off all those winding branches to get loose. Now its kinda different.
My new boyfriend is,...he's weird...Just like me. Well, not like me. He has some crazies that well, are crazies and most of the time, he's adorable, mushy, sweet and sensitive. just right for me. It took me a while to get here with him. It wasn't easy! Trust me there were days i just wanted to kick him!
We've had strange fights, stupid fights, love fights, serious fights, issue fights...but at the end of the day, when I'm with him, I feel at ease. I don't have a care in the world. When he holds me, its like the most beautiful music playing into my heart. The only thing about me that he possibly hasn't realized is that I'm not much for words. I hear emotions in mannerisms, a look straight into the eyes say more to me than all the 'I love you's he could ever say. I mean, I know he's not yet completely himself around me but I'd like to hope that someday he will and that it wont be scary :) (which is another reason why my sudden disposition worries me)
He could use a little weight but that I can look forward to after middle age...lol. He is intelligent, I get his brain waves, I can follow his logic quite simply. He's not manipulative. He's more encouraging and self sacrificing than anything else...But strangely enough, I'm getting the itch again!
What is up? And I have a rule...well not really a rule, it goes along the line of me knowing without a shred of doubt that...it can only get better. So the thing is, I know that should something go wrong with my present relationship, I can only get better but the catch is, the one I have now is great! Really really Great! Super even! My dilemma now is...is there something better? not someone better?? but is there someplace else my heart desires to be? and Why the hell does it want that?

I am not ungrateful. Far from it! I appreciate the little things...I am sweet. I love people, I am kind and caring but once my mind goes all fritz with thinking, it really is out of my hands...boyfi calls it my 'logic mode'. Why this is baffling to me is that I like him, I really really do. He's great. He gets me! He's fine with my crazies (it would be pointless to deny it, don't you think?). This is what I thought I always wanted....Or is it??
I guess I'm just reeling off all the interesting movies I've seen today. Oooh boy! Lord I pray I dont mess this up, especially as all the arrows seem to point to him :)

Its been 3 montsh WAOH

2008-03-03T17:24:00.001Z

HEy there,I cant believe its been three months already....oh my bad. 4months! WAOH! Talk about globe trotting and forgetting all your pals...mehn, i've had gist o but you know, the spirit is ever willing but...logistics na big issue.
My oh My! I shall compile gist tonight and upload!
Hope you've all been great!!
Chao!!!

Baby you're not lost...

2007-12-04T01:18:00.000Z

Hmmmm, I can't help but remember those words...You are more than what people see about you. I am the same person, a couple of months ago was thought of as lost, and here's my darling Buble reminding me that I am not lost.
My many questions, my many doubts, my many disillusions were answered in this simple song which somehow hits home louder than all the words and speeches and sermons i've heard over the years!
Its been an interesting year....I'm glad its ending so I can finally show OFF!

Have a super December folks!!!

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eSnips Social DNA

2007-11-29T23:10:00.000Z

Like my white Nigerian friend will say "The good thing about long distance relationships is the moment when you get ready to cross the distance"

Odun Ikore de o! (the Year of Harvest has come!!!)

2007-11-22T21:20:00.000Z

My people, infact if una no flog me, i go flog myself. My silence is unprecedented. Me sef know, so i come humbly. As i dey write so eh? na Ayefele man-pikin dey hear. Omo, to make time out to write on blogger with work, french lessons, novel writing is not yam at all. Omo, i throway salut to all them wey do 10 things at the same time and excelled in all.

How una be? Me.I'm still surprised that Mr Man has still not pissed me off. I swear I keep asking him whether its normal that people we don't argue. Omo, i think the honey moon is still on but ha,what can i say but thank you baba!

I went to see a couple of my old classmates this week, they are all fabulous and have found a replacement 'TEVA'.Can you imagine? They replaced me with a dude from Australia! Incredible! Whats next? LOL
It was cool hanging out with them again...it simply reminded me of that proverb that says 'Twenty Children cannot play together for twenty years...hmmmmmmm!

In other news, Yeye inc's baby craving has since ceased when her favourite cousin gave birth to a bouncing baby girl two weeks ago (why are all kids bouncing when they are born?)Anyways, Aunty go visit her couz, she stayed overnight and could not sleep for a minute through the night. the bundle of joy was really exercising them vocal cords...LOL. After one night,she returned to london with bulgy eyes and a resolve that she REALLY CAN WAIT a long wait to have kids. I swear that was a hilarious sight to watch cuz the yeye inc i know can not see a baby without going "Awwww, I want one!"

Yes o, as i mentioned earlier, im learning french so that i can communicate well with the 'in-laws'. omo no be yam! I dont know who begged me. Na jeje naija boy dey toast me there, wey i dey front. anyways, i go see awon in-laws a couple of weeks back. IT was really cool.the dude's sister is the bomb! She loves SOUTHPARK!!! Awww and she has a lively imagination, almost worse than mine, so PERFECT! The brother's a good looking playing teenager...hmmmm! His dada is fabulous! Although it is wrong to consider trading parents...well if i could i would. He is awesome, you know every parent has their own little 'Skoiskoi' but omo this dude's hiccups are almost invisible. well MomC na another story. Seems like she likes me yeah but she has declared war against the 'alien' in her territory. I guess its only natural but in all she's an OK woman sha!And she's pretty. Now i know where MR MAN gets his boyish charms and incredible eyes from.

What else?Work is FUNNY! Omo, we have crazy managers and human ones. there's this particular guy that we have named 'Shut-ur-F**king-face-Uncle-F**ker' (Yep, i know, a bit too vulgar for me, thats the work of south park in my life)anyway its terrance and Phillips song from SouthPark-the movie. He's one guy who we were not sure he was gay until he started hating on me. As in, the guy just kept on picking on me -unnecessarily! If everyone arrives 10 mins late from Lunch, only Teva will be singled out for being late. If everyone jumps of the cliff, na Teva own dey go talk about. Well, from the intelligence reaching me of recent, apparently his hang-up with me was 'cause i was close to a cute male colleague. Apparently while i was missing work, hanging out with my friends on Wednesday, the dude was batting his eyes at the horrified young man. Omo, when i returned to work today, na so i gather gist....OMO!
My new partners-in-crime were quick to give me the low down once I arrived work today.It seems Uncle F was caught in a moment of momentary lapse of lusting...hmmmmmm!

Women and gossip! Lord save us! and forgive me, just incase Uncle F really isnt gay and we just over-read meanings into harmless office flirting.

In other news, should i go naija?This is a poll. Please drop your two cents. I mean is it sensible to start chasing a ticket to naija now for christmas?
Well guys, i've missed you and I hope to make more time in the future. Well i gotta go resume my French lessons.

Je te tres manquee!
Love y'all
T

the prodigal daughter returns

2007-10-22T00:12:00.001+01:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...............
how shall I begin? Honestly? Can someone tell me? How do you make up for one whole month of silence? Do you yawp about how life has dealt you a weird hand, and how much everything in your life made absolutely no sense? Do you simply dismiss it as one of the demerits of modern society and living? Do you take responsiblity for the many people you let down or do you simply make jokes that have neither meaning nor purpose and ignore the facts of your actions?

Truthfully? I cant tell either. I don't know what's right and wrong any more? I don't have a clear definition of what I can and can not do and recently I find myself opposing the very principles that I once held so dear! Is this what growing up is all about? Feigning competence and integrity at the brim while masking eroding values and untold treachery?
I am reminded at this point that this is the literature of Tinu's silent words. It represents the embodiment of who I really am under the skin. It was my sanctuary, the place I hallow...Well not completely anymore, being that half of my friends visit this page and no offense, I love y'all but there are things about me that you really dont wanna know.

I wonder what makes relationships tick? It certainly isnt the chemistry 'cause at some point every year (maybe more for most) , you'll get that insatiable appetite for forbidden pleasures and that delectable hot chocolate you know you shouldnt be having... It certainly isnt the wonderful role model our parents were...at least not mine. I guess they loved each other in ways that I can never understand. Then what is it? Why do I want to be with this person? Or why am I still with this person?
I see myself spiralling in this quest to understand the motives for my actions because I believe that is the only way to know the real me.

I think the real answer is that I'll never know. I'll never know why I am a guy inside sometimes. I'll never know why I have no political aspirations and dream of ending child hunger. I'll probably never know why the world is round instead of flat like it appears. I will never understand why I am me

BUT DO I LOVE THE FACT THAT I AM!!!!

if one more person asks me this....imma hurt somebody!!

2007-09-21T09:33:00.000+01:00

WHat is it with folks eh?
Ok, i know this is transferred aggression but men....ha! na jeje omo jesu dey waka o! when all these yeye peeps showed up. Whatever, i think im going to move into the silent realm...where the only words i speak are the ones that show on my face.

hey peeps sorry for the delay in publishing gist. I can see now that im not a 'relax and do nothing kinda person' cuz this 3 weeks break that im on before i start work is really driving me insane. I have seen scrubs 100times over, I have messed up my room and tidied it up again. I have basically been lounging around...doing countdown till i start work...am i insane or what?
What's worse...Trevor broke down...yes o! my enemies are at work, they recked my trevor's keypad(thank God for 1 year warranty) but its all good. i should have my baby back by Thursday at the very latest. So until then folks, sorry, the full gist remains safely locked in my trevor :-)

Omo being in a relationship sucks...especially if you have a caring dude...Yuuck! ok, i dont want an insensitive prick lik eMBLA but i dont want a docile dude either. I mean, what does a girl have to do to get some 'quality sturves' up in here :=). like i said earlier 'this is just transferred aggression'. The real cause of the issue is that some Mo'Fo's took my 110pounds that i was supposed to go on day-trip with mr Man.
Yes o, enemies delayed my train so that by the time i got to Kings cross my train was ready to depart and the attendant wouldnt let us in. We then went to the ticketting office and those idiots said that we have to buy a new ticket for 234pounds...Nigga WHAT??????
omo, it is at times like this i wish i were more like my sisters who would undoubtedly do serious 'were' for them but trust gentle Teva to try to reason with them to no avail.
So i'm mega pissed off! my laptop's at the repair shop, my boyfriend's acting like a pant (dont mean i dont like or appreciate it -just in case he reads this...lol), i missed my interview...HAAA!!!!!
Ok, after all the whining, i am grateful that i am alive and yeah i have a boyfriend who's really supportive, cute and...bla bla bla....somebody get me Vodka on the rocks!!!
i think this is what happens when you had your birthday 3 days ago and noone in my family was there :-(
Well guys, i hope you have a better day than mine has been so far....

Deeply touched

2007-09-10T16:05:00.000+01:00

Hey guys,
Thanks so much, I am indeed very very touched by the congratualtions and the greetings i've received from my fellow bloggers...this is awesome! I'm speechless literally.
I will say that God has been faithful you guys, i have so much gist but so little time to share. I am a living testament to God's greatness!
I went from houseless and jobless to owning a fabulous two bedroom apartment with a 5 figure salary.
Omo, if dem talk say miracles no dey happen for 21st century, na lie. ITs the same God of yesteryears that's still alive today.
I will compose a regular...Teva-Style download of GIST for my next post.

Thanks again,

T

Be like say na EU o!

2007-09-07T00:11:00.000+01:00

Eyin peeps, I am now a masters degree holder! Praise God with me. I don submit project, i even do viva on monday.
News flash....be like say i go soon marry o! LOL
I will continue tomorrow, I need to sleep, i'm moving house tmow :-)

You think you have it bad? I got five good options and I still cant pick!

2007-08-19T18:40:00.000+01:00

I think the heading says it best. I'm reading this book at the moment and it keeps telling me what and how i should think or behave. I can testify to the fact that there is a world of difference between knowing what to do and actually doing it.
I really need to stop waiting for the 'wanting' but just go ahead with it anyways.

Before you freak out, its not breast enhancement. That wasnt me! I'm still waiting for the guy that would have the nerve to ask me that. Ok, i take that back, someone has asked and got a slap which hurt my hand more than it hurt his face.(just for the record, I just wanted to hear responses, which were overwhelming btw, I got my pals calling in to check if my brain was still working...LOL. Hilarious stories guys, one actually stated and i quote "I am angry that you actually spent a minute of your valuable time considering it")

I truly just feel like ranting 'cause i'm dreading the completion of my thesis. That means its all over! I've been here for a year...a whole year without Alake...and the crazy traffic, had a life without boli. life without 'real grooving parties'. WAOH!
Scary!

So hows everybody?

Would you?

2007-08-07T22:47:00.000+01:00

What would you do if your loving boyfriend wants you to get breast enhancements??
Would you???

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Post No.80

2007-07-28T14:08:00.000+01:00

emi eni taye tiro ,
pe ko le da oun kankan se,
(I was thought of as inconsequential)
sugbon mo ri anu re gba (but I found favour in your sight),
Oluorun lo ba mi se (my heavenly father did this wonder for me)....

Folks when i cast my mind back, to this time last yearm i cant help but wonder what the heck I was doing? Was there indeed a future for me???
I ask myself, was it not this time last year that I was starting a masters?...Was i not the one thought of as 'Lost', the one with emotional baggage, the one with serious family issues?? but today i'm a testimony.
For a long time i was grouchy, upset with God, upset with myself, discontent ...when i see someone doing something great, instead of praising God's work in their life, i wonder why not me. Geez if i had my way, i'd have been everything to everybody which i can boldy declare is an impossible task for any mortal soul.
This saturday morning, i was thinking about the events this past week, Monday morning, i landed the interview i'd be craving for months, Tuesday my Uncle died suddenly, Wednesday i spent with my widowed aunt, thursday night i finished my project draft and my java program came to a screeching halt, friday, i had one of those bouts of insecurity that ended making me really really angry. but this ofcourse didnt stop me from seeing Transformers in the cinema...LOL
This morning, i woke and the word for me was 'You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.... Its not a struggle of wits, nor of strength or power. its by faith. I felt as though God was asking me 'What about the great things I did for you?' What about your distinction? What about your job offers? What about health and vitality? What about the love that binds your family together? What about being able to pay your rent and seeing movies in the cinema?? (ok, maybe that's my petty version of movie-love) what about winning the swiss battle?? What about Trevor??
'Teva, You are one ungrateful little twat!' I said out loud and then i realised it was true. I was so consumed with what i didnt have, that I didnt realise I had much more than I needed. So today, I am grateful. I thank God for me. For helping me realise how blessed i am, and as i listened to this song by Kirk Franklin, i realised I had to share....

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OOh glory... Halleluyah People!!!!!

Trevor and Teva

2007-07-10T19:38:00.000+01:00

There he was, just sitting there quietly working away; Smiling politely at the customers that walk by. Oh my God, look at him! He's so gorgeous!
Dark as rich cocoa chocolate,if that jacket is any indication of what he's got 'Boy is he loaded!'
Every inch of him is smooth...Ouch!!!
It takes me a moment to realise my mouth is hanging open.
I rushed over to get a better view of him...he's everything a girl could ever dream of. And with a name like Trevor,He's definitely the one....

Ladies and gentlemen, I'd like to introduce to my new sweetheart, Trevor Smith. He's my new Microsoft Vista,Intel Core2 Duo T55000, 2Gb RAM, 160GB hard drive partner! We are so madly in love, and i know this love is bound to last a VERY VERY LONG TIME!!!

Miss you guys!

A tribute to my darlin'

2007-06-23T20:18:00.000+01:00

Today's our anniversary. Me and my laptop. It will however be stepping down this month since it has refused to boot for the past week. Sad!
Hey, no laughing!!! everyone has their foible... and this is genuinely painful. Do you know how many atrocities were committed on that machine?? oooh sweet memoirs!

Here's to you my love...

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Tinu ...hmmm!

2007-06-14T17:11:00.000+01:00

Hello amigo! Guys i havent written much in a while. My apologies, its not because i'm bereft of gist (trust me na!) Its just a weird combination of baby-sitting and oyinbo gbeborun! Omo, i think say na only naija people dey gbefila and gbegele but au contraire, these people invented the remix.
How person go siddon for their room dey yarn and all the people wey dey their flat go don hear all the things wey them yarn. Omo i bow unto dem o! As if that wasnt enough, my cousin has been toasting me to baby sit for her two kids for the last month. She's been using every trick in the book and well I let myself fall for one. Honestly i have no problem babysitting, infact i think babies are cute when they arent yours. so when you spend an hour or two with them and they get on your nerves you can leave...so asking me to spend a whole week with a bunch of 2 and 3 year olds is really pushing it.
The main reason why i dont want to go is my cousin's mom. She's my mom's elder sister who thinks the best way to encourage me is to keep bugging me about man, marriage and how soon?. She cant actually have a simple conversation with me without mentioning something to do with marriage. She no even dey ask boyfriend na fiance she dey ask. Na wa o! I wonder which vessel she'll pop if i unleash my milky darling....LOL.
The one wey annoy me pass happened when i went over the last time, She go wedding on the saturday before i came and gathered all the wedding favours and came to give me.
'Thank you ma' i replied politely and collected them. I con go kitchen go dish food na im she come meet me dey yarn say make i no worry o, say my little cousins go do little bridesmaid for me...HABA??? Omo, as i left the house, i sharply called my mom ( who by the way is the most awesome person in the world) She told me she'd speak to her and i trust my mama, ' e ma fiaye su omo mi,' '(dont stress my daughter) Yippie! wonder mom to the rescue. when it comes to these old people, person no go fit yarn their mind before them go go villa go dey report person to everybody in the family. hmmmmmmmmm....another day in the life of naija chick.

On another level, i be wan yarn you the gbeborun things but my spirit be tell me say, dem gbefila themselves fit go assidentalli jam the info here so man pickin must maintain. Eyin peeps i dey. I bin dey read say Temmy no dey update blog again now that romeo don return to naija..hmmm aunty wetin una dey do wey u no fit tell us, your paddies for blogsville eh? And NB Baba don take permanent abode for facebook, im no dey com crack im 50kobo jokes again....LOL.Its all love bro! I hear say 'dem ladies there no wan leave you...hmm, the boy is a champion!!! LOL.
I really have missed you guys. Infact we dey go barbecue tonight gan sef (for here, na night we dey do barbecue) if you all the kin orisirisi i don chop eh? unna go fear for me. Mr man do me surprise show up last week. Omo, na the sky level i still dey o! That man bin get something. That man bin get some kin juju.... I mean u sef check am. Two week trip turned to two and half, i don dey vex, dey provoke! dey yarn say this time sef, i no know, haba? how person go get bobo who's house dey 20 mins away but na long-distance relationship person dey practice. which kin palavar i go put myself? Trust me na...i don prepare speech...'its not working, i cant handle it...bla bla bla' OMO by the time the broda show face...hmmmmm!
Teva still dey hmmmmmmmmm!!!

Have a fab week y'all!

Ohh what a world, what a life...i'm in love

2007-06-04T15:16:00.000+01:00

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Michael Buble - I've Got The World On A String Lyrics

(Hey Michael come on & swing.
Looks like you got the world on a string.)

I've got the world on a string
I'm sitting on a rainbow
Got that string around my finger
What a world, what a life - I'm in love

I've got a song that I sing
And I can make the rain go
Any time I move my finger
Lucky me, cant you see - I'm in love

Life's a wonderful thing
As long as I've got that string
I'd be a silly so-and-so
If I should ever let you go

I've got the world on a string
I'm sitting on the rainbow
I've got that string around my finger
Oh, What a world, what a life - I'm in love

Life's a wonderful thing
As long as I hold the string
I'd be a crazy so-and-so
If I should ever let her go

I've got the world on a string
I'm sitting on a rainbow
I got that string around my finger
What a world, what a life
Oh, what a world, what life
What a world, what life, cause I'm in love
(He's in love, he's in love)
I'm in love
(Got the world on a string)
And what a wonderful thing
(Alright)
When you get the world on a string
(Uh huh)

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My Celebrity Look-alikes

2007-05-31T12:33:00.001+01:00

My cool celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com. Get one for yourself.

I'm upset...must every story have a sad ending??

2007-05-20T22:29:00.000+01:00

Hi guys...yeah exams are over... and yes before you freak out i'm still madly in love with the new guy and he's still loving me...although from 10000miles away now because he's in singapore for the next two weeks...what kind of company sends their employee on business trips every freaking month??? I guess when he mentioned '....and i travel alot' he wasn't kidding!
Ok. enough about my whining...how are you guys? Yes i know i promised an exclusive, but i think i'm loving the suspense, aren't you? Ohh i'm especially happy for temmy who dared the fiery depths of love and flew to nigeria to be with her love, and for yeye inc...who's symbo-love seriously requires a top-up and most importantly, i'm pissed off.
How many Grey's Anatomy fans are in the house? Did y'all see the finale?? It was... aaaaaaargggh! I almost cried! So annoyingly sad!! Meredith broke up with Derrick, George is trapped in a love-less marriage and is planning to have kids, Lizzie finally falls in love, but with poor married Georgie, Alex opens his heart but is too chicken and too late to claim his love and the straw that broke the camel's back...Christina and Burke didnt get married....OMG, how can this be any worse...
It really got me down for a couple of hours...Why??? Why? cant at least one person be happy?? Yeye inc thought it was a masterpiece that brought a tear to her eye everytime. I cant stand the thought of seeing that...that.. dingy disconsolate episode again. My flatmates say that its 'cause they want all characters to begin next season single &looking for a fresh start; what's more appalling is that most writers do this to keep their fans in suspense till the next season starts...[feigned gasp of surprise] shame on you!
So i did some research...Results?? It's the same for most abc series, horrifying season endings !! Do they just love to torture me? I loved Grey's Anatomy and now you've ruined it! All I will see now when I watch any series, is the manipulating hands of drunk, sinister writers, sitting in the TV box (or in this case, on my laptop screen), wangling the hearts of their once beloved fans...Now a real shame on you!
Breathe....

Ok. I just had to get that out of my system.
So ola amigo! Whats popping? I'm doing great! Preparing for my thesis, job hunting furiously and learning to make home-cooked English delicacies...You should see the weird stuff i've turned out of our oven, all in the name of making dinner. I got the naija bit knocked fine, but men, apart from roasting tomatoes in ginger and vinegar, garnished with cabbage, lettuce and chicken soup(instant) served with cheese-laced potato and fish crumpets; I'm totally lost with the English cuisine. Although all my effort has earned me wonderful brownie points with mr man, its costing me a sweet bundle. Not that I mind (....hmm, ok i do mind, just a little) but i'd like to get it right the first time so I dont keep making three sample meals before the real one surfaces!
Besides i'm beginning to feel rather inadequate because he's a pretty good cook. I'm pretty sure, if I put down ingredients and give him easy-to follow instructions,he'll probably make better Efo elegusi than i do.
I really need to stop whining!

Now to be a darling...i will answer anticipated your questions about mr man
what's his name?
Do you really wanna know?....Lets leave it as Mr man.

how did you guys meet?
He works in the building where i did my first interview

About him
6feet, slightly muscular moderate frame, i dont know how much he weighs but he looks pretty healthy, he loves spicy food and eats 10 times my meal size, loves cricket (I hate that damn game!...no offense), has a younger sister, can't dance to save his soul but can rock you to sleep, very kind, ambitious and fun (when he's around....am i whining again?) his best friend thinks i'm his tamest experiment (nice complement eh?) and yes...finally he's a Christian so i dont have to argue unnecessarily!
That's all folks, its bedtime for me. Sorry I have no gossip but i'm happy! That's much more than i can say for those nasty tv-show finales...

Love y'all

Edelweiss, Edelweiss

2007-05-07T16:27:00.000+01:00

My little brother sent me his classics collection today and you can guess which song jumped right at me....'Edelweiss' (for those of you with incomplete childhood, its one of the songs in 'Sound of Music')
It was like going back in time to the very first moment i heard those notes on the violin...fantastic!!!
It was too beautiful to resist so i decided to do research on what 'edelweiss' is. Apparently its a mountain flower that grows in Europe. its name 'edel-weiss' is from edel- which means noble and weiss which means white!
I wish we had a flower like that back home...or maybe i just dont know the English name for it. It was weird, but hearing that song play over and over again took me back home...to the sweet smell of boli, the music playing softly over our many noisy danfo drivers, the smiling children playing football in the street, the 'feferity owambe parties that we are so famous for..... Aaaah!!! there really is no place like home.

Anyways i have some gossip! LOL. my parnter in crime Yeye Inc has found a breakthrough in the art of loving and being in love...Ladies and gentlemen, i present to you 'Symbo-Love' short for symbiotic love!
This unique type of love establishes a rare and strong connection with one's lover such that, if you dont sleep, they dont sleep....YES Ladies and gentlemen, you could be the proud owner of a lover who is completely in-tune with you.
For a limited fee only, Yeye inc and her beau will demonstrate the superior technique of 'rubbing' that can last 7 harsh months in jand....LOL (FYI this is payback for her making my life an episode of grey's anatomy)

Great things are happening my people.
..my once confirmed bachelor friend has thrown in the towel and wants to join the married folks. For real!! I am totally psyched for him! And for my *^7^&^$%$ loving self! If my friend can change, there's hope for men out there!! maybe even for our newest recruit.
Ok, I have to go read now...
Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever...

in our case... it should be.
iroko tree, iroko tree
bless my homeland forever!

Perfectionist Anonymous!!!

2007-05-04T18:15:00.000+01:00

'99.9% is a failure...only 100% is a pass.'

Does life have to be perfect? Should life be perfect….or more precisely can life be perfect??
Do we really require perfection to be happy? Must our alarm wake us up at 6 am sharp, breakfast on the table by 7.05 and our daily bus to work right there on the nick of 7.30.
Must our grades be straight As for us to get the best jobs and consequently the best life? Will our relationships last longer if they were perfect? Perfect with the perfect settings and the perfect partner? Can we truly ever find perfection or it just a fleeting shadow some will forever chase as the proverbial dog chases its tail? Is perfection really the path to ‘the good life’?
Growing up, I was taught to believe that the best things in life were perfect and to truly be happy and fulfilled you must get that perfect grade, that perfect job, the perfect spouse and have that perfect family with cute…perfect smiles. I often wondered why my family wasn’t perfect, I mean, we had great moments and I love them to bits and would never trade them for…hmmm let me not be too optimistic, I would trade some of my extended family for a …LOL, just a silly thought. Yeah, my family is definitely far from perfect so why should I strive for perfection? Is it truly attainable? Is it a utopic dream that some of us must chase (I say ‘some’ because I know better) to feel a reason for existing? And more importantly, is it really worth the sacrifice??
Do not get me wrong, I'm not advocating that we all sit in the sidelines and watch life pass us by. I'm definitely not trying to undermine the importance of discipline and dedication to our dreams but I'm asking the bigger question here? Is this the only way to get there? And when we get there, what do we do??

What is perfection to you? Is it when you get the perfect job or that spiked raise and buy that flaming hot Ferrari and move to a house across the hill? Is it when you discover the cure for cancer and save countless lives from untimely death and painful treatment? Is it a situation when the world is in perfect peace and there are no more hungry children and wars everywhere? Do you even think you are part of what can bring perfection to your world?
I ask this, because I answered all these questions years ago! My answers told me I was different and that I had a long journey to achieve perfection. For many people, life is a learning process, a continuous cycle of making mistakes and learning from them, crying, smiling and embraces whatever greets us, good or evil; mine was different. I saw life as a set of choices…the good ones, enrich you and the people around you; the bad ones demean you and hurt the people around you. Good choices are usually harder to make and bad choices can be avoided by learning from other people’s mistakes. Believe it or not, its simple and very effective. All that philosophy about ‘experience is the best teacher… to me meant, other people’s experience is the best teacher.
This became my moto, since I grew up accustomed to working hard for what I want, no shortcuts, simply doing the dirty work; it came quite naturally! I kept a fairly strict routine, had my goals (to have the highest grades in JSCE (that’s like a mid-high school exam)) and the long term goal of blab la bla… you know the usuals. I remember the first guy that asked me out received a stern warning along with a few tips on how to get his grades up.

As profitable as this was, what shocked me the most was how I became highly intolerable of people’s inadequacies. I just couldn’t understand why people didn’t work so hard….why they blamed the government for everything, or why they just wouldn’t apply themselves to get the good things in life.
Even more infuriating were the people who took shortcuts, who cheated, who bought their way through everything! Talk about being born in the wrong century!! In retrospect, I think I was so straight I was a sharp piercing knife…heavily critical. And what did I gain?

To be continued....

Jolly J

2007-04-16T11:32:00.000+01:00

Hi guys,
How was Easter?!! Fab!
I'm just concluding my easter tour...(talk about a serious minded student) and for all my fans that miss me, dont worry, darlin' Teva will be back in full blast after her exams. I'm so happy... the weather's fine, temp's btw 25 and 30 (naija weather) and i'm giving in to my age long vice -SHOPPING!!!!
Yday was J's bday. OMG, i missed the dinner! Yeah...geographical restraints but I'm coming to get my cake as soon as i return. I even have a good mind to super-impose my face in all of the birthday pictures as soon as they are out. Juwalo darl', if i could do it over again, I would wish i met you sooner...LOL. Happy Birthday man!
......In other news, the superfly Software engineering mogul Teva Smith is no longer single. Our London correspondent Jamie howard reports that the 2x yr old QM student has been keeping her relationship with the Finance Analyst underwraps for several weeks. The two were spotted leaving london for brussels earlier in the week. Some rumours indicate they had plans to visit Teva's parents. Miss Smith's PA confirmed the relationship began in mid-march but said that her beau preferred to keep it simple.
This news coming in, just as prince william split with his long term girlfriend....

How y'all been?
I feel like a cat that licked creme...probably because I have been licking creme...(the good kind). The resulting stimulus is under investigation and the findings will be released after exams. So my folks were happy to see me. they welcomed me with news from my grandma...can you imagine??? Talk about getting my priorites straight.
Anyways its all good...Did you guys go home to vote?? Only the gubernatorial election results are out and everyone's already coming up with tales of malpractice...una no tire?
I cant wait for saturday's presidential elections...y'all better vote for my uncle! If you dont eh?? Temmy, wildcat, miggie...guys..I know where you live...LOL
In keeping with nigerian news, I heard obanikoro is now governor of lagos state...eeeeeewww! may them build our 4th mainland bridge jare and comot their pot-bellies from TV. Speaking of potbellies, Is it true that if a guy's father has a potbelly, he will get one in middle age? 'Cause right now, i'm scared o! Dont want my baby looking like that soon.

Now back to the books. Yeye inc has been great...pls say thank you to her on my behalf. I'll be seeing y'all in london in a couple of days...Chao!

Nerves......

2007-04-05T12:25:00.000+01:00

Funny title.
Exams are coming like....i dont know what adjectives to use here, but needless to say, yours faithfully is finding it hard to stick to her time table. 'this calls for the prayer of the saints...' I was thinking of the perfect comic lines to put there but it would sound sacriligious. Whatever!
Too much book!
My people i dey o! How come all the atheists i know are even more determined to remain atheists? Am I such a bad influence? I would imagine that anyone that hangs around me will see the wonders of such an amalgamated super homo superious sapiens sapiens divinus!
I was yarning with a pal yesterday, 'cuz we got a course grade published and it was fabulous so he was saying that he can afford to fail at least one module.
I then said, 'come on, have a little faith there...'
he says 'faith and i are mutually exclusive'
'Come on' I retorted, 'you will become a christian sooner or later'
'that will happen when you first turn a cabbage into a human'...we laughed ofcourse but i pulled his hair and made him swear he'd become a christian .....wonder Teva wins soul! hurray!!!
Every day, i see a new side to this christian -muslim vs atheist thing. (btw, there's a dog fest right outside my window. AT this very instant about 12 dogs of various sizes(from different owners) are frolicking outside my window...its so a cute sight...awwww.....oh, look the cute pup is playing in the water....awwwwwwww....) Ok. enough mushiness!
Where was i?? yeah atheist thing....hmmm! I recently discovered that its not just surface issues like i thought it was. For most, atheism is a result of years of thinking and experiences and unanswered questions...hmmmmmmmm
Ok. Gossip??? Not much to tell really. Unnerving brother showed up again. This time he had a valid excuse, apparently the reason he was at a juve's party was because the juve was his kid sister...hmmmmm. Cool eh? Ok all remaining wierd gist retumes after i've read my DSS. See you guys!
And for those of you that believe in Jesus! Have faith!!! LOL

A Drink you should never turn down!

2007-03-29T11:50:00.000+01:00

Hi guys,

How have you been? I still dont feel like confessing just yet. I have missed having you guys around? Wetin do all of una? Everyone just went on a blogger break??? Unacceptable! Especially without express permission from my very humble self...LOL
Wetin do miggie?? Where's he going? Young man, except you are planning to run to mars or saturn, I'mma find you!
A lot of gist o! Chai! Holding everything inside is making me tingly all over...LOL, but i've come to realise there are somethings y'all dont need to know...its redundant gist.
Yesterday I went around doing good like Jesus said abi, na so me and Yeye inc go see one person like that -long story short, we ran into a mutual friend and decided to see the guy's place. Not bad, we stayed a while and when we were about to go, his 'afesona' showed up. So 'EXILE' was declared, we catch scope and cut.
Na so yeye inc dey yarn me say thank God no be only me come o, say na so my hair dey stand like person wey rush chop! that even the afesona dey look me 10 times...abeg o! Na your property o! My hair stands...aint my fault, na so God make am! In fact, my paddie one time tell me say, my hair na 'alakoba', if my face no koba me, my hair must to koba me. Haba??? only me???

Anyway, I went to get my documentes in the equivalent VI of london. The area is really tight, infact, every car that passed was chauffer-driven...hmmm memoirs...LOL. Anyways na so child of God dey mind her business dey waka o! na so, one bros walking toward me was smiling, I thought it would be rude not to smile back, so i did. He then stopped and asked if I worked around here.
'Dude, i don't know you...'
'Weren't you at xxxx's party last week?' It felt alot like those sleezy come-on lines.
'No, I dont know xxxx, I dont know you, it was nice meeting you though...bye'

I turned the corner and it started to drizzle, so I stood at the nearest cover I could find. Looked like the entrance of some hotel or company, the bell man didnt seem to mind, so I stood peacefully waiting for the wet weather to pass. Door opens behind me and dismissed dude is standing behind me smiling. Who the heck is this dude?? Ok, its free public space. He had the proverbial 'you can run but can't hide look'. That's irritating.
First, you look really close to thirty so I wonder what you'd be doing at a juve's party? Second, Its mid day...shouldn't you be work or something? Or do you spend your lunch hour preying on innocent by-standers??
'Would you like to wait inside while it rains?' He said after a moment or so.
"No, thanks, i'm sure it would soon pass'
"Would you like to have a drink sometime?'
"I..."Just then the rain stopped. Perfect! "I'm very busy this week. It was nice meeting you...again. " Na so i carry my kaya and fled.

Fine, I admit turning him down was not the perfect decision and yes, I kinda wish i did say yes but he was unnerving! What kind of guy meets you in 2 minutes and already makes you feel completely uncomfortable???? Even if you did spend the entire party staring at him....

Mothers & Drinks...

2007-03-18T13:51:00.000Z

Hello World...
Happy Mothering Sunday to all mothers out there. To you wonderful women who make life worth living. The rock behind our very existence, to the wonderful maker of you all,
The smiling mothers,
The stern ones,
The melodramatic ones,
The effluvious ones,
The dynamite ones,
You teach us what family is and tell us that we are special. Truth is, we are special because you are special.
I love you MOM, if you were a flower, i'd still have picked you...

In the festive spirit, its Saint Patrick's weekend here in the UK. Some irish drinking????LOL. I'm hovering between finishing my coursework and joining the fun. Well guys, where's everyone? Update your blogs!!!!

What thinketh thou?

2007-03-11T07:51:00.000Z

As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he. What are you thinking right now? Yep, that slipperly thought that simply frolicked through your mind. It aroused several images in your head, some of them made you laugh, others rejoiced in the fact that no other creature could see what goes on in that head of yours. Isn't it amazing? You smile politely 'Morning Mrs X' meanwhile that head of yours ripped her open and feasted on what her features might look like. I can bet that you have a 97.9% guess accuracy by now and with any luck and further training, you will experience what you have envisioned.
Isn't it sad however? You are the parish priest afterall, the morality preacher or that 'looking/sounding perfectly sane man'. Many look up to you and you know it. You are at the forefront of pertinent issues today, the vanguard of our pressing for a better world. Still you encourage such indiscipline in your members.
Why did you take that trip? 'i needed to see first hand, the effect of our contributions to improving the lives of the less privileged!' You protest. Wasn't it to avoid having that conversation with your wife? To claim expenses you really didnt incur? To indulge in some wild thrills? 'enjoy the fruits of your labour' as you like to call it.

You've had it properly planned. What you'd tell the wife, what you'd say to the firm to let you go at the break of spring, eh? How you'd play that you really didnt want to go but how the firm is making you do it?
Dont you realise that what you broad over is what lays eggs of indiscretion in your life? Dont you realise the motive for any action is truly the axis on which its value lies? That 100,000 pounds you gave to 'war-child' is really worth nothing because you only did it to get a tax-break. Or did you really think your soaring reputation was an indication that you've been doing right by the world? Au contraire, mon ami! Even the courts will let you off a heavy penalty if your lawyers can provide 'reasonable doubt' on your motives for the crime.
If even the decadent system we operate in appreciates that the motive for our actions can determine whether they are truly evil or good, why then do we make so light of them in our daily lives?

Some may argue that we can not, indeed should not, be condemned by our thoughts, afterall half the time we are not in control of them. They are mostly a response to external stimulus or our nous's way of letting us know that we are alive. Moreso, thoughts unlike actions are not quantitatively examinable as to determine a cause-and-effect relationship. How many thoughts on killing equate to murder? Can you prove i really thought about killing him if i didn't physically do it? Or that if I think about kiling someone for a year, i'd figure out a sneaky, evidence free way of doing it? (Don't you just love the human mind?)

I submit to you that your thoughts are more powerful than you are willing to let on or accept. I submit to you that the true value of any act is in the motive therein. I submit to you that even though this notion is unprovable, you and I know its true!
Take a moment to examine the 'value' of your actions, maybe you'll see the thoughts that led to them and maybe, just maybe then you'll see the truths you've ignored. 'cause that seemingly harmless thought you entertain now, may cost more than you bargained for later on...

March

2007-03-01T08:29:00.000Z

As I march on, armed in the month of March,
I shall stand on that which I know to be true
Taking each day as a gift, new
Walking tall as someone foreknew.
Yes! No longer a servant but a friend,
Destined, Heiress till the end
Making my way through each day,
A sign, not a needle in hay...
Though I walk through the valleys and the shadows,
NO SHAKIN'!!!
Baba mbe leyin mi

I walked and walked and what did i see?

2007-02-25T21:51:00.000Z

Sorry guys, due to circumstances beyound my control -naming Nollywood producers, horrible acting and poor equipment, I walked and walked and what did I see was not a success. The studio refused to endorse the movie and no cinema would play it. Its so bad, you-tube removed it for not meeting viewing quality standards...LOL

Truth? I'm too tired to write. Omo, the kin tins wey i suppose dey read men, its backing up on me. but in the midst of it all, Teva always got gist.
First, mini yarns from my 'parria' trip last week. When I landed I thought I was in another country, probably closer to VI in naija. Its cool o, dont get me wrong but it just lacked the lustre I'd hoped for. Anyways, pale picked me up from the station and dumped me at another friend's (twin sister) place because he and wifey got plans. Post-vals romance..hmmm! Jehovah Jireh never die, he still dey throne.
At twin sis's, we just dey yarn! The woes of two sisters...LOL. It was so much fun. All the latest naija gist / gossip. It felt like being home. Well we hadn't finished when lover boy arrived. Naija Gist part 2 resumed. See yarns! Omo, we didnt realise how time flew until I was too tired to yarn (even for me that's a rarity).
Saturday, I slept till mid afternoon. Na my papa wake me o! He's coming over. I guess that means I either produce the cambridge application form or else...LOL
Anyways the day was very restful. AT night wifey made dinner and some friends came over as well. Let me fastforward to the koko!
On Sunday after church, me and wifey went back to twin sista's. She hadnt returned from church so her one of her flatmates kept us company (isnt that nice?) Well when she finally arrived, she was making food...enter 'Hunkalicious'. He's one of twin sis' flatmates. How do i describe him???Hmm, putting my milk-bias aside, he'll give a broda run for his money. At first i didnt want to say anything but when wifey sef begin interrogate the broda, na im i open mouth. Summary = Man-pikin must go visit again! Even if its just to see the sight again...LOL

Apologies again, I don't feel like writing much. What have I learnt this week?
1. Dont jump infront of a changing green-walk-sign.
2. People can be very nice, if you give them room.
3. Stay AWAY from all kinds of coffee! LOL
4. A happy Teva is an infectious Teva, a morose Teva's bad company. Happiness is a function of your inside and not of the circumstances around you.
5. Finally, inspiration comes from the places you least expect them.

See y'all

And the party was....

2007-02-22T14:15:00.000Z

Hmmmm, this week has been quite an experience. Everybody is just unveiling their true colours!
Lets begin with Aunt WildCat, who turned out to be not quite as wild as we imagined. Needless to say, she's an excellent writer and i'd definitely pick a few skills from her. And to her HTB 'Bros, cool down, haba, your girl is talented! Aint no need to vex!(well, some parts are a bit scary) but hey, she's all yours! That's the important thing'
Then boodaman, my darlin egbon, has/ and is being hounded by so many babes, i think it would be unfair to the female population for him to married. Seriously, for that kind of guy with his skills, his humour, his personality, and his maleability to be tied down to one woman will be doing the rest of the world a huge disfavour. Besides, he doesnt really wanna anyways, right??? I guess we should launch an agency to bestow his new fragrance 'the essence of boooda' to the many women out there.
And finally Naijabloke, what can i say? the parcel must have gotten stuck in artartica right? or was it accidently mailed to madagascar? Well done! My boiz will be visiting you shortly..LOL

From the blogworld, we move to school world, We have this annoying PVS assignment that's worse than the previous one. The bad thing is, inspiration comes and goes, so i may write a line, but followthrough's not there. And its due soon...hmmm!

Well with regards to the naming ceremony of my new 2nd cousin, it was a very quiet ceremony. Partly 'cause it wasnt in Lagos but so far, no news to report...(imagine my disappointment)
Well let me get back to PVS and other pressing engagements. I spent some time on chain-mail from my old colleagues today. It was rather refreshing! I guess what makes people great is how everyone is a distinct piece of a huge puzzle.
Well, back to work for me, This weekend is for Parrraaai!!! Will keep y'all posted...Cheers!

"Happy new year, here's your mandate!"

2007-02-18T22:58:00.000Z

Happy New year to my chineese kinsmen!! Its my year according to your calendar! Tha's cool, 'cause i'm ready to launch!!!
Hi y'all the hype is finally over..how was vals? for me, all my fun began and ended with telephone calls...(that's something at least...at one point i wasnt quite content with that)

I begin with great news! I have a new cousin/cousin. My cousin’s wife has birthed a bouncing baby boy Feb 11th 2007. Yes o!.. another expensive (and interesting) family naming ceremony. Well the cool part is that its time for the other arm of the family to out-do the other arm. Its silly, yeah but its cool for us ‘cause we get host really expensive events. Aint that cool? Well I haven't thought what to name the baby yet. I was telling a friend some days back about our tradition of not calling the baby a name until the naming ceremony. You should have seen the look on his face…LOL.
Ok. What other good news? My father in his kind and benevolent graciousness has decided to give me another degree. He states that I should apply to Cambridge without delay…(I think his best friend’s son is doing a Phd there.) hmm? From all intelligence reaching me (through my brother) he’s quite a looker, firm with the ladies, good Christian and the last born son. Did I tell you guys I had a thing for last born sons? Only one of my ex’s hasn’t been last born son...(hey everyone has their own little idiosyncrasies
You know what’s baffling, the fact that my dad is actually planning to interfere in my seemingly boring love life. I've always appreciated my father’s taste in things. My dad buys me the best fitting clothes, accessories…honestly, if you see me in a very tasteful stylish outfit, chances are that dad got them for me… but I doubt this is where his expertise is required. I mean, isn't that a bit weird? I know i'm not producing all the signs of commitment to the any relationship prospect but hey you gotta give me a break! I mean Ex was fabulous! Crush on MBLA was a huge disaster! I need to catch my breath... I guess the old pal's really taking that misson 20-09 very seriously…hmmm

What’s up? I must confess since the advent of wild cat. I've been sleeping less and dreaming more! (not good) I assure you. And now i have to write my project proposal and i must be honest i havent figured it out yet...
I spent today with my old boss. he flew into town to do some business, so myself and a couple of other pals went avisiting. I didnt realise how much i missed the adrenaline rush from work. He went on about projects that we were currently working on and how fantastic an opportunity it would have been. It was cool sha, until they decided to pick on me...

Well i'm back now. Trying to calm my nerves but it aint working (Note to self, lay off the coffee). As the new work week begins...lets start it with hope and grand expectation...because if you dont expect great things, they'll just walk right past you....

Have a splendid Week!!

A short trip down memory lane...(A val's day special!!!)

2007-02-14T09:47:00.000Z

A frigteningly wonderful gynoki meal

My ALONE-Place

My ever loving best pal

My first snow!

View 2

My NYSC tribute

positive thinkin-

2007-02-13T17:06:00.000Z

Hi guys,
Before i get all girlish and val-fanatical, i'd like to remind us of a little thing called positive thinking. Now i'm sure most of you have read the book by Norman Vincent P_____ on it but today i received some new insight on the topic.
Positive thinking that works isnt a function of our conscious minds, its not our head (that does the math) that analyses and thinks positively but our subconscious mind.
Truth be told, i had an old high school friend who only called me once in my entire four years in uni. The day he called, we spent a couple of minutes with idle chats and then he asked after my grades and I told him i was standing in-between a first and 2'1. He made this statement that seemed to haunt me everytime i look at my transcript, he said 'T, you can make a first if you want to. the only reason you are "in between" is because you have decided whether you want it."
I immediately dismissed it, laughing at his cheap psychology and told him that i did want a first, and that i intend to get it allbe it.
When he got off the line, it seemed like he had diagnosed some part of me i wasn't facing. I didnt make a first. My pals were really shocked, they blamed my new boyfriend for distracting me (a big lie, i was a control-freak then, so he couldnt get me to do anything i didnt want to)
And in the midst of their diagnosis, i'd always seem to quietly ask myself, did i really truly desire this??? Or am i handed what i didnt mouth but internally craved??

I saw this video on google (I couldnt upload it, so here's the LINK )and one of the speakers said something that struck me. "...many of us can describe vividly what we dont want to happen, but when asked what we want, we cant paint a clear image of what we desire"
unfortunately, this means all our subconscious mind has to work on are our fears and thats what manifests in our lives...Its proved by science but scripture had it pegged ages ago. You all know the story of Job, the richest man in the east. He wasnt tempted by God, He said "The things i've greatly feared have come upon me.." in Job 3:25.

So tonight folks, lets ask ourselves one question, 'what is my subconscious mind thinking of?' Because whatever it is you are thinking about, that's what you are going to be...
Have a fabulous valentine's day!!!!

E wa bami jo o! (come rejoice with me)

2007-02-11T14:25:00.000Z

Yes o!
First i was really sick but as of this moment, i'm in perfect health, i give God all the glory. Then i have a PVS assignment due tomorrow...it involves alot of skolemisation (never mind) and assertion but glory to God i have proved lemma 1 and 2 and currently on 3.

For those who dont understand, bear with me. Its this funny course about formal methods that has been giving me some scruples. Plus mr wahala himself.
Omo, wild cat...you are wild...stuff like that only happens in my head. You've brought it to
another level...thumbs up girl. Like i said, Cowboy had better represent if he doesnt want 'ogbonge' Yoruba and igbo jazz to pounce on his head.
There are some people who are threading that dangerous path with me and 'anu mi nse wan. Towo mi ba waa wan???' hmmm....
Aunty Temmy, what is Ex up to this time? please tell me we are speculating a re-proposal...abeg
may d guy do quick jare, make we come chop wedding cake. I don tire to dey speculate, its time to chop-ulate...LOL
Anyways I'm well!
There's a movie on 13th, going to see it with ma girlfriends! Then the anointed day...[drum rolls]
I'm waiting to either get my presents or call babaJebu to start throwing some arrrows...LOL So for those affected, i have told you now o!

Can someone really bring out a more playful side of you?? I dey yarn one of my guys last night (in the midst of my fever) and i swear as i see im number my mind just kule...I yarn this guy like say na yesterday we talk last. ITs amazing but its true. Even when i have 'fever' for some guy or my moods are going haywire, it just takes a call. I go yap am so tey, we go just finish everything with more laughter...hmmmmm
I guess that whole story about one person for one person na lie, because you sef check am, you get romeo, and you get back-up and you get one long-time pale wey just stick to you sha...
Na im make i think am. WEll, as i dey now, i get lemma 3b - 7 to complete so i gotta go.
Praise God with me o! and help me yap MBLA say im no try!!!

Romance in February.....

2007-02-05T21:15:00.000Z

When i woke up yesterday, it was just another day in February, I read my Bible and said my morning prayers, prayed especially for my family, my naughty friends, my country nigeria and the other regular 'prayer points'. I was about to get up but I couldnt shake this nudging feeling like there were things i wasnt talking about. So i found myself hanging at my bed's edge for five more minutes in silence, struggling to verbalise words wedged in my throat.
The usual bail out was 'Lord i'm grateful because you know what I need and you'll give me the desires of my heart' but I wasnt getting away with it today, in fact, my devotional reading about defining our desires in prayer, Mark 10:51. Jesus asked the blind man what he wanted him to do for him. I mean it was painfully obvious what the guy desired but the man had to voice his desire in faith and he received his sight. My desires are so many!!!
Sometimes it frightens me to think that only me wants all the things that i do. I really want to stop world hunger. Dont get me wrong, I'm not giving a miss world speech but i must confess i'm terrorized by pictures of hungry children all around the world, especially in Africa. Just imagine how many kids would sleep with food tonight if we gave a cent/penny/kobo each.
That of course is the nobel part of my heart, there are obviously some less-than-noble parts, like the part that wants to buy an island, the part that wants to own a ranch....etc.
Okay, when i got tired of not speaking, I decided to be a sharp kid and run from confronting the spirit's gaze. Omo, little did i know...
First i got out of my room and my flatmate was so excited about this prospective guy she would be seeing during the week. "I'm so glad, good news!" Ok. I started rushing out to class, my phone rings, its my kid sis.
SIS: "O gal, guess who's in Naija?"
ME: "Who? Udini???"
SIS: "Your papi!"
ME: "What? I thought he said he'd be in the states...."
SIS: "Apparently he wanted to surprise his wife"

Another 10 minutes i was off the phone and biffing them like mad. Omo, see this old people that should spend their time wondering about me, they are planning valentines'. can you imagine? Aren't they too old for that?? Me dey find valentine's runs...at that very moment, na im the spirit nudge me say 'aunty, na you no ask o!'
I dey ask o! Infact, i over ask like simon peter.
And the word is simply this..."Ask and ye shall receive...Seek and ye shall find, Knock and the door will be open unto you, for whoever asks receives, whoever seeks finds, and to however knocks the door shall be open...

Have a fabulous week!!!!!

hmmmm....Small change, Big Change

2007-02-03T18:57:00.000Z

My people, how you doing? I went through some blogs and omo, the pre-vals tensions are high. hmmm, omo no too think, na the thinkin dey make the Naijablokes of this world promise to marry 20 girls for blogsville....LOL
How na? Na one of my pale ask about naija stuff na im make i go down memory lane. But eyin people, do you know we are blessed? Forget the 'westernization' we've had for the last half century and look at Africa as it was...
Na we build pyramid for egypt without caterpillar,
na we dey communicate with drums aka Gangan ...
Na we first invent high speed flyin aka 'ofe'
Na we dey cure anything with leaves and trees,
na we dey make our jewelry wey person no fit allergic to,
Na we dey make CORRECT soup without maggi and all the carbonate sulphates.
Na we go chop beleful and no go fat the kin yeye fat wey dey disgrace our people these days. We no need to chop leaf like goat to get nutrition and vitamins.
Omo, when did everything change??? Its so bad these days that i jam some naija babe wey dey brag that since them born am, she never chop 'African food'. I laugh, i tell am say na small pikin still dey worry am.

What brought all this up? Hmm, i dey yarn about intonations in our languages, na im i just dey wonder say wetin go happen if our forefathers continue with their 'OFE', no Visa be that..LOL, i go fit go blow Naijabloke for all his blogville affairs LOL. No i'm laughing but its paining me, you mean to tell me we no get 100% Nigerian product or 100% African product that the world has changed their lives to fit????. No talk plating hair, no talk food...wetin we don make the world change towards, afterall, 90% of our lifestyle these days is imported. We changed our dress sense, we changed our eating culture, we changed our work culture, wetin we don make them change????
I dont see Europeans wearing danshiki to work, I no see dem dey wak amala and edikaikan for restaurant, I no see dem dey wear beads or animal skin slippers...
So for a little ease, we traded so much? Eyin peeps... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i'm on another level that you cant afford...

2007-01-31T21:08:00.000Z

For shizzles y'all this in your girl T-V smizzles to the hizzles. YEs y'all I'm releasing my new album called 'CopyCats aint got a clue' on JabberJay records. This wonderful new album contains songs by taking lines from other artists and make it into a new song.
You know the funny thing, if I did that with rap/ hiphop artists today, what i'd come up with will be similar to this

You need to add fifty more Gees,
I have pink and yellow diamonds,
My bling-bling is worth more than you make in a year,
I'm so fly I got chicks everywhere
I was broke as hell before i sang a song,
Now i'm rich and i sell drugs
Btw dont let the police catch you riddin' with the dope
I've been to jail for a long time,
Now i'm out and I'm making hits....

Aint that pathetic? What happened to the good ole days of good, nourshing music. The good ole days when music was calming or exciting or whatever...but it added some sort of value to your life. Today all i hear is...ME ME ME, DRUGS, and MORE WOMEN...oh and my personal favourite Diamonds and blings...aka Glitters!

Just so you know, I aint hatin'! My blingage is comin' especially in this romantic season...LOL. Speaking of romance, is it ok, for an old flame to try to make a comeback around valentines? Just for old times sake? Would you classify that as harmless flirtiing? considering the fact that you are both single at this time and you are probably just going to have dinner and hang out until the entire valentines' excessive indulgence is over?
I mean, we've only always been friends. When we met, he was in a relationship and i wasnt, we were in school then and when i was, he no longer was. We had some awkward moments but thats the worst and we've been great friends through it all. We keep in touch but nothing out of the ordinary. He's too vain for me and he usually dates women whose intellectual doesnt match up with their physical' lyrics of Joe -Ride with you. (no biff). So we were talking a week ago and he asked where my lastest boyfriend would be taking me for vals. I yarn the guy say 'naijabloke na yeye boy...kiddin'. Then he calls tonight and says we should meet up on valentines day and hang out. After work ofcourse...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Ok, may be i'm over analysing.

I should get back to reading. Before I go, Aunty Temmy, how far? First yo said Naijabloke, now you want me to switch base to Naijadude? Gal, cool down. Marry Ex first then we can discuss it. LOL

when in doubt...bail out!!! (not quite teva's style but hey!) ok. let me be real.
There's more you can achieve by making ONE move than doing nothing at all...
Yeah and here's what my birthday means...aint that cool?

Your Birthdate: September 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.
You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.
Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.
You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress.

Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years

Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities

Your power color: Crimson red

Your power symbol: Snowflake

Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

See y'all

How do you do?

2007-01-28T07:53:00.000Z

Hi y'all. I cant get all geeky. Neither can I smile too much. My baby's depressed. He's been stuck with a grouchy personality for a while now. The bad thing is that he's as sweet as honey and you know that you one is that coy, the last thing you need is a fly in your ointment ...EVERY FREAKING DAY!!!
I know he's growing up and he isnt quite a baby but he's in a really delicate corner. I dont know what to do to help him out. So if anyone knows, let them give me some pointers. it will be very well appreciated.

I had a whirlwind week. First my sidekick caught chickenpox. Walahi, shocking info but after the initial 'tears' she was as good as new. She's now recovering, all buttered up with calamine lotion and her luva's keeping her calm with his soothing voice over the atlantic ocean. P.S. REmind me talk about relationships that are long distance. Its amazing the kind of twists you get these days.

In other news, Teva's got a headstart with the kind of things she wants to do but this little thing with my baby's getting to me. I need to stop being such a softie but hey, i cant help it.

Now juicy gossip. Well, what can i say, when you are cute, you're cute. People just cant get enough of you abi? Well MBLA seems to be getting all the attention he doesnt exactly desire (now that is from the horse's mouth but y'all know guys, attention is attention, even if it is from freaky...LOL) ok. I end my bif. What can i say? i admire the woman. I mean, seriously there's only so far i can go for a man, especially when the guy keeps reminding me that he aint interested. Abi, i lie?
When i went to do my hair yesterday, my pal had the hairstylist aunty come to his place so that it would be easier. Well it turns out that my friend is going out with the hairstylist. She's really cute. I mean, she's WELL endowed! The kind that will cause any naija guy to drool. she cooks fabulously too 'cause when i was done with the hair, she fed me with correct naija rice, stew and deepfried plantain.
Me, I was cracking jokes like 'Our wife has been taking good care of me', but lo and behold mr. man talk say 'he's not quite sure!'
WHAT????????
You know what? As of today i'm going to stop speculating, and stop trying to understand the actions of you boys/men around the world...'cause its just a huge headache. Can one of you be so kind as to step up and speak plainly, telling us "What makes a man SURE that a girl's the one for him?" Frankly, all those playtime 'house-hopping, cleaning and body maintenance service' that the ladies are doing for you isnt exactly for free you know? And if you are almost fairly certain that you aint into them, why not be upfront about it, and spare us the drama. Besides, why can't you guys be content? Haa, i understand that with every girl there's obviously some buzz, but frankly must you freaking try them all???
Seriously, there's a girl in a relationship now, who's biological clock is ticking like hell and who's time you are wasting especially when you KNOW!!! Its just simply wicked! Malicious and insensitive, almost borderline inhumane.

Enough of Women-Right's Teva, now we switch to Barbie-doll Teva...Valentines' Day is coming. I saw this really cute teddy in ASDA that brought out the 'girliness' in me. Took me straight back to the first year in high school where I had my first valentines' day saga. I think i've told you guys about it before. Men, I still feel stupid everytime I think about it. I swear it would be fun to see that boy again and 'smack that'...LOL ' actually more like smack his face! yeye boy!!! LOL. Me an my flat girls (namely my new partner in crime) have decided to have a dinner for the girls...This should be interesting. I'll let you know how it gets...Note to Naijabloke (now that you know i like teddies, be a darling and mail me a very big one for valentines' day, you know what the Bible says about a cheerful giver...LOL)
Well its me and Buble this year! Yes o!

In other news, I missed another cousin's wedding last week. Omo, that guy is highly favored. Seriously, his girlfriend (now his wife) has done nothing but bring him supergood luck. First, she managed to stay with him even when all his others deserted him, she got a job, was supporting them both and now, she won the American visa lottery at first try and they are on their way to new york by monday i think. Aint that precious??? Those are the kind of stories i want to hear. I met her, had 20 other girlfriends, i dumped them all and stuck with her and now we're together. Not those stupid fake psychological bulldung most guys would say.
Ok. I think i'm going to stop here before some guy tries to wring my neck...LOL. So what words do i leave with you this week??? hhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
When in doubt, try the EXIT sign.

Love y'alll!!

About blinging time!!!

2007-01-21T00:24:00.000Z

Hallo people...Right now, i'm enjoying the music of sting 'Englishman in NewYork'. How has your week been? Mine requires prayer and fasting. I need alot of energy (more like focused intensity) to stay on track from Tuesday through the week.
Well, less philosophy, more laughs. Today, I learnt two very important things from two very divergent people. One, (a funky, bright and young) showed me that it doesn't have to take alot for you to do what you really enjoy doing. The other, (a somewhat calm, gentle and slightly older) showed me that 'photography is a really expensive hobby! Jeez!
Usually when I'm walking down any road and see people with bulky cameras hanging from their necks, and I always remember thinking to myself "Why dont they just get those small cameras" or "there's no big deal in taking photos: simply hold still, press button and viola! A picture."
Men, was I wrong!! I was taken through an overview of photography as a hobby today. An interesting sport, but an expensive one if you want to do it right. I mean, I was shocked when I saw ebay price for some 600mm lens. Well if $8,997 is a not too big a price to spend on your choice hobby then you have my blessings, but i assure you when you add that to the camera body $6,999 to it and insurance, maybe then, you'll start to rethink. Imagine that, I would believe that will do alot for my travels with that bundle, LOL!! I dont think becoming a golfer is that expensive. Well its a beautiful hobby, one i will definitely be looking into now that i'm deeply enthused. I admire the dedication and the attention to detail it takes to bring a delightful photo to life. What do i call this part of my life? Seeing the world through a new pair of eyes.
A truly fun lesson. Thanks so much!

Now, i can imagine that some of you are wondering, Why the title? Well its simple! Its about *blinging* time good things start happening in my life! Its about *blinging* time that I smile honestly! Its about *blinging* time!!!! And it has, Glory to God! I mean, i've waited, i've been patient -this one is not a patient dog eats fattest bone story, this is a The-WORD-works lesson!!! Glory!! I got treasures up there, and I got inheritance right here!!.Its Here and NOW! I'm testifying!
Yep. I'm feeling Good! Today's my sister's birthday. She's 21 today. Give it up for 'Miss Independent!!' Happy birthday love, you are a star that will shine no matter what the world says! I love you very much! May this year be fabulous for you!
What other news???
Yep, why are y'all picking on me 'cause I said i like pretty boyz? Its a matter of personal preferences people :-)! Some ladies believe that a fine boy is too much hassle, very vain, hard to hold down, Other ladies are after him, most times he's too full of himself, he's not likely to be a heavy spender...etc. Me? I think a fine boy is no harder to build a relationship with than any of them 'eye-harassing' brothers. I have come to realise that 'if he's feeling you, then its just a wonderful bonus that he's easy on the eyes' 'cause a guy that's feeling you will lock himself in chains to be with you. Besides, my daughter's destined to be Miss Universe 2027. So dont be beefing me people!!LOL. In fact, if you must know, i've begun the investigation of the fine-boy in the wedding picture...LOL. hopefully that will yield fruit soon enough. LOL
Well guys, i wish you a fabulous, ass-kickingly superb work week!! Let it fly this week!!!

illusions

2007-01-14T00:22:00.000Z

I would lie, if i said i'd be staring at this blank page for ages. In fact, I'd be an even bigger fraud if i said i did anything with today...hmmm, I spent the last 24 hours doing absolutely nothing but hanging out with myself.
When I got up this morning, all I could think about was this semester's workload and how much work I had to do, and how irritated I was with little things in my life and how much I missed my mom and my little sisters, and how I was afraid that i'd never be happy...I mean truly happy, not that plastic smile on the face, dancing-to-the-tune-everyone-thinks-you-like, make-your-parents-proud, do the "proper" thing kinda happiness. I swear that is SOOOOO over-rated!
Anyway, after a wonderful continental breakfast by my adorable friend, I decided that today was all about TEVA! Today, i'll completely indulge myself and do absolutely no work, just pure pleasure. Not erotic pleasures, but the warmth of being at peace with yourself. I wasnt going to arrange anything with my weekend boyfriend (good friend), wasnt going to open any book, not going to read any newsfeed...well will check my mail just incase my dad writes and my german adventure writes again.
So at exactly 12 noon today, I began my self-indulgence. I watched 12 episodes of sex and the city (That show really messes up with your mind, why else do you think i'm telling you all this?...LOL). I took an unguided tour around some areas i'd not been to, i managed to squeeze in my laundry but i messed up my room trying to get all the dirty clothes out of the corners....kidding!!! I;m not that disorganized! ha!! but my room is messed up and that will only change after tomorrow's -oh, today's church service.
Somewhere in the midst of my indulgence, I received a call from a guy who professed to love me. In fact, he's been professing it for close to five years now (You'd think the brother would take a hint) especially when its only his words that echo around the room, his actions are another story entirely.(That i must confess is a LONG and boring story which i'm not comfortable sharing). Suffice me to say, he's all talk and no action. Anyway, he'd just called to check on me; the usual -nothing's up, i'm-just-caring gesture. He had, as usual, an excuse for everything he did. He reminded me of his undying love which actually made me literally want to bash something, so I gave him a piece of my mind. Now for those of you who dont know me, you'd find this hard to imagine since i'm usually a sweet, slightly extroverted doll who's always charming company; but i assure you my bite is worse than a viper's sting if you really hit my last nerve -and believe me he had. He was so full of tripe...(no that doesnt say it well, he's so full of shit!) I didnt get angry, i didnt scream at him, I merely told him, in strong words he was going to be looking up in his dictionary, that I can't stand him and a new year means a new leaf, wonderful possibilities I wasn't going to ruin with any illusions.

After I hung up and resumed my movie, I couldnt keep still, my mind kept flip-flopping between the movie and some nagging thoughts in my head. I couldnt shake off the speech about illusions. How many illusions am I still living on??? If true love only came once in a life time, had i blown my chance already? Was I going to be stuck with arse-wipes(like my darlin' sis calls them) the rest of my life? Was I never going to find someone else who understood me and just loved to be with me?
He didn't call me this new year...I was angry that it hurt that he didnt, i was angrier that i wanted him to, and i was angriest (if i can say that,) because it was bothering me so much. So I called, yelled and tried to guilt trip him. I guess I called at a bad time cause he kept giving me single syllabled answers. So at the end of a strained two minute call, i ended up with a rude realisation -HE HAD MOVED ON...
Oh my God, NEO, the one had moved on! His voice said it, the calm way he said he'd call me later said it, the way he was surprised that I called said it...SHIT!
I sat there,on my rumbled bed, staring at my phone...Shocked and scared as hell!
See, for me there's nothing worse than staring yourself in the mirror and admitting that your life's a mess and that the last time it was anything close to stable was when you had this 'piece of work' in your life. I could never have imagined coming to England would change so much! I was really happy with him, even though he was forbidden. He would have given all for me, but yeah, I'm such a coward and I ran from it. Even without him, I loved my life...I was content with my cool job, my fabulous and crazy friends, I loved watching Allie McBeal on sundays right before I go press my pants for work on monday; I loved having to hide my adorable CDs from my sisters who could never stand them, I loved being able to hug smelly jaguar before going outside the house, barefoot to see my friends off; I loved catching my monday flight to Abuja and lamenting how short the weekend was to my colleagues; I loved being among people that looked and thought like me. My people! I really miss home...even though it has a lot of challenges, home is still home.

Ever since I got here, I've struggled to fit in...you know, get my own crowd, get some work done, find out what i want to do with the rest of my life, answer all those nagging questions in my mind but tonight, I found one interesting answer. Its simple, all that soul-searching...waste of time! ... the truth is, you can only keep rolling out the questions, the answers come whenever they feel like; Take for example, I asked myself two and a half years ago, if i'd ever put on weight, well today i know the answer...I sure as hell CAN, not as much as the average person but sizeable enough....LOL. Dont believe me? Yeah, you're all just jealous of my sexy frame...LOL.
Well that means the other questions like 'What did I give up to get here?' and 'why does it suck to be a dependant?', 'what am i going to do with the rest of my life?', excetara will have to wait their turn in the great circle of life.

Hmmm, aren't you guys surprised I've not been talking about MBLA? Y'all just thought he dropped off the face of the planet?? Come on!Stuff like that only happens in movies where the guy just disappears from the cast. Well, the scoop is that he had the hots for some nigerian babe a while back...dont hold your breath, it wasnt me! I can imagine bijoux going 'aaawww, poor baby!' LOL. Naa its cool! I swear I've found out some things about the guy lately and i wonder if I wasnt just tripping for who i thought he was, not who he really is...(Sad thing is that he'll probably read this, but hey, the show must go on! and I apologize)
The german-affair, aka Frodo-look-alike is being such a darling. I mean he called during the week and was talking about coming over. Dont get me wrong, he's great! He looks wonderful,(he smokes, which i cant stand) but at least he believes in Jesus and he's fun to be with but i had to tell him the truth. I wasn't feeling him like that. He was really mature about it, I really like him, he's really cool...

So at this particular moment in time, being 2.00am sunday 14th of January 2007, I realised that I had come to that point in my life that I have dreaded for years. The point where i'll let him go and face the uncertain future with me, myself and I. I have clung to this fantasy for long enough, I have let fear rob me of anything meaningful too long. Yeah, It was a hard and long road that brought me here, but I'm here now and I aint going back! He was great, he was fantastic, BUT....the operative word here is WAS

Geeky stuff!

2007-01-12T12:12:00.000Z

I believe this will crack y'all up...
ITs from here: http://www.dcs.shef.ac.uk/~tom/Objects/toaster.html

Once upon a time, in a kingdom not far from here, a king summoned two of his advisors for a test. He showed them both a shiny metal box with two slots in the top, a control knob, and a lever. "What do you think this is?"

One advisor, an Electrical Engineer, answered first. "It is a toaster," he said. The king asked, "How would you design an embedded computer for it?" The advisor: "Using a four-bit microcontroller, I would write a simple program that reads the darkness knob and quantifies its position to one of 16 shades of darkness, from snow white to coal black. The program would use that darkness level as the index to a 16-element table of initial timer values. Then it would turn on the heating elements and start the timer with the initial value selected from the table. At the end of the time delay, it would turn off the heat and pop up the toast. Come back next week, and I'll show you a working prototype."

The second advisor, a software developer, immediately recognized the danger of such short-sighted thinking. He said, "Toasters don't just turn bread into toast, they are also used to warm frozen waffles. What you see before you is really a breakfast food cooker. As the subjects of your kingdom become more sophisticated, they will demand more capabilities. They will need a breakfast food cooker that can also cook sausage, fry bacon, and make scrambled eggs. A toaster that only makes toast will soon be obsolete. If we don't look to the future, we will have to completely redesign the toaster in just a few years."

"With this in mind, we can formulate a more intelligent solution to the problem. First, create a class of breakfast foods. Specialize this class into subclasses: grains, pork, and poultry. The specialization process should be repeated with grains divided into toast, muffins, pancakes, and waffles; pork divided into sausage, links, and bacon; and poultry divided into scrambled eggs, hard- boiled eggs, poached eggs, fried eggs, and various omelette classes."

"The ham and cheese omelette class is worth special attention because it must inherit characteristics from the pork, dairy, and poultry classes. Thus, we see that the problem cannot be properly solved without multiple inheritance. At run time, the program must create the proper object and send a message to the object that says, 'Cook yourself.' The semantics of this message depend, of course, on the kind of object, so they have a different meaning to a piece of toast than to scrambled eggs."

"Reviewing the process so far, we see that the analysis phase has revealed that the primary requirement is to cook any kind of breakfast food. In the design phase, we have discovered some derived requirements. Specifically, we need an object-oriented language with multiple inheritance. Of course, users don't want the eggs to get cold while the bacon is frying, so concurrent processing is required, too."

"We must not forget the user interface. The lever that lowers the food lacks versatility, and the darkness knob is confusing. Users won't buy the product unless it has a user-friendly, graphical interface. When the breakfast cooker is plugged in, users should see a cowboy boot on the screen. Users click on it, and the message 'Booting UNIX v.8.3' appears on the screen. (UNIX 8.3 should be out by the time the product gets to the market.) Users can pull down a menu and click on the foods they want to cook."

"Having made the wise decision of specifying the software first in the design phase, all that remains is to pick an adequate hardware platform for the implementation phase. An Intel Pentium with 48MB of memory, a 1.2GB hard disk, and a SVGA monitor should be sufficient. If you select a multitasking, object oriented language that supports multiple inheritance and has a built-in GUI, writing the program will be a snap."

The king wisely had the software developer beheaded, and they all lived happily ever after.

Ok...Recap and Assessement

2007-01-11T21:49:00.000Z

This morning i feel like a real fraud. I've made striking progress in several key areas of my life this few days into the new year. What I can't stomach are those little sidetradings I had to make to get here.
I know i sound like someone that just did some mega bad things to get ahead. Its nothing that dramatic I assure you. ITs simply me giving into the 'inner critic' today.
Some two odd years ago, I was (in my own opinion) a more influential, disciplined, focused, very reserved young lady. I had some HUGE principles which I wouldnt bend for what you might regard as a worthy slip. Today, I feel so alien to that. I mean look at me...( Ok, you cant see me right now but...)Hmmmm.........May be its just that time of the month...but even that excuse sounds like a broken record.
I dont understand why i'm acting up. Everything's fine. I mean, really, my millions are still intact and my investments are doing far better than i anticipated, I'm working harder at school, more focused and hitting my targets, Still got heads turning, infact i have more 'potentials' now than i did as at writing my last blog entry; my friends are as wonderful as ever. I'm physically fit and I think my 'lepa' bod is gorgeous. So WHAT IS IT?????
why can't i just accept that some things in life will not change? That's my problem. I can't stand the fact that some very important and wonderful people in my life are dealt with treachously by people who profess to love them. I'm sure now my soundboard will go "Teva, not again??"
Yeah...I can't let it go. Why should we uphold a culture that punishes the maltreated and praises the tormentors? Why should we have men that are cowards and princes that are frauds? Why should we not be allowed to tell people they are wrong just because they are older.
Yeah, that's what's eating me. I feel like I traded my voice for thirty pieces of silver and the guilt is killing me. I betrayed her. I made her stay when she really should have gone. IT WAS ME!!
IT WAS ME!!!
I confess...I did it! I told her to stay...I begged her to stay with me. I didnt want to live without her...I still dont want to, but now, I feel like she traded her happiness for me and now its too late for her to be happy. Now she can't leave. Was I too selfish to give her an opportunity to shine?
She smiles at me and tells me its ok, that she chose her fate, but the grief in her eyes are unmistakeable, the sorrow in her voice, glaring!!
WHAT HAVE I DONE???
This is the part where Ex usually comes up with some ingenious thing to cheer me up...I wonder how he does it anyway? LOL. Hmmm???I guess that's the ghost of the Teva Castle...and the Rhema for that is, the Sun is rising, washing away darkness and hidden things.

Now to more cheerful recent events, New lesson in Teva's growing pains. Aint no way... No how Teva's moving in with no man...NO HOW! What?Uuuhhuh Omo come and see drama in my life. I didnt realise I was this touchy or is it hypersensitive we go call am? Men, my husband go try o! More gist later...
Now back to better gist...My people, dem talk say, soup way sweet, na money kill am. Well I must be really rich o, cause Frodo-look alike called yesterday. I trip when I see the estranged number for my phone. Omo, i for scream if no be say Yeye inc eye me furiously say may I no disgrace myself. It went well, yarns were smooth, the subtle flattery was received with grand delight...LOL
Seems he'll be bestowing us with his presence in town soon...hmmmm? Wetin this guy they contemplate? Abi im no know say holiday romance no dey find person come work?? Na wa o! well, we'll see how it goes.
My darling bros do wedding for im sister. Na so we see one oyoyo fine boy for the bridal train. Chai! See as yeye inc. shout say 'chineke me...na man fine like this??' Trust me, serious investigation is going into the matter and we'll keep you posted as soon as we get any new leads.

Take care people, I have tests to do...LOL.
See y'all soon

ITs new, its fresh....its the NEW YEAR!!!

2007-01-02T16:05:00.002Z

My people, it must be that the holiday has been overwhelmingly beautiful that i've not had time to update my blog. Well Happy new year everyone and welcome to 2007, our year of supernatural accomplishments. I sat up through last night watching the many ways people rejoiced into the new year. Some were at time square, some had huge street parties....trust, yours faithfully was in church (community church) for that matter! Long, long story! Still, it was nice! Getting to hug my little brother first in 2007 and re-enacting the gentleman's agreement with his imperial majesty was nice.
Now that the new year's festivities are winding to a close, what are our new year resolutions? What did we do last year that we aint gonna do no more? And what are we planning to put into full swing this new year? I hear some brothers going 'I'm gonna nail that dream job this year!', 'I'm getting my promotion this year!' I think one prevalent would be the sistas going 'Its about time I got hitched!' LOL.
Dont laugh! I'm not laughing either...well not really! Well, I cant really laugh, why? Well because my father did a number on me this cross over. Hmm, it wasnt funny o! It was all childs play at first. he was making really out-of-tune jokes about having 28 kids and building an empire full of babies...sure that would crack any silly rib; but come december 31st 2006 / jan 1 2007 ...miss Teva was summoned for a father-daughter chat. Now, that rarely...i mean RARELY happens! The last time that happened was when we had that 'birds and bees lecture' which was followed by stern warnings of how wicked guys are (Too true!!!). So this time, I knew the theme had to be one and only!
For my own good, i'll spare y'all the gory details! Suffice me to say, i've been sent out to the world to produce a husband ASAP!! So guys...beware! LOL. When it was over, I sent Yeye inc a text, bemoaning my latest predicament, you wont believe the silly girl burst out laughing. She laughed so hard she almost got fired from her job...yeye girl!! She even coined a song for me 'I am looking for a hussi ....Teva Maintain' Nonesense!!! LOL.

Now that Teva has been mandated to go and HARVEST a husband, i'd appreciate some husband-netting skills! So please if you have useful advice on how to snag (and this is in no particular order) a FINE, INTERESTING, RICH, SOPHISTICATED, well-balanced, God-fearing man who likes to cook and massage...please let me know and include their contact details P.s. Naijabloke's financial, spiritual and physical assets have not been verified so dont nominate him. All we know is that he cracks jokes....I tell you say na ali baba i wan marry??? LOL. Much love NB...

Ok. What's up people? I have contemplated coding my vacation trips... but I'm a girl of my word, so here's a national-geographic-type documentation of the vacation. Enjoy!!!

At exactly 8.01pm, our plane touched down at the German airport. I looked out the window, the airport was almost an exact replica of our airport of departure...hmmm?Had heathrow's calamity befallen our clear skies and had us re-routed back home?hmm?
'Welcome to Germany' the air hostess said with her ever-professional smile. 'The outside temperature is 3C and we are currently ...' So we had arrived. Nice!!! I tapped my sleeping brother, "We're here!" We left the plane, picked our luggage and went to the reception area to be welcomed by our hosts. All the while, i was smiling, excited that our long awaited holiday was about to begin and waiting for the VACATION RUSH!! For some reason, the vacation rush didnt hit. The vacation rush is the 1 minute of pure adrenaline rush followed by 4 minutes of unbelievable relaxation (untensing of every muscle in my body) when i arrived at a holiday spot. This phenomenon was first discovered in 1990, on our trip to....SCRATCH!!!! LOL...Damn! That was boring!
Let's re-write that, with a bit of more flavour shall we???

Hallo people...i see salivating mouths, and glued attention as i begin the documentation of my German Holiday!!! Well, in one concise and well suited word, it was AWESOME!!!!!!!! I didnt get a full body massage, and well i didnt get up to a dozen admirers, but it was fabulous!
To begin, i want to thank God! We got great genes in my family! Yes o! This discovery was amazing! Its was totally unexpected, but more than tremendously satisfying. The best way to put it is to say Its simply like driving into traffic jam and suddenly discovering that you can fly. However, the gist that led to this wonderful discovery has an age restriction so you need to send me your authentic ID, or your birth certificate...so that i can tell you. HEY! I'm a law abiding citizen!! And for all y'all who's minds are raging to the extreme ends of the earth....NA wa for you o!!! I didnt say it was that far!!! LOL.
Germany was great guys! My hosts were wonderful. I'm considering posting some spectacular sights here.

GIST PROPER
Let's drop it like its hot! On a powerpoint presentation.
Highlight 1 : Teva arrives
When we arrived, we spent a couple of moments settling in. Later on, we had a light dinner (I cant remember the name, but it had knodel in it (pls note that knodel has an umlaut)). After that we settled to some home entertainment around the fireplace with some sweetened spirits!
Slept late. Woke around 10.30am. Joined the family for breakfast in the midst of idle chit chat. We went grocery shopping for a couple of hours, returned, changed and went sight seeing.
Until then i didn't know that Christmas day wasnt 25th in Germany (like back home). It was 24th and we had to buy presents, and all other supplies because shops would be closed 23rd through 25th. Nice! At the back of my mind, i was wondering where the 'katangora' was. LOL. Abi i lie??? No such luck my friends. My host wouldnt hear of it. At that point, i was wondering whether he was workiing for the tourism minister or was on my side. All the restaurants we went were either 5 star or really expensive. All the places had HUGE houses! (I thought they said, they have space problem here?) Well, i guess wealth talks every language...and there aint nothing impossible if you have the right amount of coloured paper'
After doing hours of photography and driving around. We came back home to another traditional german dinner. You know, i should try to memorize these things. I didnt even take them pictures because as soon as they landed on the dinner table, the 'devourers' pounced on them...It would have been a peter-pan and oliver twist experience except that we were being civil and we didnt want to offend our hosts.
The next day was the famous and afore-warned boring christmas. we sat at the table for a while and talked about it for hours, making fun of ourselves. Sharing really silly things we'd done. It was nice! I mean, i hadn't seen them for six to seven years now and it was like i'd never left. We bonded quite well.

Highlight 2:When in Rome....
The christmas tradition in germany is pretty simple. On that hallowed day, make a fantastic feast, go to church and if you are up to it, party till day break. So its pretty clear what i did!
To begin with, it was a fantastic 3 course dinner, one tat left me really really stuff. I mean, i had so many colours of food in my plate, i had orange from the carrot soup, redish cabbage, brown from the mushroom soup, pink and cream from the stuffed roast duck...to name the least. As i am an advocate for cultural diversity, this shouldnt be new...hmmm, omo! Eating that much colour in one seating required alot of courage. One that was well supplied.
After dinner was exchange of christmas gifts (apparently the culture of boxing day skipped a state!).
P: 'So Teva, are you staying home or hanging out with me??'
T: 'O tun naa?? (are you asking??)'
P: 'cause i'm leaving in a couple of min-[rush of wind! As Tevalistic Teva rushes into her room with super human speed, dresses up, and returns before he finishes the word ]-tes...!
[surprised P]: Waoh, you are ready!

Highlight 3: Vacation RUSH!
In some minutes, two of P's friends picked us up. The four of us went over to another friend's place to meet the rest of the crew. There was the T the aussie-looking german actor, M the quarter korean magazine writer, Q the mr. bean look-alike. he also happened to be a sales person (talk about aligning talents) LOL, S the blue-eyed frodo look alike. Needless to say, it had to be Frodo-look alike (what is it with me and look alikes??) His eyes werent as deep as frodo's and he's blonde. he's not perfectly sculptured but he's tastefully tall and has a very nice sense of humour. he ony looked as delicious! Ok. I said that i'd repented. yeah but i'm on vacation...everything's legal...LOL.
We soon headed to a really nice bar. P introduced me to like 8 guys...lol, talk about taking care of your guest. Well, after 5 minutes of conversation with them, i was more than eager to move on. We (about 8 of us) moved to a table in the bar and there we ordered rounds upon rounds. I got to meet people and their intended, girlfiends of yesteryears...All this while, S (who will now be referred to as Frodo) had been really quite, he answered a couple of questions when we were at M's apartment but in all he'd been the only slightly reserved guy at the table..Enter Vacation Rush!!!
The S- Frodo look alike comes back to join us at the table and we talked...and talked and talked...Even though he had a really perculiar accent when he spoke, still, he was absolutely animated...
We talked about a lot of things...and then the dj started playing my song...ooh yeah, so we got dancing. To be fair to him, i was moderately impressed and the rest of the night went like magic.
Conclusion:
Woke up around 1 pm the next day. Hmmm???? Yeah...its all good. It was my vacation, and all the things I needed to happen...happened.

"Insured"

2006-12-21T15:29:00.000Z

Holla amigo! How una dey? Omo, are you guys hearing of all the cancellations at heathrow...My brothers and sisters, that could have been me...yes o! Sitting on the cold terminal floor of heathrow, with cancelled flights everywhere.
Instead i'm enjoying...thank God!
So my vacation starts tomorrow...ooh jolly! I've packed ALL the essentials, especially the extra moisturers and hhmmmm i dont think i'll be needing the talcum powder...LOL. That's the result of a private joke gone nasty! Imagine someone searching for the uses of 'talcum powder'??? I sure know how to pick 'em.LOL

Of which, whats up with bijoux's blog? i havent been able to access it in a while, whats happening? Hmm, and Naijabloke...maybe u should post that ur denzel face on your blog so we know what it is the ladies of blogsville are fighting for! Me?? I'm out! Loooking for holiday Romance with a capital Rrrrrr!

LOL...See y'all in a couple of days!

Random Rhymes.....

2006-12-12T22:16:00.000Z

I see his brains
he feels no pain
he knows no shame cuz he feels no pain
he trusts completely, man without aim
and sets his path down the lonely drain
food for tired brain
a walk through the long strain
we make a new lane
and dream of our shame
and relive our pain

why lay I in wait
thinking of rain
sunshine and day without the grey
i want and wait
i need and pray
that someday he knows my name!

that's really .. strange to see
im happy it's strange for me
for with your strangeness i see
a heart thats meant for me
to glare down in gloating laughter
is to sit still on floating amber
or make day and night go faster

Why doeth your breath hurt so?
and my heart in no reins grow?
it is the autumns freezing blow
which lets the fiery passion glow

the scary thought of lonely times
drives the mind through endless tides
keeps him up almost every night
makes a man...a timid child

dusk to dawn,
we slave and toil
to work our way to the top of man's social world
we sacrifice the things we love
we trade our souls for coins and notes
and pray to God we end up whole
We build many a year,
a castle we hold so dear,
and just when we think we're there!
We're flat on our back as the bored world yawns....

Copyrighted ....so dont you DARE pick me words...oops (our words) Coded info!
Lovely night!

really burnt?

2006-12-10T22:45:00.000Z

LOL...
Hallo people,how una dey? I know say una don miss me tire! No be ma fault, na school o! Nna, them dey jam man-pikin left, right and centre...chai! See assignment every where!!! You no go believe the kin people dem put for my group. na so so yarn...no action. Them go talk say them fit reach the moon with their new software but my broda, na them no dey submit to deadline...hmmm!
Before i begin write today, na so i call my girl for naija. She get this guy wey she dey yarn with from obodo oyinbo...more precisely 'God's own country' Na when she go do holiday for jand them begin chat. so as my baby reach naija she wan resume chatting with the bros na im the guy ask say where she bin dey? She talk say na naija....Shoo! na so the guy choo! im talk say if she be nigerian, im no fit talk to am...Chai! needless to say my gal was severly burnt! No be say she dey fin husband or somethin but men...she the kin levels naija people don get! Me sef shock, is our rep. that bad? kai! I mean, its common knowledge that the information in the US about nigeria isn't good but men, haba??!! Na so we bad reach??
I no fit blame the yankee guy, when the likes of Alamieyeseigha don turn naija to research topic for interpol and FBI. I'm sure there's a special team in scotland yard and indeed any security organisation in the world trying to understand how the nigerian people.
As if that shock never do, na so one bird come fly gimme gist say Mr Ex is coming to town...hmm i'll leave you guys with the gist as it arrives HOT from the oven.

Ok, what's today's story land adventure about? My people, there's no gist! And i've repented of all my sins of lookery. Yes o! Teva is reformed (abi you no know say new year dey come?) Its time to put behind all the childish things and concentrate on the more important things...CHAI!! I just remember...oooh. This is sweet. Me and yeye inc go this christmas party on thursday right...my sista don 'Zabroska' herself (for more info, google the word)before we enter the dancing floor. The Dj try small but omo see people twitching all in the name of i must dance sha! In our very deplorable state of 'fired up action' and no available stepper,come see as we dey roast!!! THEN [trumphets] the Lord opened the door and in came this milk deluxe super-form GAY guy. My brother...GAY GUY O!!!! When he first asked me to dance, i thought it was going to be the usual 'left-right-left' type but see as the guy dey step. Even the bobo wey dey STEP UP go come take lessons from this guy. You should see the moves on this brother, i swear he made our night! Even yeye inc had to 'catch her breath' when he was through.

Is that all??? i know its very unlike me. Dont worry, i get vacation plans this christmas period...with all the feel-good of the season coupled with the occasional holiday romance...i'm sure i'll have gist by next year...LOL
Have a lovely week people

A long way to come

2006-12-04T01:13:00.000Z

Hmmm, last night I had one of those 'moments'. There are just times when you feel disconnected with all the important things in life, it feels like walking a hundred miles in the wrong direction...then comes the question, 'should i go back?' It feels so wearysome that one would sometimes prefer to stay where one is than contemplate the thought of walking another 100 miles to correct one false move!
It wasnt as daunting as that for me, i was just missing my mama (a friend helped me realise that)until then, i didnt realise i had the tendency to blow things out of proportion...Jeez! I'm such a girl sometimes...yuck!! LOL.
Hallo amigos, how's it going? Seems like my last blog caused quite a stir. Not only did almost everyone (who didnt participate in the experiment) conclude that Teva does need a man, they also said she was loosing her mind. Come on guys, y'all know i was just voicing what you were thinking...besides, i'm promoting research in all areas of human endeavour. Do you know how many celebrity break-ups would have been avoided if they'd just tried out 'Teva's one tailed MAN-suitability experiment'? LOL Well, since y'all are playa haters, i've decided to put the partII of the experiment in my journal. There its safe and free from negative criticism! Y'all are going to miss, 'cause that's supposed to be the one where there's ACTUAL contact with the subjects (Naijabloke, do you want to volunteer now??? LOL)Speaking of my journal, I was looking through my journal a couple of minutes ago and i realised that i've not written much in it, since i've started this blog thing...why is that?

So whats new?November just rushed by like that...What happened? One moment I was writing a 'happy new month, one more to go...' message to my siblings and the next thing i get a reply saying 'happy december'...Are you for real??? 2006 is almost over. WAOH! What have I achieved? Which of my new year resolutions did i stick to...[thinking] NONE! Damn, not even the one with regular sleeping hours!
What did I do with 2006? What should I still strive to squeeze in? Is this the best life style for me? The longest 3rd party relationship i've had is with my laptop, 2years and 9 months...I just cant stand guys for that long...Does that make me some sort of commitment-shy tomboy wanna be? hmmm, food for thought!
Anyways, on a more jolly note, Happy birthday to my baby sister (you are without a doubt, one of God's most precious gifts to me) and to madam Temmy, who wants to turn tricks and become a match-maker...LOL. And for her first client she chose me, as if that wasnt bad enough, she decided to match me with Naijabloke...i mean...Naijabloke??? come on! The dude...the guy....LOL [i can picture him thinking 'Just say it, so that Gani Adams can get to work'...LOL. Madam T for Temmy, if you want to hook me up, please try Morris Chesnaunt or shemar more(yeye inc. take note)...come to think of it, is Morris still alive? I heard so many rumours about the guy being popped somewhere...I hope not...what is life without proportionately layered brothers...LOL...what can i say? I AM BORED!!!! Damn!
I think i should pick up a new hobby, any ideas???

An Experiment to test the hypothesis: Does Teva need a man??

2006-11-27T08:47:00.000Z

As a growing student of science, I have come to learn that things should only be utilized after months of extensive research(depending on the topic/issue) and experimentations to fully understand the nature of a particular issue, and as Pat (my research methods lecturer) would say to nullify alot of hypothesis and say that with a certainty of up to 90% this particular issue means this.
An enthusiastic student that i am, i decided to apply this approach to solving an age long mystery in my life
" Does Teva really need a man?"
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, there you have it. To make this a one tailed experiment, i've redefined the hypothesis: "Teva need a man" and we will try to nullify this through a series of experiments run over a week. In conformity with APA standards (I wish you could all see how i've been laughing...)This experiment will be conducted after an ethical review (this took a year to get! LOL)

Abstract

Isolating relevant stimuli that makes an average female desire a man was the most difficult part of this experiment. As we all know the female homo sapiens sapiens is probably the most complex of all carbon-based mammals. Thus i've classified narrowed the independent variables down to the most prevalent types:
1. 'He-Is' - this i define as an overwhelming attraction to a guy (his personality, his mannerisms...at least an attraction that supercedes lust)
2. Esthetics - It is popular knowledge that most ladies would have a man just cause he has some financial, physical or mental incentives to offer. Lets be honest, Who wants a dull, broke, fat guy??
3. Loneliness - The number one cause of why woman take on men, even when they decipher that he might not be worth it in the end
4. Status - This is not a conclusive trait for all women, but a sizeable percentage of women would date a guy because he's single. Some will date him, just 'cause he's married, etc....different strokes for different folks

Method:

A week long analysis of trait by altering some independent on three 'likely' subjects': MBLA, Xfac, Bal. Each of the subjects has at least an average measure of 'He-Is' factor, moderate esthetics, and are all single (Teva's preference). Ok, let the experiments begin....
Please not that all these are examined with very little 'physical contact with the subjects'

Test 1:
48-hour silence
It is believed that absence should make the heart grow fonder. Since we cant move the subjects away from their normal routines, teva was instructed to avoid ALL contact with each subject for a period of 48 hours. No contact covers verbal and non-verbal communication: call, emails, greeting longer than 30 secs. etc. To ensure that the stimuli produced by the subjects were isolated, the other two subjects were engaged in continued dialogue over this period. That is: When Xfac is tested, contact is maintained with MBLA and Bal
Result:
Xfac - A stimulus of yearning was detected for the first 12 hours. Afterward nothing else.
Bal - No stimuli was detected.
MBLA - Could not complete the 48-hour silence. The stimulus of yearning was detected from the first 3 hours which peaked by the 38th hour and resulted in a compromise of test (that is an email).

Test 2:
Quality of time spent:
The average woman values what is referred to as "Quality Time". This is time spent with her man doing what she feels adds to the pleasure derived from the relationship.In this experiment, the quality of time spent is measured by:
1 the number of laughs per hour spent with the subject(QL);
2 the number of 'uncomfortable moments' per meeting(UM);
3 the number of moments of 'intense attraction'(IA)
Result:

Test 3:
Feasibility studies:
This is an analysis of how easy it will be for the subject to fit into an appropraite boyfriend situation. This covers how adaptable the subject is, how flexible he is. Is he dependable? Does he handle situations well?Please note that the results of this test are strictly at the candidate's intuitive deduction of each subject and is ranked as
1 - Outstanding 2-Just Right 3- Manageable 4- Not suitable 5- HELL NO!!

Xfac - 1
Bal - 3
MBLA - 2

Conclusion:
Each of the candidiates have strong points and its hard to conclude....you know what? I just realised that i've been testing the suitability of any three of the subjects and not whether or not Teva needs a man or not...hmmm anyway 'It doesntmatta!!!'

What's going on here????

2006-11-18T19:39:00.000Z

Seems like in the last couple of days everyone knows more about me than me and what was most annoying was how i was just smiling, ignoring it, or simply let it slide which is same as nodding in agreement. And last night, the result of a date gone bad, I had had enough and was going to give 'ja' serious warning to all of them... Imagine someone telling me I have an identity crisis because i like Buble?? What the hell?! I mean, I was trying to remain polite but it was clear that i'd either leave the room or say things i'd eventually regret. I usually just ignore the ignorant talk, but sometimes it just hits the wrong nerve!
Na wa o! So its by force to carry the naija flag on my chest because i'm african?? I hate it when people take this whole 'I'm african thing' up their noses and then try to play god with other people's lives...I mean...'Y'all aint all that! So Shut the hell up!' On second thought...kiss my natural black, cute behind!!
I mean, I'm trying to be less opinionated, milder, and less pissed off with the shenanegans of all the guys I know, but it seems like the more good you try to do, the more infuriating people become. Anyways, no one will faze me! I'm good like that!

Ola amigos!!! How y'all doing?? Na wa for blogsville o! Abi virus don dey carry people's blog comot? Na so i wan go visit my darling temmy's blog and the enemies of progress don steal am go! I tried like three times, its later she tell me say na EVIL DETRACTORS! Make i warn them now...I'm bad like that! If you near my blog eh??? Holy Ghost fire go burn your yash! LOL. ( I couldn't resist putting that)
So how is everyone? For those peeps being hammered by harmathan, I emphatize and for those who are freezing in undulating temperatures...'e pele o' (Sorry o).
Yes, lets begin this evening's tales by moonlight with the a loud congratulations to my uncle and aunt, on the arrival of their bouncing baby boy (why on earth do they always refer to new babies as 'bouncing'?). Yes o! Our home in the border town between Lagos and Ogun state was the venue of the celebration. And it goes without mention that there is always drama in 'owanbe parties'. Infact, i spent close to an hour listening to my sisters go on and on about the mini-series that unfolded. Naija women and drama sha! Hmm....well, I guess when I have my own baby, i'll pull enough efizi(dazzling moves) as well. Omo, I don tire to dey transcribe this blog gan sef? Na almost everything i wan yarn no sweet reach the flavor of my wafi brothers...Haba? Na so i dey talk to one guy in my class and he ask me say 'se i dey use pigin wit am because i said 'gan sef' I laugh e??
Ok...from hence forth, ich spreche deutsh! toll! Super! Na lie! LOL. Yeah, where was I? The fantastic naming ceremony of my second cousin! It went well, lets thank God for his wonders in their lives, and i really hope this is the last baby! LOL.
Yeah, I spent some time with my girl, yeye inc. Omo, the girl na wa o! She and her love wantin tin! The yeye girl dey give me 'love counselling' because i said i didnt want MB anymore. who would? The guy's got more drama than Mc-Dreamy in Grey's anatomy.
@Md Yeye Inc : The clown had plans with freaky last night! Imagine? Thank God I didnt waste my tapping jacket for such a woeful event.
Ok. Back to tales by moonlight...Story story.....
story....
Once upon a time....
time time
I told you guys about the writing competition thing abi? Guess how far i've gone... Guess, 150 characters only. Exactly the first paragraph on the first page. i dont know what happened to me o! Maybe course work, yeah but i've been too upset with a lot of things to keep a level head and write some serious words. I've been unnecessarily touchy these past few days. First I found out the truth about MBLA and I was very disappointed. I mean it looked like we were making progress but my people, na so wind blow o! and we saw the anus of the chicken! Literally! LOL. As if that wasn't bad enough, I was hanging out with peeps over here, and they began to tasi (yap) me about my tastes...They began casually about with why I like things that most girls dont. One even said, I'm too like a guy for my own good. why dont i be more 'submissive like women are meant to be?' and them moved to my taste and delight in non-African esthetics....and to crown it all, my taste in music. To all of these, I would have smiled peacefully and left them to their rants but they had the audacity to diss Michael Buble!
WHAT????? By the end of the night, everyone had learned a valuable lesson 'thou shalt not speak ill of Buble when Teva's around!'
What most of them didnt realise was simply this, its not about buble, or milk, or doing thing the way i do. Its about you not realising how hurtful& hypocritical you get when you think that your way of life is the norm of the universe. It shows an utter disrespect for my person and the things I hold dear! Friends are meant to respect each others opinions, even when its off, you dont treat it as an open-mic night at the comedy central!
I was surprised at my outburst! I didnt know I had it in me. They later apologised after spending more than five minutes listening to me in absolute amazment! Dont mess with me...i'm gangster like that...LOL
Truth is they'd had it coming for a long long time. You know the kind of people you dread to visit because all they ever talk about is how 'off' you are. Well, I guess they'll find someone else to pick on now, 'cause this babe aint taking crap from no body...she's on FIRE!!!

Can I ask a honest question? Why do married men (think its cool to) chase single (younger) ladies? Is there an epidemic in our system that makes you marry and within two years you cant bear the thought of being around your wife and kids? Did they force you two to marry? Why cant you make it work? Must you then frustrate the life of the young girls around you just 'cause you are the boss? I guess its the naive me talking but please help me out. How do you do it? Its less than two years ago that you pledged your life to this breathtaking young woman, who soon became the mother of your children...why..oh why cant you be with her any more? And its not like they've grown fat and unkempt. No! they are still sauve. Other men still oogle her! Still you cant see it? What the hell? Or is that middle life crisis is now mid-thirties' crisis?
My case was abit mixed up,but my friend was just telling me about YET another married guy who would rather hang around her house after work than go home. He will go from club to club instead of heading home after work. What is going on with naija men these days? Same thing the shameless twirp that was chasing my kid sis who turned out to be uncle's colleague at work, married with one beautiful daughter...What more do you want?
You ruin the lives of the ladies outside, you ruin the lives of the kids in your marriage, you ruin your wife's life...why? What is it? Cant you be content? I mean why make false promises when you are not tired of running game? Its sickening! There's enough drama in the world as it is, we dont need more families falling apart! What kind of legacy are we leaving for our children...?
I mean, everyday people are getting hitched, infact in my former office, there'll be four weddings this november alone. My cousin's marrying in december, my mate's kid sis is getting married in december....alot...of them are getting married...please dont break any more hearts...
If you know that you are not ready to stick it through...dont do it! If you're not sure, its cuz you are probably still not ready!
We've lost a lot of our heritage over the years, let's not lose our sense of responsibility. Lets not kill 'the family'.

A fabulous weekend

2006-11-13T19:55:00.000Z

As friday approached I was a bit nervous, wasnt sure if taking that break was for me but oooooooooh yes it was! Oooh yes! I'm back with a BANG!!!(literally)..whatever! I am back! I feel the adrenaline like never before. Tinu's back to stay!!! Yeah!!!!
As I was about to start typing the next sentence, the music of fabolous majek fashek just came on!
ooh Lord! e!
I am not afraid,
even when they try to put me down,
I am not afraid!
Almighty guide I
Jesus guide I
Jehovah guide I....

Then I look up to jah!
I look up to jah for my tomorrow,
I look up to jah to wipe away my sorrow,
I look up to jah
Now that i know that...I am not afraid!

Omo, this my media player dey feel the spirit. LOL. Anyways, where was I?? Yes o! I'm back! That weekend in bradford was just what the doctor ordered. It was peaceful, restful and completely faboulous.
First, I want to say a big thank you to my wonderful hosts. These guys showed me a good time! Plus, they brought back the memories of my tomboy days! I think as we grow, we dont realise how much we are sacrificing and giving up. To them, life is a gift that must be appreciated and savoured. If there was ever a perfect complement of personalities, that had to be them! It was great! Thanks guys! I would marry you guys if i could make up my mind btw the two of you (since polyandry aint legal in naija), yeah....its not just that, you'll dont like buble! shame! LOL
Oooh, I am happy!
Thats wonderful! Even for me to acknowledge. Let me give you guys the background gist that led to friday.
Monday to wednesday -general faffing and forming busy and watching MBLA and the other cuties waltz back and forth around me. Ok, that aint quite accurate. I spent more time catching up on my studies and then dealing with the volume of course work (like the one i'm ignoring now to write this). Ok.
What happened? yes, Me and my big mouth went and asked the new prospective bros some very funny questions...omo....it wasnt funny! Do you guys have moments when you ask a question you are almost certain that you know the answer; which to the best of your knowledge will affirm this 'sentimental feeling' and to your rudest shock, the answer you get is the an utterly divergent answer.
Well, trust madam teva to put herself inside a situation she no like. In fact, i vex for myself so tey...even madam yeye inc. no fit snap me out of am! Omo, e no funny o! So by friday I was in the "bite 'em" mode.
Since i'd bought the ticket since monday I knew there was a 60% chance i'd go, cuz me, if i dont feel certain about something i aint doing it man...aint nothing nobody can say about it!
But thursday night as i was putting finishing touches to my travel bag, i just thought to myself 'what the hell...' and that was it. After my morning duties, i set out. I wandered around a while, asked for directions and the other sherere (miscellanous and unnecessary activites), we began to move and my nightfall I had arrived bradford. You know the funniest thing, its as i'm writing about it now that i'm realising how beautiful the station was. Ok. Before i proceed, let me warn you that yours faithfully loves esthetics. So when i found out that house was close to the city hall which had the large clock tower that rings its bell every 30 minutes, she went 'aaaawwwwwwwwww'. You know what, that's the kinda place i'd like to get for myself. The flat is WELL postioned. Tinu's defintion of well positoned is as follows, right opposite the building is 'clarks' and to left is an all night pub' to the right are 3 banks, and thomas cook. At an angle to the left is a faboulous chinese/thai restaurant. at an 45 degrees to the right is a big screen tower in the middle of the park.
I'm not done. Right beside Clarks is McDonalds followed by this huge confectionary to cater to my occasional indulgences...and right opposite Mc-D is 24 hour pharmacy....There's a really huge shopping mall just 5 minutes from the flat and the major shopping square is simply 15 minutes walk away....what more could a girl ask for???? I tell you when I woke up this morning and thought about leaving, i cringed!

Ok. So i got in, the apartment was tight by all standards and spotless thanks to my friend's flat mate. After introductions, we just started flowing...like we'd been friends for ages. Then the guys started showing up...omo within 10 minutes the quiet homely feel had been replaced with laughter, trips and styling of guys having a good time. It was nice. Then the switched to PS 6. What will save men from games eh?? Well, like they say, its either one vice or the other...LOL. So tired teva went to bed in preparation for saturday's outings. Saturday was beautifully backed. I waka sotey my hips were aching. from shop to shop, it was bliss. Thank God I aint married yet, omo, my husband has to hide his credit card on certain days; for his and my protection LOL.
Then saturday night there was this afro-carribean party. Omo, it trips me how people are very particular and borderline fanatical about being a member of a creed or clique. It makes me wonder about the identity crisis that my friend kept mentioning through the weekend. Alot of folks aren't sure what or who they are. They just go about sampling opinions, flavours, trends and in the end they're still as empty as they were when they started. It makes me wonder about my life. Makes me wonder if i'll hold the same principles and have the same scruples about some issues if i was raised here. It must be really tough growing up now. With everyone and everything around you telling what you are/ aren't and what you should or shouldn't do. I fear for my kids yet unborn. How will they cope? hmm....

Ok. back to the party, slamming! My darling hosts abandoned me to dance wit the rockin' babes and would wink at me or catch my eyes just to show that they were still with me in spirit even though their bodies were elsewhere. LOL. By the end of the night i'd managed to loosen up enought to catch some bembele (small) trips.
Enter sunday, missed church (yeah i feel bad) and there was the arsenal-liverpool match come and see boys barajing because of arsenal. It was fun to watch. Then later we caught a movie. it was nice. On the way back, we walked and talked. It reminded me of what was missing in my side of london. A sense of calm. We strolled leisurely back, making fun of ourselves, talking and generally just having a good time. I must say that i had to remind myself that as much as i wanted to preserve the memory, I knew, I would still make better and more beautiful ones....
the legendary King sunny ade comes up with Malanu makorin ("I will open my mouth and sing and praise God") I should. In fact i am praising God, i had a wonderful break! I hope yours was as much fun as mine or better...I'm glad i said yes! for indeed it was a fabulous weekend...( I'm sure some people are like, what is it gan sef? Wetin happen wey never happen before...LOL) and if you want in on the gist behind the gist.... gimme a buzz! LOL
Have a splendid week y'all

someone's watching over me.....

2006-11-09T19:54:00.000Z

When I thought about writing today's entry...I wanted to begin with the latest happening in my life...how once again, to my chargin I find myself in that familiar place -Singletons! Well, not that I'd really left but let me but it this way, I missed the flight! naa, that doesnt quite capture it...hmmm, I'd packed my bags, told everyone i was going to travel, gotten my documents, my tickets and was just waiting for my visa to arrive...and it was denied [well that really did happen but that's not the gist of today] You know the feeling of being so close to getting something...just barely inches away and you can feel it or even taste it....and then SMASH! You're back to square one...that's what happened. I could almost feel that wind in my hair (yeah right) and then the door slammed shut in my face.

I was also going to tell you guys about this guy i keep running into. It's actuaally hilarious because the first time i saw him ws in the library, he looked at me as if he'd seem a ghost or something. He said hi, and i said hi, and i walked away. What is most amusing is that I ALWAYS run into him. Seriously, campus is not that small trust me, but a week hardly runs by that i dont 'bump' into him by accident.
Usually i wouldnt acknowledge it, but yesterday I was returning from the Lab late at night and there he was walking toward the student buiding...I couldnt resist bursting into laughter...what kind of awful coincidence is this. What was more ironic is that i guess because i started laughing he just didnt say his usual 'hi'.
Anyways for what its worth, the next time i see him (if i do see him again), i'll stop him, say hi, introduce myself and have a chat!! GO Getter TEVA!!

So back to door slam experience...I truly hit myself on the head and went 'why??? why??? why????' Why is it that feelings dont flow in circles, they flow in triangles..... And i know myself too well, cant sit well with those whys, especially when it has some sentimental attachment to it. I mean, why ask why the sun shines when you know it will anyway? Why ask why winters are so cold when you know temperatures are not going to change just 'cause you are grumbling about it.

Its amazing that i've not talked about his imperial majesty in a while. That's partly 'cause we are getting along better now. Well the distance is definitely an augmenting factor but I think we communicate better now...via emails...Good! I miss my mama. I so wish...I really wish i could help her right now but she needs a new, fresh outlook on life, something she can't afford or doesn't want to afford now. Its amazing how if you've been put down long enough you begin to think like that. In as much as i've forgiven him, i cant help but wonder how much better, how life would really be if things were different. I f she was a go-getter! If she were more confident. If she really knew her worth...for she is priceless.
Now when I think about the 'SLAM' in my face, I think about the hand holding me up and the other covering me. I take a look at myself in the mirror and see the price tag hanging around my neck...its the life of the only son of God.
I'm glad I have that knowledge...and i know, nothing! NOTHING, absolutely nothing can take that knowledge from me. It is my identity....Look out world! A star just started shining!!!

...you had a bad day..........

2006-11-03T23:34:00.000Z

He just up and left.......
And this time i'm going to write about it! I'm entering this national writing contest to write a book of 50,000 words or more by the end of november....
Wish me luck!
Favour!

Dont Ask!

2006-10-30T21:14:00.000Z

The colour of the water seemed to dispel the beauty and the solitude that could be derived thereby. It looked dirty and stale, unloved and uncared for. Her troubled mind seemed to find succour in its poor state for even though her life was to end soon, her children to be thrust to the futherest end of the earth to war an unknown battle, she had memories of love, memories of joy but this water looked deprived.
The pleasantness of youth, and the memories of being young and wild had held her together these very weirisome years. Ohh how the days had raced swiftly through her mind...her days as a young heiress growing to the lady of the house..
The joy of young bride... the pride of a mother..... all GONE!
She looked down at her reflection. Her face had aged since she was last by this bank, her soft bright eyes had been replaced by calm weary eyes. Her tight soft rose scented skin had wrinkled rather well...[she mocks herself as her mind tries to recollect the last time she put on her favourite rose scented perfume. what had life made her?
She had dreams of bright summers, of racing her trusted steed across the country side. She had been the queen of her world, the centre of all attraction...and now, look at her, her home was now in rumble....her brothers died at war....and her sons...
A slow tear fell from her eyes and her heavy heart heaved, but for heavy restraint, she would have been sobbing aloud. She slowly crouched at the water’s edge and stared into the distance, pushing her fears as far as she possibly could. The cold wind hissed as it bit her face, stinging her eyes. She shut them and for a moment she felt the peace and quiet she yearned for.

10 Reasons why i hate how i feel

2006-10-25T17:45:00.000+01:00

1. 'Cause its seems unreciprocated.
2. It interferes with my rational thinking.
3. ITs just a diversion from the the truly deep issues that bother me but i'm to afraid to unearth
4. ITs probably the way the Mrs feels for the Mr and thats why she's still with him.
5. "Cause it makes me feel redundant
6. 'Cause i'll probably always go through
7. The cat-vision is really beginning to freak me out!
8. The more i think about it, the more it seems like everyone is right!
9. I've had enough of this kind of feelings.
10. And because i need a break!

how i feel?

2006-10-23T17:32:00.000+01:00

I'm usually a very coded person and trust me its not in my nature to go divulging 'truly personal' gist if i believe that it will somehow get back to the peeople involved but this stuff is driving me nuts man!
Usually when i'm at this point i just transfer the tension. You remember that stuff in 'Two can play that game'? The movie with vivica fox? yeah, you'd be amazed that some of those rules really work, especially that transfer-rule.
Today's one of them really emotional days.And what's worse??? the transfer rule isnt working! I've tried almost everything.... I'm acting really silly. I'm staring! Missing my turns 'not cause i'm day-dreaming' but because i'm trying to tell myself to stop thinking about the him! Its so FRUSTRATING!!!! I hate it when emotions really get to me! I like it when i'm in control, or can be managed. Even Ex was going out of hand but it i had the 'show-stoppers' to hold me....
but this one????
ITs smack in the middle of my chest and i cant seem to yank it out. You guys think its funny??? its not! I have loads of coursework! I have things...I would rather do! I have.... It shouldnt be! This is not how it works...I shouldnt be here right now, this is not according to the grand order of my life...This isnt the time!
You know i talked alot about ex- over this weekend. Its amazing how people feel once you tell them that your ex- had some not-so-funny-skeletons in his cupboard. They dont even bother to ask whether or not you knew about it. They just assume he's the only guilty one. I missed him over the weekend. I really did! and i guess that's what laid the foundation for this RUBBISH emotional 'trauma'.
I saw MBLA in class today. He's been really nice. Turns out we have alot of things in common. Did i mention that he has really cute eyelashes??? Uuuh, you wont believe it! Omo, all the cure of last week flew out the window...STTTTRRAAAAAAAAAAT! What is it with me and milk? eh? its so bad, i dont even see chocolate blends anymore. I was coming back with my girl (Yeye inc) and i see this really cute child (jand born cute black kid about four years yeah). I call her attention and i say 'Cute child'. She smiles and says 'Cute dad'. I followed her eyes to her so-called 'cute dad'. I'm like...ok? where's the cutie??? she looks at me like 'what the....???' wetin do your eyes??? Damn! i need help!
Whats worse, MBLA just surfacing in cuter and cuter packages. he's not only smart...he has fantastic conversation, the witt of a devil, the smile of a kid, the eyes of a lover, the voice of a crooner, the hands of a tempter, the mouth could use some surgery though (lol, who am i kidding?). His voice is so incredibly husky, that i wonder what it would be like when he's just getting out of bed in the morning...
I need to stop writing now before i say nonesense! Some one out there please pray for me...i'm just a young girl trying to live in these....[r kelly]

A piece of me

2006-10-21T12:32:00.000+01:00

Do you guys remember my baby pix?? [ on the first page of my blog]? well this is a piece of me some twenty- something years later....ENJOY!!!
Ps. For limited time only...LOL

The boy, The club and the mistaken identity II

2006-10-18T15:27:00.000+01:00

Must apologize... my eating spread over a couple of days...LOL. Minus all them girls wey dey yap me! So where was i? Yeah, i was in the club yarns

THE CLUB II
Yeah the grindin' Birthday girl...Ok o! So everyone started to dance and well,Ge GE GE GEEEE Na so the Dj started dropping my rhymes. Na so carried away that I just picked one of my 'safe' options. Me, I dont believe in taking uncalculated risks. While we were at the dinner table, i'd looked across the seven guys that were on the table and ranked them in order of probably dance skills, potential misyarns, potential grabber and all that. so you weigh his likeliness to take advantage of the 'grind' song. So i went wit my safest bet and went to the centre of the dance floor. Ok, lets just say psychoanalysis isnt always one hundred percent certain.....
After some hours of dancing, one of hte guys dropped me at home. [thank God for the few good guys wey remain]

THE MISTAKEN IDENTITY
For some reason that i cant explain...I just dont feel like sharing this part of the gist again...[prob cuz i'm scared the people in question might read my blog and be waiting at the bottom of the stairs soon.]
I went round bloggers'ville today and men am i impressed. Everyone is so forth coming in this TAG thing...hmm, na wa o! I encourage una o! Please help me beg Dayo to update his blog o! Haba? Since the babe show am pepper e no wan gist us again!
A big welcome to my darling naiyar! You guys should keep an eye on this upcoming DIVA!! She has more encounters than CNN!!LOL.
Guys i'm sorry i'm not in the gist-mode! I'm waiting for some very important plans to click and my containers on the high sea should safely go through immigration. We go dey yarn!!!

The boy, The club and the mistaken identity

2006-10-16T14:26:00.000+01:00

Ok guys, you people have not been as supportive as in yester-blogs...how far? Na so the travails of life hard reach?? Come on!!!
Let me begin by saying that i'm looking for a cure to my craving of 'pigin English' I cant seem to get over it. It got so bad, i was yarning with some of my asian classmates and i just started, only to realise that everyone was looking at me in utter confusion. Especially with my latest partner in crime, the CEO, Yeye Inc. LOL. She be original 'naija' babe!! Too much soul in the sista, she always manages to make me smile...for all of you wondering if she's hot...She's HOT!!! and HOOKED!
Ok. I'm going to try my best to stick to the British English code of writing...should i stray again, please bear with me, its a transistion process.

My people...[curbing smile] this is really going to be hard. Ok. Oh and by the way I've been craving a new laptop...the HP dv2054ae that goes for a bargain price here and you wont believe it...its the CEO, yeye inc that gets it first! Na me see am o! LOL. The more the merrier...we are having a 'launching party' soon...I'll leave you the details in the coming blogs. So what shall we talk about today...Aaaaaaaaaah yes, the boy the club and the mistaken identity....It sounded pretty strange to me when I thought up the title, but as i mulled over it a bit, a picture of last week's activites rolled through my mind and fit into those three sub-classses.
Like many of you would have guessed, the boy is MBLA....Wrong!!!! I told you i was over that guy, una no dey hear!!! The guy is HISTORY (i wish). and the club is M----, on second thought I think i'll just let it flow as it occured.

THE BOY,

After a very awful first week and a backlog of several activities, yours faithfully thought it was about time to take a break from the galavanting and visit the famed 'school library'. I packed up the essential study material 'a pack of mint gum' and marched into the mighty fortress. I was truly amazed at the vast resources the school had. I wandered around the long corridors and the huge shelves of books and returned all the more confused. Finally i picked a book that struck my fancy....now anyone that knows me will realise I dont fancy reading in the library, there should be a minimal level of noise for me to maintain concentration. Usually a soft song, or people muttering but not silence...it just itches my ears!
Ok, so i picked a book and looked for the 'noisest place' in the library and settled to read. The book was interesting, it was a psychological analysis of human patterns [do you really wanna know y i picked that??....lol, nosey pecker!!!] I was really enjoying the book but my mind kept staying back to the fact that the place was borderline silent...
Just when I had had enough someone interrrupted me 'Excuse me, do you know where the copiers are??' I looked up and there he was....oh my God!! Where did God hide this creature of wonder all my life...he was looking absolutely scrumptious with his clean shaven and evenly cropped black hair. He looked like Morris chesnaunt without the pink lips. Damn...I looked slowly up and down trying to be sure the sweatshirt was not the reason for the even looking muscle tones and it was.....Oh my God!!! Tinu, what are you doing??? The guy asked for something....And you are not responding....Girl you better snap to it...
"Sorry, what did you say?"
"The copiers...the photocopiers...."
"Ooh, I think they're on the 2nd floor... " he looked really puzzled, "ok, thats straight through here, and down the corridor to your left and up the stairs" I managed a brief description.
"Thanks alot,"
"Its ok," I quickly picked up my book, pretending that i was so eager to get back to my reading. As soon as i'd figured he was out my a distance, i casually dropped the book to the table and took a rear viewing of this wonderful man....[sometimes i wonder if i'm just a guy in a girl's body] I swear i wish soundtracks and slow motions used to happen in my head but they dont, so he was briskly out of my line of sight. Well thats the end of reading for today, I cant even deceive myself that i'll be assimilating anyting for the next 5 minutes so I decided to pack up, borrow some more relevant books and return this book to shelf.
I was coming out of the shelf area when someone tapped me...It was him, "Thanks a lot, you saved me about 30quid"
'You're welcome...' Now i was beginning to wonder if it was just a pick up line, not that it would have really mattered but I tend to prefer guys who are straight up and just go with the situation rather than those who have preplanned moves.
He squeezed my hand gently and walked away..[ok, I take its not a preplanned move]. Rather disappointed I left the library and went home. It usuallydoesnt take long before i get over my brief encounters but at that point, i had alot to deal with [we'll yarn those ones later] and I couldnt care less about it. I knew it would be a good girls-gist topic for later in the evening when my flatmates return but at that point, it was all in the days work....

THE CLUB

A friend of mine had her birthday over the weekend, so we had planned to spend the evening in a really expensive restaurant, eat till we drop and then burn the calories away on the dancefloor till daybreak. Me had planned to escape after dinner, infact i had a standby, dial-a-cab guy's number on speeddial but as the dinner progressed, everyone kept picking on me as the most likely to escape and as such, the one that would pay the bill if i didnt go to the club...I can be benevolent yeah, but only when i'm prepared to be, spending 500quid in one seating is not my idea of a fantastic evening out....especially when i didnt plan it. That would max out any credit i've got anyways, so like a good girl, i tagged along.
Omo, the birthday girl was really grooving o! Chai! if you see that babe eh, you no go believe say she just turned 30 a couple of minutes before. She kept bumpin' and grindin' and jumping' and after a while, everyone one started dancing and it was becoming alot of fun...
GE GE GE GE GEEEEEEEEEEE!!![soundtrack change when something bad is about to happen]
Woo, i'm hungry, i'll continue after i've eaten...

hmmm all the love in the world..

2006-10-09T23:51:00.000+01:00

Before i begin the juicy gist. i need to say a huge thank you to you guys in blog land. Frankly, you are the inspiration, you are the wind beneath my wave. The inspiration i get from reading your words, the courage I get to share more of my self and to be who I really am. Its amazing!! Thank you!!!

Ok. Now to the koko! hmm omo, na today i just know say i be real JJC. See me dey waka for almost two hours in search for a building that was opposite where I started from....Anyway, that one na aside..ok, where did i stop? [referring to previous blog], ok. Yeah, upper Sunday. Ok. Let me start from the friday to that....
Ok, after class, our professor dash us one kin assignment like that and you know say MBLA dey my class, so i just sent a group email like that, say i need tutor.
In fact i don forget am by sunday afternoon when i hear knock for my door...Voila MBLA looking rugged and cute with his day old beard and tightly knit muscles still visible in the blue jumper he was wearing....hmmm needless to say i was paying more attention to the smile than to the words that were coming out of his mouth.
Well after an hours 'tutoring'. He stayed for a chat, na so I offer the dude some food: bread and home made soup with tatashe (red chilli) shombo and ata rodo (sorry folks, i dont know the English equivalent, just so you know, they're all types of red chilli)
Omo come see oyinbo man dey sweat. I just dey laugh. He drank a whole tumbler of water and fanning his mouth. Anyway all that one na story. That sha explains the hours of laughter after i woke on Sunday shey....
Well i told y'all the guy was in my class right. so Monday morning as a polite student i said thank you to my tutor (who by the way was looking even more couth with sleepy eyes and his lazy grin). He seemed fine, only had a little trobule with his stomach before he slept. I had to restrain my laughter 'cause it was becoming ridiculous. I just dey laugh like baby 'kingsway'. I've never met a guy I just enjoy laughing at. I couldnt wait to continue chatting 'cause my other study group guys were calling me. na so i say bye bye o!
The next thing, the guy packed his bag and begin dey follow awon boyz dey come our study area. I come ask am say se im dey wan come study wit us ni abi bawo?
'naa, I just figured i'd meet a few more of my classmates.' he replied. 'hmmm ok o! na you get your leg!' So we all kept walking and talking. The other group guys went in to secure seating arrangements na so me and MBLA just dey chill outside. The next thing I noticed was the guy dey play with im phone. Haba? I know its a new phone but the way he did it made me want to laugh again....(omo be like say the guy get laughing gas in his perfume). Ok, we exchanged number sha and we got talking over the week. in fact my naija friend wey dey here e, she just dey take me catch trips. I just dey laugh anyhow! His accent is incredible and he's really fun company. Anyways, let me spare all of una the 'in-between-the-week' details. Se you know me, na so so puppy-crushes dey worry me. by the end of the week, i've completely lost interest. Ok, i no go loose interest, when them start to dash us assignment due in a week and and half to complete it!! Nooooo, i'll wait till my father comes with pankere! LOL.
In other news, omo i fear o! Be like say every where i go na so so husband palava! Women seeking men, Ladies HUNTING men!! see ladies, women, sophisticated mamas as them dey waylay boyz! Shoo! [Just so you know, i dont understand the pigin English craze i'm experiencing now, so please bear with me] Its like the 'In- thing!' Even my chinco flatmate dey complain say she never see better! Kai!!! If I enter flat and say I saw fine boy -sharply! them go ask where, when and distinguishing features....LOL. There was a particular day we were bored silly we decided to take a walk around our territory and make not of 'interesting subjects' That my flat sef [chuckles]! Na because mid term tests never jam us.
Ok, lets get to gist proper. A girl in the flat below us wan do birthday, she come say make all of us come....ok o! [cuz them don they yap all the iya arugbo (old ladies) wey dey my flat say them no dey rock and them dey slow down the action!! So we decided to attempt to fit in
Ok o, we decided to go clubbing o, we even stomach the intended 5k entry fee. So on the d' day, we all got dressed up. Me sef, took extra twenty minutes to arrange the eyebrows and glaze meself properly. We decided we'd meet the school bar and then go clubbing. Ok. Now just a little background on the feferefe 'party-loving' birthday girl. She no fit sit down two days without going out to town or club or something. Mistake! one of the invitees brought a friend. One correct looking boy like that. Na so story finish o!. The babe wey dey sing 'PArty! PArty!!! PARTY!!!" come dey talk '...lets's stay in tonight, fine boy doesnt want to go anywhere'
See sparking, the flatmate beside me called her aside and gave her quite long tongue lash! What nonesense! na only you dey trip? abeg babe carry yourself comot.
So after chilling in the student bar for close to two hours we finally set off on our 'escapade'. Na that day I realise that the prayer 'May God not let us walk into snares of the evil one', was a truly important one.
Na so we enter bus jeje o! all of us find hanging space, we were about twelve in all with seven guys. That's how some punks (about 10 juves) just picked on the 'crushed' guy. see bitch-slapping and kicking! Them tell the guy to empty his wallet or them go wound am. See as everybody in the bus carry face comot! Shoo!! Whatever happened to being your brother's keeper???I was SCARED!! They had a knife ,wrapped in newspaper which they kept prodding at the guy. The part that pained me the most was the seven idiots we packed with us. Ok, let me rephrase, 6 morons and one brave guy. The shocker was that the male flatmate who was right beside the guy being attacked simply turned his face around. MEN!! I was truly stunned! Na so the brave guy drag the mugged guy out of the line of fire and unto his side, giving them punks a stern look. "Leave him alone, you don't want a piece of me" he said! omo the first thing i thought of was how far better nigeria was! Kai! To make matters worse, when we got off the bus, they started tailing us. Man, I thought of all the things i would have been doing instead of being in this situation. Anyways sha, they left us and we RACED back home (at least the girls in the group)!
The rate of bus violence has gone upt to alarming levels these days. People cause others harm in full spectator view![Where have all our super-heroes gone???Where's spiderman when you need him??] Seriously though, it is truly horrifying, especially young boys under the age of 16. Since they are protected by the system, they get their kicks from injuring people and robbing IN BROAD DAY LIGHT!! Na wa o!They know the most they'll get is a remand home. Its appalling! They beat an old woman in the bus about week before this incident. She died before the paramedics arrived. I just dont know what this world is turning to. And now our friendly neighbourhood Korea is playing with its nuclear weapons. Ok o! All of una continue!!! Jesus is coming with 'koboko' (a horse-whip) for all them bad folks out there!
Well guys, in summary! As of today, Teva has decided to take a much needed crush-break. Concentrate on completing some assignments....FINALLY START THAT BOOK and give you and update soon...LOL
Take care out there! there are alot of wolves in sheep's clothing! Inspect all CARGO!!! Lol (five bucks for anyone who can figure that last bit...lol)

happy independence!

2006-10-03T00:52:00.000+01:00

Yeah 46 years ago, Nigeria do yanga, collect certificate of independence from their colonial masters. Thank God for how far he has led us but how far with these nigerian politicians? They always find new ways to redefine depravity. Na wa o!
Ok, I promised to bring you guys gist from my trip with the boys right? Well, I ended up not going. By the time I got through my classes for friday, the guys were already on the train to La la land.
Instead, I settled for a visit from a very dear old friend on saturday morning. Now this guy was my classmate in secondary school (high school), we went to the same Uni (college) and studied in the same department. So for long serivce award I have to hand it to him. But alot changed as we grew up. that's another day's blog.
Ok so i went chineese on saturday and sunday was beautiful! After Church, I slept and when I woke...hmmm! it was heavenly! I spent the next hour giggling away and dodging eye contact...LOL ! Thats alot for me! i'm tired man, i wan go sleep...y'all shall get the update before the week runs out.
Cheers!!!

FYI

2006-09-28T10:29:00.000+01:00

Just so you know, the movie was nice! It really cheered me up! And i made a full breakfast this morning...with all the conduments (if you dont believe me ask the dudes that ate it).
I think i need a change of pace, so i'm taking time off this weekend. Taking a weekend trip with some guys from church. Promises to be invigorating....well i'll let you know when i get back!
Tschus!!!!

New Policy or is it?

2006-09-27T17:12:00.000+01:00

Ok. i dont know how my stalkers found out that i was a bit free today and decided to keep bugging me about my blog. I dont know, i'm just a bit depressed today. Its most likely because i fought with a very good friend of mine. You see he and I are in the classic Catch-22. Plus some very annoying people I've known for a long time are re-defining the word "pestering". Just because you get attracted to black people only does that mean you should stick up your nose if someone else doesn't? Plus its not like i was oogling the brother....aaaaaaaaaarrgh! Ok. [deep breath] Ok. I'm fine!
Honestly that's really not what's bothering me. What's bothering me is him! I think its only fair to admit that he really got to me....not with looks and trust me its not cuz he's rich cuz i've had finer, and i've had richer... its just HIM.
The way he laughs...the way he gets upset about really trivial things, the way he knows just how to cheer me up, the way he GETs me! I feel like i can do ANYTHING around him. [Am i just nursing an idea of perfection?] he's not perfect...he's just my perfect compliment and I feel so miserable without him.
I admire alot of things about him: his honesty....he's someone that can tell you the truth to your face. I cant explain why I always know that he'll tell me the truth about EVERYTHING. He's one guy that does the sweetest things. He notices the little things....the things that most men miss. How a lingering smile says a heartfelt thank you and how a simple 'good morning' text rings louder than the biggest "I love you".He's the first 'softie' i've know in my life. He cries when he's sad, smiles like he's about to burst when he's happy. But there's a catch...there's always a catch!
And now, as my brain has kicked in, i wonder if its not just good ole classic infatuation. Well whatever it is has gone and left a really big hole in my heart and my schedule! So I'm going to suck in my guts and stop mulling over some guy i can never have and start saying 'yes' to the available ones...Who am i kidding????LOL....i'm going to see a movie!

On a lighter note....

2006-09-25T14:56:00.000+01:00

hola my darling people in blog land, how are you??New work week now and alot of tasks ahead. I really wish you well.
I just had to give you guys chinchini-gist that happend over the weekend. I guess i could say that it was a consolation to the shocker on friday.
Ok so like most of you would have guessed, i'm a huge sucker for cute guys....hey, its not only guys that can check out the curves, we can also look out for trim packs and healthy posture.
Ok, so we had this welcome party and there was this particular Marlon-brandon look-alike guy that just get making eye contact. At first i'm like...ok, do you want to go to the toilet ('caused i was seated close to the exits) or are you just looking around? Well after about 30 minutes of catching his eyes, i decided to ignore him Partly cus i was pissed off that i had to pay to get in and the other half 'cause i wasn't having fun...still downcast by the stuff that happened. well it was a good distraction to be around alot of cute guys, but trust me now, i'm too much of a perfectionist to stomach mediocre make-believe stuff. Anyways, i dragged my girlfriends out and we came home early.
Come Sunday, i go to church, after having a really long talk with my dearest "Papa" i feel much lighter and waltzed back to room to rest through the day. As i entered the main building i saw Marlon-Bradon look alike again...(hence forth MBLA) he was walking in with another guy. he looks over and smiles, i give him that plastic 'Ok, smile" and walk away. when i got to my room, i wondered why i did that, when i couldnt get an explanation, i just shook it off and continued watching me DVDs.
Well this morning, i had to go look for my class right and i wondered around the campus for bit, then i got my bearing and voila i step into class, who's sitting in the far end of the row? MBLA! Trust me, i carry my face away..STRAT!! afterall its a combined class, so he's most likely not in my course anyways...The lecture was interesting, i made a new friend [name whitheld] turns out he's gay! I would never have guessed until he mentioned somethin about his boyfriend!
Well, it has finally happened, Tinu officially has her own 'gay-pal'. I honestly dont know what to make of it yet but he's really intelligent, had a meaningful conversation with him...and at the end of the class, the new friend says hi to MBLA [I know what you're thinking...No i didnt make friends with him just to meet MBLA]. They have a brief chat just as i'm leaving the class. My new pal then says, "meet my friend". So that's how i meet MBLA, turns out he's studyin my course...bummer! More distraction!!
He seems pretty nice, has that curly accent [just the way i like it] LOL. Dont mind me...at least now, i have a good reason to sit at the back of the class...LOL!
Gotta go man, Got a class in 10 minutes!!!

The Scales have tipped!

2006-09-21T17:34:00.000+01:00

After a really long day at work, you get off, exhausted, wishing you had a jacuzi you could lie in till daybreak, but you know that's not going to happen, so you settle your thoughts to the comfort of your home. Yeah, its your own space! You are always welcome there and if you are lucky your partner would be in a really good mood tonight.
You walk in and something's not just right. A strange feeling greet you at your door. The kind of feeling one gets when one walks into the room they shouldnt be in...you just know that something is amiss. Your gut tingles all over and you are not sure if its the airconditioning or you are just imagining things....Of course you shake it off, "what nonesnese is this?? Its probably that story Mary told me that stuck!"You laugh at your silliness and kep walking...by now you are at your bedroom door. You start thinking about dinner, that comment your boss made about your presentation and you find yourself figuring out your chores for the night.
Just when you've laughed and whisked the tensions to the back of your mind, you hear a sound pierce through your equanimity. Shocked, your body freezes up, your mind cant begin to fathom what made that sound but you know its behind your door and your hands just wouldnt move...
With trembling fingers and every ounce of courage you fling the door ajar.............................what you find there is worse than any nightmare!!!!!

See all my life, i've been exposed to that kind one kind of traffic....one type of stories, one way of thinking....i've often considered the flipside but with very little sympathy because the side of the coin that i had seen was overwhelming, made it alost impossible to believe that there could be a reverse. But truly my friends, the scals have tipped!!!
I find myself in unfamiliar territory this morning, trying to make sense of what i was experiencing. It was more than shock to me, it was like being stripped stack naked in the middle of the freezing cold! Its like watching everything you've ever worked for, all you've ever believed in go up in smoke right before your eyes.
Like my friend used to say "May be the rose-painted glasses have finally come off..." Indeed I see. Hmmmmmmm.... Up until now, I used to see things in clear-cut black and white. If its not white, then its not white and from the looks of it, its closer to black than it is to white! Whatever else it is, its not good enough!
Life is full of so many shades! There are millions of shades of grey...Some of you are wondering, what is this girl talking about??? She's going on and on about some incident, I dont have a clue what is. There's a saying that behind a successful man, there's a strong woman...there should be a follow up that says behind an wicked man, there's a really evil woman!
I knew women could be mean...yeah, i knew they could be really nasty sometimes but I always figured it was more of a vindictive ripple of what they had suffered, or endured from men. Yeah, i'm a real feminist...Boo hoo! Yeah, you cant blame me. Out of ten aunties, only 1 hasnt returned with concotions or bruises the size of texas! Its always one tale of sorrow or the other! One even had her husband try to use her for jazz-money once....she woke up in the middle of d night to find him chanting incantations on her head with funny juju-like stuff in his hand....talk about a nightmare!!
From knife cuts to hospitalization, i had seen it all. There was nothing I hadn't seen or heard women suffer at the hands of men. The more popular ones are the cheating kind. They'll do anything and come back with stray kids, or STIs or whatever in their pleasure-seeking campaign but ...............
I saw the flipside yesterday.
I saw, for the first time in my twenty-whatever years what some men and women have tried to tell me...there is no ruin greater, no cut deeper than when it is by a woman
She ruined...no, the word ruin doesnt quite carry it....She crushed him, yeah that's it.
The power that God has placed in women is so profound! I think that's why God put a counter-measure that makes women generally not tolerate each other all that much. I know alot of people may disagree with this, but hey, I always call it like I see it.
What can i say about this lesson that I have just learned, the circumstances are rather embarrasing so i'm not going to tell but suffice me to say that its one lesson to have nailed!

Am I too optimistic????

2006-09-17T18:48:00.000+01:00

Ok. So we've stayed here for like how many days now? and all we've done is shop, max out Dad's credit card, cook and clean and shop and cook and shop and cook and cook and cook....Damn!! Ok. maybe this isnt coming out right.
See my dad decided he wanted to have a father-daughter talk, i figured it was the same ole same ole....dont do this, guys are this....you know after that Sex-education thing at age 11, i dont think we've had that kind of talk when he calls you by all your names....
So when i got there, i was expecting something in that line...what would his imperial majesty say?
"You dont like to cook....Why? You are a woman...You will be the mother of the house someday....you need to smile when you are cooking and enjoy it (okay? I think that was the aftermath of thursday's incident but for a conclusion???Haba, you've not seen me in how many years and all you can think of is that i dont cook?)
Well the usual sermon takes about an hour to 2 depending on how many times u answer back so i did myself a huge favour and shut up! so in a record's breaking 45 mins, he said i could go. Hmmmm
At first i wondered if it wasnt another ploy to tell me that i should go get married or something because now he's on this 10-minute cycle questioning of if i still like igbo...Long story! Let me give you the summary. According to my parents, the first words i spoke were igbo and even while in school most of my friends (guys) are non-yoruba as such his imperial majesty seems to think that i'm heading toward that....hmmmmm!
ok. Its not that i dont like to cook, its just that i like oriental food, spicy, colourful food. my dad believes that good food should only have 2 colours at most (black...i.e Amala) or white i.e iyan. Everything else with more than two colours is a real turn off. Me, on the other hand, i like experimenting with food. I once made green-spotted yam pottage and my mom said, put palm oil and pepper in it 'cuz my siblings will not like it. See?? Curbing my creativity.....LOL!
And what is it with these fathers and getting their daughters hitched? I think its the grand child itch. Well he can itch all he wants, nobody's going to organise man for me!
i thought about it again, is that really all there is to life as a woman....to please some guy? Yeah, we all want the fireworks and yearn for companionship but how much of ourselves are we willing to trade for it? because believe it or not, its more of her giving that determines whether the marriage lasts. There's gotta be more to life...(Stacie Oricco)
Anyways, tomorrow is my birthday and i'm wondering...what's this new year going to be like? and what exactly did i achieve in the last one? Well I got my first job. I've met a whole lot of people. I fell in and out of love (still feel the burns of falling...LOL). I made some really tough choices this year. I reached diplomatic immunity with his imperial majesty (finally there's respect for the individual). Saw my baby. Gained new found respect for my mother. Learned to cope with people just as opinnionated as myself (...yes, gramps i'm talking about you). And yes i've found more of Christ's love [believe me, its still as astounding to me as it was the first day i gave my life]. I didnt write the book..partly cause you guys didnt give me any inspiration...LOL and i didnt do the crazy stuff i wanted to do last year... SO 2007, beware!!! LOL
today is my last day as a twenty-@#$%!&%$$ year old! Yipee!!!!

Ole ole ole ole....

2006-09-13T18:15:00.000+01:00

At 5.30am our very long slightly turbulent flight landed at charles d' Guille airport. I yarned so loud the guy beside me burst out laughing. I didn't sleep well through the flight, always interrupted by the clouds flinging themselves at us. So we disembark and there's this cute immigration guy who just wouldnt let my sister through...he checks and double checks and triple checks causing quite a backlog of fliers waiting to go through. Just as i had lost my patience and loaded my mouth with the venom the guy turns to her, smiles and says "Okay mademoiselle, enjoy your stay."
Imagine the deflation! Anyways, took another one hour train and I finally got my thirty minutes of sleep. when i opened my eyes i saw this person staring at me across several tables. he smiles, i look at him with this look like "Do i know you?" Just then i looked outside the window and my mama was already at the station! Yes o! My people...i have arrrived and my mom was the first person i saw...yep my mama!!! She looks cuter now and omo i didnt believe that i didnt run to hug her...man, i'm getting vain! LOL. I jumped at my mom...man, i havent seen her in a while. so excuse me mr fine-man-staring-at-this-mushy-scene-of-mama-daughter-reunion....LOL, well my sisters beat me off her so they could get theirs.
So we took a taxi and we got home in like 20 minutes...see gist! we were talking and talking and talking that I think the taxi guy stepped on it so that we wouldnt ambush him or something...
You know the irony, immediately we stepped into the house we just sought out sleeping areas and crashed!
Mom comes back and insist we give her the gist. I look at the amber clock over the bed [grumbling] man, i've only been asleep for one hour!
i dont want to hear it...Up you get!! What's been happening? That's how a two hour long gist marathon began. we each took turns telling and telling and telling. Finally she wants to go make lunch. Ope o! Now i can get some sleep! So I sneak off to the room and resume my paused sleep program.
Man the next thing i knew a very familiar, fuzzy face was standing over me...who is this again??? I forced my eyes to focus and voila...MY BABY!!! Aaaah i jumped! My groggines had disappeared and hugged him so tight i didnt want to let him go. Man, he's taller now...way too tall, the guy's already my height and BIG!! Look at you!!! i pulled his chubby cheeks and really smiled! he looked really bushed, i spent the next half hour trying to adjust to his new frame and grammar. Damn the boy is on like 21 words per second now...see what jand does to our children...LOL.
Then i went back to sleep! I still havent slept to my satisfaction cuz man, with the cold that has been hovering me for a while, i know i need more fluids and rest. Just when i was getting to dream land my dad got back..ooh he wanted the whole story.....so we started again! THE WHOLE STORY!!! (we couldnt like tell the guy to ask his wife now could we?)
Well after that, i figured my hopes for an afternoon nap had be crushed so i concentrated on finishing up and sleeping early. We ate lunch, cleaned up and mom insists we come to mid-week service [MOM, we just got here!!!!] Its either that, or you go guys go window shopping with your dad! She hadn't finished the statement before we all leaped into our shoes and jackets and jumped after her. It wasnt bad! it's not like the usual naija 5hour-midweek service, this one was like people jisting about the stuff they'd discovered about God that week. It was over in like 45 minutes. It was nice, introductions, gist and prayer only; the people were really friendly [about the 12 of them] and the church looked like a house...what am i saying, it is a house! It just had a home feel to it. Well I guess i wont be grumbling to go to church on sunday!
We got home after another long walk, made dinner...gist..clean..family devotion...summary is we didnt hit the sack until 11.15pm. Omo, my nose was heavy and my throat was sore! I really wanted to sleep til noon today but old habits die hard, i was up by 6...
In all, the stats so far isnt too bad since my arrival:
No of sleep hours: 13hrs in 3 days
No of potential stalkers: 2 (one hairy skinny, 1neighbour)
No of crushes: None (thats a new record!)
No of pix taken : 21
No of things not to do: 3
No of chores left (right now) : 2
Did i mention that my mom cant wait to show off her daughters at this meeting thing tomorrow? Men, i don enter am. At this rate, i wonder when my vacation will start! Will keep you posted!

Naughty Tinu!!!

2006-09-08T15:57:00.000+01:00

Ola amigos!!
You people... come see tinu and her instigation for this week! First i roamed around blogworld long enough to capture the new and exciting events like how 3T refused to update his blog, temitayo's getting stronger, bijoux's great and miggie's newest tomato soup is causing quite a stir!
I have alot to say but i'm still in the high of the moment so its coming in spurts.
I have alot of september friends, being a september baby miself, i take great pride in honouring these beautiful september born people...Yep! All hail his imperial majesty (2nd Sept), Lady D (2nd Sept), B(7th Sept), D (8th Sept) M & C-my unbiological twin sisters (18th Sept), 1stEx-(21st Sept), Iya-D (30th Sept)
Happy birthday to all of you! I'm going to school o!!!
The gist will continue soon!

STRADEGY Unveiled

2006-09-06T10:31:00.000+01:00

Hi y’all! Thank God I didn’t miss the bus! It wasn’t funny like that….It would have been awful with the load I had to carry with me. What can I say, when I started writing this entry I was pretty excited. A small part of me [the naughty side] was glad that I had at least secured a means of ESCAPE. A means to save myself from this …..this thing!!!
Then last night we had a confrontation! Last night I spoke with my ex and unveiled the STREDGY! Omo, see rakin’!!! Behold my shock, the guy was really yelling! I don’t know whether it was the shock that I would never be with him or the fact that I had made up my mind or the fact that I knew the stradegy for a while and didn’t tell him that hurt him most. For a moment my heart stopped. I hated the way he was hurting but then he started the guilt-trip! That’s what pissed me off. I hate it when people try to manipulate me! I’ve lived with that for a very long time and there aint no way I'm going to take it from anyone. I yelled my own [to the face on my desktop] and logged off.
I sat up at night thinking about the things he said. It bugged me that he was being so selfish! How could I have been so wrong about him? And why the hell am I feeling bad?! Just then my pharmacist friend called. It feels so good to be healthy and wealthy! He was checking up on me. Wanted to be sure I’d stuck to his twenty-one day recovery plan. We chatted a bit and I told him about what was going on. He listened [he always listens]. He’s like my thinking sound board. I bounce my ideas off him and I get a clearer resonance! I talked and talked and talked and then suddenly it hit me! What’s in it for me? Apart from the sparkles! It was then I realized that I was being played! No matter what, he would leave me! Leave me high and dry!!! He had nothing but pain to offer me. He can never give me the life I want, the life I deserve and yet he wants to keep me from living mine? Is that selfish or what??? So me suppose siddon they look like mugun abi??? *Loud hiss* Nonesense!!! GERRROUT!!!!
Needless to say I had a good night’s rest.

In other news, yeah, I saw style-plus at the airport on Friday. Damn they don’t look as captivating as they do in their music videos! Shame!! I was really considering a collabo! And admirer B has finally gotten on my last nerve and since been dismissed! Yes o! A woman must have a life outside her man! That’s what reminds him that you are not to be taken for granted.
Yes o! Come and rejoice with me, my love-struck friend has finally gotten rid of the playa!
Praise the lord!
O sing o sing o! praise the lord
She finally figured out that he was stringing her along. About blingin’ time!!! She just worked up the courage to remove the final tentacle from her heart! She’s really beautiful and intelligent and NOW she knows it! O pe o! No more sleepless nights for me!
Even more exciting is this news!! Alas my vacation is set!
Yes o! time to spend quality time with myself, kick off work shoes, wake at 10 am and get that long awaited massage! Uuuh I can already imagine! Ooh yeah, I'm going to spend some time with my folks so I’ll get to see my baby!! AT LONG LAST!!! Isn’t it better to be single on your first working vacation? So that you’ll leave room for all those M&B inspired holiday romances!
Well guys, I’ll leave you know!!!
BTW
Yeah I promised to give you movie lovers a treat! yeah, there's this really cool website that tracks movies and their venues. It’s a movie-type-cinema-guide-kinda thing! So if you want to see a movie, go here, http://www.showingat.com/ it’ll tell you when, & where the movie is showing.

STRAGEDY....(its not a typo)

2006-09-04T18:17:00.000+01:00

Music blarin'
Eyin t'emi ba wo ni??? se wah?? (my people how una dey? /how are you?)
Eyin temi ni nigeria se wah....le lelellelelelele se wa? (
Eyin temi ni lu'london se wah...lelellelelelelelele se wa?
Eyin temi l'america se wah...lelellelelelelelele se wa?
Tinu really rocking...LOL
If you want to get a visual of that, i'll help you out. Y'all remember my baby pix right? Add about twenty years to that face and place it on a 5' 8'' slender naija girl bod that dont really dance very much but love it anyway... now place that girl on the staircase of her apartment building dancing...
[Talk about my strange moments]
Whata gwan people?? how was the weekend people?That's Yinka Ayefele hit track by the way and for the two weeks my aunt was around last year, she played it every second of the day till it became my mantra. My sis brought the CD to the house and that's what started Nigeria's crazy moments...
My enemies are at it again. Dem'wan give me cough and cold but i refuse to fall. Fafafa fao!
Peeps there's so much to say, was at a school mates' brother's wedding on saturday. It was tight! Gave me inspiration for mine. So there we were, old class buddies, dissing each other, asking about work and who's going with them and who would be marrying next.
Saw my school ex-, he came with his fiance [good for him]; me sef did not come empty handed now...LOL.We really did some much needed catching up.
Yes o! Taking up miggies advice, I decided to give admirer B a chance. He picked me off work [trust me, over sabi, na me dem appoint to come carry all our mails], then drove me to the wedding. he started feeling like a PANT and was talking to my guys like say he knew me oh so well and we were the real thing! Doesnt this guy ever get it? He tried sha in all fairness, he didnt falter too much. But like they say, you dont always get what you want...cuz honestly man, feeling as bland... Anyways the wedding was tapping, guess who showed up??? GUESS....i'm sure you thought it right...My forbidden Ex-! He looked hairier...LOL. I guess it wasnt such a wise decision to see him so soon. But the good part is that i have a hidden stragedy!!! ohh yes, there's a ACE i've got up my sleeves. I'll let you in on it tomorrow. i gotta go if i don't want to miss the BUS!
See ya

Admirers.....BEWARE!!!!

2006-08-24T09:36:00.000+01:00

OOOOOOOOOOOOHH, why did I write that heading? I should have been patient! See it’s now Sunday evening and I'm trying to re-live the emotions that rocked me on Thursday but now it’s not coming…. See me now…I'm sure a couple of folks are going to laugh silly when they see that I’ve not much to say anymore. Men…the adrenaline that was surging through my veins on Thursday was just too intense [probably the ague]. Then I flew back home and had a sleep-full Saturday. And now Sunday morning, I have nothing left…no pain, no fear just calm….I’m so calm I'm afraid that I'm probably in denial or something. My devotional was about the three Hebrew boys who God rescued from the horrid fire. And now I'm listening to Buble’s ‘You and I’ and I feel right at home. Where did all my pain go? Where did all my anger go? This is worse than being in love! Is this what un-inhibited happiness feels like? And there’s no man involved…cool! I only pray I remain like this long enough (I'm sure that by the time the hassles of work set in, it might not stay.)
LOL Oh my God! You won’t believe how much venom I had to spew. I had this really long speech fully articulated, well punctuated and full of all the things I didn’t like about my life and these very funny bunch I like to refer to as my ‘admirers’. I mean how do you explain the fact that these people don’t ever come when you need them, but when you’ve finally managed to ensue the need for them. Nonsense!
May be if I trace my actions over the past week I’ll gain the semblance of what led to ‘admirers…beware’. But I must warn you, it won’t be the same o!
Its weird isn’t it? I think I should say I'm a very emotional writer. I write best in the heat of the moment but right now, I'm just very tranquil! Or is it…? [I reject writer’s block]. LOL

The build-up
Two weeks ago, his imperial highness came visiting. He didn’t bring my baby along. He then demanded an apology for an email I sent six-months ago. Imagine!!! To say that I was pissed was an understatement. And the fact that he always gets his way even though he’s wrong irritates the hell out me. Then my mediating mama tells me God loves the peace-maker and how I should be the one making peace…anyway he got his way again and I apologized under duress. Something I think he still plans to get me back with.
Anyway, the working week began almost immediately after that and it seemed like everyone, client and colleagues alike just could not fathom what work we were doing and why we should be paid this much. I'm a consultant by the way, so I guess it’s not new that while top management appreciates the overhaul we are working in their processes, the average employee may not see it just yet. This is usually expected. But my brother no be like that o! Even the oga patapata they talk say im no know the kin jazz we use make im sign our contract….haba!
There we were on Tuesday morning, trying to stragedize how to win our client back, when one after the other, factions of our colleagues start passing deviling comments. A peaceful bus ride home from work turned into a play of banter insinuating that we were just a bunch of otiose chameleons. Talk about the perfect end to a long day.
That played out for a couple of days, and it just seemed like the more we tried to come to a compromise with our client, the more he was infuriated by our actions. The perfect topping came toward the end of the week my supervisor fell sick. He had clearly over-worked himself and the evil parasites gripped him right there in the office.
Omo! Talk about a reality check!
Ok o! The weekend came…and I couldn’t just explain my feelings. You know, I had wondered how I was able to get over my ex- that fast…apparently I was just on damage control! Damn the reality hit me Sunday morning. What began as a simple ache from hearing our songs play back to back turned into a frantic craving …I missed the guy like crazy. I was suddenly so lonely, I couldn’t explain it. All I did to calm myself just made me more apprehensive. I called friends I’d not spoken to in ages. I filled my time with anything, saw a movie, I tried to work….nothing! Everything I saw reminded me of him, it was like craving caffeine.
By Monday I was very grouchy. Angry with the world, angry with myself for always falling for the wrong people, angry with God [only briefly] for watching me fall, angry at all those happy, smiling about-to-weds in my office. It was so bad a friend had to remind me to smile! As if that was not horrible enough, my lawyer kept nagging me about the decisions I had put on hold…AAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHH
After a whole 24hours of being angry, I finally decided to stop being a baby and grow past what had happened. I prayed for grace and wisdom to do things right. And slowly I started gaining my tapping self back LOL. In my mind, I had pushed past the worst….boy was I wrong!
You know when you have a plastic smile on your face with a “F**K OFF” on your forehead; it should usually tell guys that you are in no mood to entertain flattery. Mba o! That’s when these fine young men think their game is tightest and they can go for the kill, [loud hiss] Brother…can’t you read??
When the first brother came, I thought it was just one of those things; I smiled and graciously avoided the question. The second came, I smiled and didn’t even answer the question, and the third came….in a space of ten minutes…haba???!! It was as though they had rehearsed it and was taking cues from each other to come say something silly. Can’t a girl get some breathing space?
At first it was flattering but they kept it at so much so that I could almost expect every word that came out of their mouth to have something to do with how sweet I look.
I know…but I don’t friggin wanna hear this right now…
As though that was not enough to think about, my feverish conditions returned with a pinch of body pains and seasonings of light-headedness. I have not felt that way since forever and it was simply terrifying. I called my doctor friend [see its always smart to keep your college buddies close] and he prescribed some vitamins for me that my pharmacist friend brought for me the next day…aaaaah I feel so loved. At least that’s one set of relationships I never had to worry about! We’ve been buddies since I first set foot on campus grounds wearing my trademark deep-blue dungarees and my sky blue flower top. [I'm sure the guys are shaking their heads remembering] Man those where the days… I was still a guy then. Seriously, my doctor friend used to say that he would never have believed that I would ever become girlish.
‘Tinu carrying a bag? What?’
“Ooh my God, she’s actually wearing heels…”
The last time we spoke before I fell sick he went, ‘I don’t believe you! What did you do with your Y-chromosome?’ LOL. Anyways they gave me the whole stress-speech and a list of do’s and don’ts for the next twenty days [like I ever listen] LOL
Anyways my love-struck girlfriend didn’t call for a while and I was getting worried so I called her up. She didn’t pick up. She rang me back to say she was working and that everything was fine, but the way she rushed me off the phone made me think she really didn’t want me to know the truth. Well, she’s a big girl…and I know I'm still going to loose more sleep over this….HELP!!!
Ok, back to the admirers. Yep! In the midst of this, did the admirers relent? Noo! They thought that vulnerable me was a rarity that should be exploited. At one point I put off my phone and didn’t bring it work the next day

The Result
Enter Thursday afternoon – [the massive hunt for the new bride]
I was swallowing my vitamins when Admirer A sent a messenger with green roses. ‘How thoughtful’ then he asks me why I haven’t announced to the world that I'm single now. I roll my eyes and ask him sarcastically why he thinks I should do that? He states that it would aid some people he knows in their decisions. I ask him why he thinks that’s necessary and he replies in a gruff that a guy doesn’t want to be put down all the time….really? So is this your idea of scouting the land? Sorry hon, not in my books…that’s Cower101. If you can’t affirm yourself, then someday you’re going to cower when I need you to be a MAN. EXIT
Admirer B. This young man has a knack for bad timing. And he climaxed in a disappearing act on Thursday [just when I thought I needed him] what was most infuriating about them was that each of these guys had each ignored the green light earlier. What? What made you think I’d be interested now?
Admirer C …ok, now I'm getting way ahead of myself. I don’t think details about the guys and their actions would be nice ‘cause someday they’re going to read my blog and go “What the hell??” Suffice to say at the end of Thursday as I left the office I felt so choked up and was dieing for AIR
We have this quarterly event in my office where everyone has to gather and hear about our business and the way forward. Well, this Friday was one of them and it was a blast! [Talk about a change of pace when you need it] I guess that’s where the cure for my grumpiness began. I saw a lot of my colleagues I hadn’t seen in months, even my former crushes graced the occasion with an outstanding performance. [Don’t ask] Ooh yes! I think my latest crush proved to be an interesting diversion but by the end of the day…..aah you know the drill, he had to have a downside. Well I have to hand it to him though, he’s got really beautiful hand and his nails are trim and clean.
I guess it was this Friday that broke the sunlight into my otherwise cloudy week. So after the meeting, I went to hang out at a colleague’s party. Another blast! Then on the way home, this guy starts his analysis of me. He asked for the umpteenth time whether I had a boyfriend and when I got tired I said yes that he’s in South Africa and he’s really pissed so if you can fly down there and tell him to stay the hell out of my head, I’d really appreciate it!
Then the guy starts…Tinu, you are just like an egg. Hard on the outside but all mushy inside….bla bla bla….bla bla…Some of the things he said were true but the application was way off…not even close! What I found reassuring was that even though this guy was not an admirer, he had spent time to read me properly. He, unlike the rest of the yin’ yang twins that were chasing me all around Abuja, had the common sense to observe my person hmmmmmm, maybe I should consider him…LOL. No way, I'm not attracted to him and I don’t think I will be for some time.
Aaaaah….the sigh of relief

Verdict
Thank God for the parties on Friday. Thank God for the spirit, thank God for the colleague that drove me home…if not, the admirers would really have had to beware for I can tell you that my bark is nothing compared to my bite…
[See her, like say she no go eventually marry….LOL] All I'm saying is BE SENSITIVE, BE ALERT!!! Don’t just rush in….even if you had planned to make your move on Monday, if she’s not in the mood…back the hell OFF. There’s no greater turn off than a guy who’s all about himself. He’s likely to be like that in everything else, including the sack! So until next time, be good boys and girls…LOL…read Eze goes to school.

Too many cooks

2006-08-17T15:36:00.000+01:00

Hi y’all…it’s been an exciting two weeks I believe. Full of ups and down…in fact, I’d say this is the first rollercoaster ride I’ve been on in recent memory…. I’ve had more mood swings than a teenager high on some really cheap stuff! I always prided myself in how much I’ve changed since my last job, how I’ve ‘matured’[ –mu’tyurd ], gained some weight (in the right places of course), and like I-man usual says ‘ripen for the pluckin’ Come to think of it, I’ve actually not spoken with him in a while…to think we were almost inseparable during my school days…how life changes!
If someone had told me in the June of 2004 that come June 2006 you will not set eyes on I-man more than thrice; I would have laughed silly. I would have told the person that he/she was probably one of the blindest prophet-wannabe of our time because if you know I- and I, we are more than friends, we are practically soul mates! We had this really strong connection that I could swear would last through eternity…When I said in an earlier blog that I’d had it bad a couple of times, well I-man was as bad as it gets….Lets face it, its not everyday you meet a guy that just happens to be you with a Y-chromosome. Even though there were no gsm’s back then…the landlines had to be locked to keep me from talking to him. Even that was child’s play.
We had talked through everything…my anguish, my fears, my tears…and he’s the first guy I met that really talks about his feelings (as soon as he finds words for them). Then someone would now say that we’d drift apart that much???? That had to be a devil that should be bound! LOL. But here we are today…more acquaintances than friends…It really makes me wonder if that’s not what happens to marriage.
You start out like inseparable halves on huge highs and you both take it for granted and life’s activities…getting that promotion, taking care of the baby, doing all that matter to you; ends up taking up your lives. Soon you become flat mates, rather than soul mates….Hmmm…
Anyways, so I started this week feeling really excited. Then all these horrible mails started trooping in, and I just started sinking…then I got some ‘word-injection’ and stabilized but that fizzled out over the weekend when I locked lips with devil and promptly ensued him again. As though that wasn’t bad enough my friend who woke me up the other night was having it worse than I thought….Jesus, why can’t we all fall for angels eh?? And must every good guy be nerd-looking?? Haba? Is it ALWAYS an either-or situation?? Either they are hot and evil or nerd-looking and good? Aren’t there Clark Kent’s, or peter parkers among us today? Even if we can’t get the upright, forthright few, aren’t there good looking, well shaven- good guys? Must they all be sloppy and selfish like Vince Vaughn in Break-up?
Tinu’s verdict on Bad guys: They are like cheap drugs, they only get you high, they don’t keep you there! I’m so angry I could smack the taste right out of his mouth (if my hands were strong enough…on second thought, I’d hire someone to smack the taste out of his mouth). I’m very concerned about my friend…and the sad thing is I can’t seem to get her to see the truth about it all. What do I do? If anyone has ideas on how to get a good girl to leave a playa…please let me know. You would be saving a soul (and getting me some quality sleep…aaaaaahh that was mean, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it that way…ooh me and my big mouth)

OK….BACK TO MY ROLLERCOASTER RIDE……
A lot of emotions man, yeah and that’s what brings up the many cooks theory….Its amazing how everyone always has advice for you on how to manage your love life, how to manage your relationships, how to manage your business especially after you’ve started doing things right….man….after a while, I just keep a plastic smile on and waltz through it all. And I believe things are beginning to look better for me and my super ex-girlfriend. She’s starting to get a wave of promising young men dropping by! In case you’re wondering who my super ex-girlfriend is, well lets just say she’s one person that stuck with me (by force, if I do say so myself…yes …don’t roll your eyes) You remember very well. Well now, its paying off because we are so very similar, we’ve been through similar things…errrrh recently LOL and we’re pretty close! Thumbs up to my super ex-girlfriend!!!! Make sure you kick ‘Mr.’ butt with your flying kick as the true Agu Nwanyi that you are…LOL.
Have a great day guys!!!!

Jumbles

2006-08-09T13:56:00.000+01:00

I once read an article on women and hormones. it was about a year ago, it read something like women have different kinds of hormones in their bodies at different points in their cycle; the intensity of which is dependent on a lot of factors and the time in her cycle. At such times the hormones make some ladies irritable, some hungrier, some experience a loss of appetite...and all these symptoms depend on the prevalent hormone at that time. The hormone's intesity flunctuate from time to time. In the end, the writer said that there are times in woman's clock that she's completely level. Her entire system is at an equilibrum and as such she's not at the disposition of her hormones. The 'koko' of the gist is that women have only 3 days in every month when they are completely sane. Imagine?? there are only three whole days when a woman's body is not beseiged by some hormones or endorphins. hmm??so everyday we go on fighting these tiny chemicals for a right not to cry so often, or make too much of any action when ur intuition is running riot. That aint so fair! Well, what do i know about fair.
Today has been eventful. I'm so pissed, I dont know who begged me. Na jeje the guy dey o, na be go look for trouble o! I think i'm going to stop being trying to be nice. Its true. Its those times that get me upset when my effort is not appreciated. LOL....ooh man, i do need help.
Did you know that someone paid me a compliment yesterday that i still find hard to get over... he said and i quote... 'Yeah, always stuningly stubborn' I dont know why i'm going on and on about it...he probably didnt realise how far it went but i guess what makes it endearing is the fact that it was for me. Really it described me in one very simple phrase! Well....not all of me, but a part of me i've not been able to put in words. Kudos to you, medcine man!
In the spirit of heartbreak, a friend called me at 12 last night. She was very close to tears. Apparently she had been having issues with her sweetheart and i guess the moment of truth had come. Omo, e no easy o! Talking to her really got me thinking...seriously. I've heard of people having it bad for others [damn, i've had it bad a couple of times] but the way she feels for him is so...so 'i dont know the name for it'. i'm so tempted to say, love. She was so hurt that she hurt him. The irony of it all is that only God knows wetin the 'chike' brother did to my sophisticated, dynamic, beautiful friend. Na wa o! As if that wasn't bad enough, i just got off the phone with another one who thinks she should call it quits. Haba???? ...i think this thing is spreading like wild fire! All of you should not break down at the same time, who's going to comfort me now ?
Omo be like say I go take vacation!

Back to Singletons'

2006-08-07T11:08:00.000+01:00

Well here we are again! the familiar feeling of wanting and not getting. The crossroads where we've parted ways. I guess i knew it was coming. We had been going back and forth over the same issues lately. I had a last chance to save it on friday but i let it go. I guess I know why...the sacred choice between heart and duty. It may hurt (and believe me, it did) but I was doing him no further good. I can't move forward with him (and i so want to move forward) and i cant let him give it all up. It just isn't done.
So we did the honourable thing, more like i did the honourable, painful, partly sad, very wise thing. So here is mademouiselle Teva single and very hurt! hurt she imposed on herself anyways. Its all good.
Its amazing how i never fall for the simple guys, the nerdie-good-kind...nooo! na...i've got to go find me the 'trobule' kind, the ones with non-relenting ex's, the ones with 'its-not-my-fault-i-did-it,-i'm-a-guy' kind of tales for all their mistakes, ones with really complex issues....maybe i should see a shrink!
Better yet, maybe i should be like my aunt V. Single, content, and pushing forty! (don't think i have the nerve for that) [shrugs] i'd love to have kids and I can not put them throught the pain of being raised without a father. so here we are back to square one...the single's circle!
Even though it hurt, i feel peace towards him, and i know he's a good guy inside and i wish him well...
now its time for me to be silent and heal.....

A brand new month!

2006-08-03T10:48:00.000+01:00

Ola!!
Its a brand new month. Its amazing that we are finally approaching the last quarter of this beautiful year. Hmmmm, i can already hear the 'Noels, and the Merry Christmas! Aarrh! I''m a sucker for Christmas, especially a white christmas! I always get chipper once it gets into the '-ember' months or maybe i'm saying this at the wrong time but i cant help but feel excited about it.
How y'all doing???Its been a great week hasn't it? Even greater now that we have exactly 21 weeks to christmas! I don't know why I'm so excited! Its not like I just won the lottery or that some hunk finally decided its time to propose (LOL). I think i'm simply excited because this is the time of our lifting.
I'm sure if you've been observant, you'll notice that most of our ministers are talking about the 'wealth transfer' or 'the time of the glorification of the church'
I believe ladies and gentlemen, that that glorious time is upon us. We need to rise up to the occasion. Guys, the earth has be groaning, waiting, pining for our manifestation as the 'heos', the sons of God. People! Let us arise! Let us show the world who our father is. Let the light of God's greatness sweep right through us.
I'm longing to see more of our brothers in the limelight! More of the world's respected bowing at the name of Jesus. Recall that he said that he that entered his rest has seized from all their work! Omo...therefore labour earnestly to enter that rest! People! Se e ti gbo ( You don hear?)

I just thought to share with you all what makes me tick and thick! there's nothing more refreshing, nothing more exhilarating than waking up to feel the love a father that will never leave you nor forsake you. That sent his only son so that you also can be a part of his family. Woo! I no be pastor jare! i'm just telling it as i see it. If you've not felt the love of Christ, there's still one special thing you've never known!
See y'all!

Weekend Gist

2006-07-31T12:36:00.000+01:00

(P.s. Blog was written on sunday)
It’s finally over! The last of the dishes are back on the racks or in the store; the huge pots are safely tucked in their section of the inner pantry.
Mama’s going to have my neck because not only did her precious cream and purple chain vanish; her party silverware is short by three. Men, I don’t think I’m looking forward to this on a permanent basis. Being married with kids must be hard work! Kudos to all the mamas out there! It’s superhuman to be a mom!
The part that tripped me during the cooking was that every kind of pottery, plastic bowls of all sizes; cooking utensils…you just name it! I’ll probably find it stowed somewhere in my mom’s pantry…
“Tinu, abo oni’deri nla yen ko?”(Tinu, where’s that bowl with a big lid?)
“Asee onike yin da?” (Where’s the plastic strainer?) “Se eni garawa, a fe ponmi?(Do you have a drum? We want to fetch some water) And as sure as daylight I would spot the desired item in seconds. Apart from manning the pantry, delivering utensils, and being the major errand girl for the first eight hours of yesterday, it was a fun day. I had a firsthand understanding of the phrase when the bridegroom is here, the companions are at ease. Just in case you don’t know where that is from, let me clue you in. Remember the time when the Pharisees accused Jesus that his disciples were not fasting. He said that as along as the bridegroom is around, his companions rejoice; but when he leaves they will do more than you do. Well, you can imagine who can’t dodge chores anymore. No more playing truancy for baby Tinu
Uuhhuh! For those of you that refused to take that flight to be at this wonderful event, you missed! Tuface idibia live in our crib singing Tupac’s latest single “Aint she pretty?” with guest appearances by Samuel L Jackson and by popular demand, the 21st century crooner Michael Buble. You wish! LOL. More celebs had to change their plans when the news of Funso Williams’ death hit the tabloids. Eh ya, what a shame!
A girl can dream can’t she? It won’t be too bad. Maybe I should put that on my wedding wish list. Yep, a note to all the I-really-want-to-marry-you-Tinu guys out there; Start by booking a live performance by Buble for the proposal! LOL. Omo be like say the champagne’s still fizzing through me.
Okay, back to the party! It was aight, a little dull at first but the tempo picked up and people started trooping in. A lot of strange faces (didn’t know my little sis had this many creepy looking friends, Jeez!) But it was fun sha, There was a tapping Dj (in the person of my very able cousin). We had to wait for the celebrant. She couldn’t come back with us on Friday ‘cause of a meeting (Or so she wants us to think).
Only two of my guests came. Imagine! Upon all my mouth say I get tapping friends who would move heaven and earth for me…Woo I’m coming after all of you! I’ll show you pepper! LOL And I’m not going to give you any pieces of the cake! You just try it on my birthday and all heaven will let loose!
By the way, that joyous day will soon be upon us, what am I going to do? I need some creative ideas to make the party off the hook. By the way I seem to be launching a more intuitive part of me these days (no wonder most o’them guys are sticking around)
In other news, his imperial majesty decided to swoop down and capture his unsuspecting prey. Little did he know that the bird he thought he could peck was an Eagle waiting to launch! Glory!!! Omo it was fantastic…now I know that the word works! It was fantastic, I waltzed right through the fire giving glory to God. For those of you out there that know me, you would understand how hard that should have been for me because if you think my hands and my skin are the softest parts of me…well you just don’t know! I’m looking forward to so many things at the same time! This is awesome!!!!
I’m actually tempted to put some pictures of the party up on my blog site, but it’s up to our youngest graduate to decide that.
So people! Send comments o!!! I told y’all I wanted to start my third book by august so let the inspiration rain! If it’s any consolation, when I become rich and famous I’ll acknowledge you on live TV…LOL. You guys have a great week ahead!
See ya

Yet Again

2006-07-26T18:41:00.000+01:00

I just spent some time talking to my baby today. I can see he's all grown up, even his grammar is excellent and he's vocabulary has increased significantly. his voice has deepened, puberty's catching up. LOL.
He's going to be a fine young man, i can just tell! he's always been a darling right from when he used to run around in my clothes; or worse the time he wore my pad to sleep thinking that would keep him from wetting the bed. Cant forget the time...hmmmm. I only wish I knew what he looked like now. I've not seen him in a whole year! three hundred and forty-five days! Thats tough!
What scares me is all the 'negative influences' he has to live with. I always feared that his staying away, under those prevalent conditions would be harmful. Its hard for me to remain sane when I had to live like that, how much more for this long would be its painful because now my own child...omo t'emi bi, ti mo foja pon!
As of 24-hours ago, I was going to see my baby. he was supposed to be here with me -in my arms! Smell his hair, and pull his chubby cheecks. I was going to parade him around town, go to the cinema with him, go shopping with him (yesterday was payday! so money's for the spending!!!) Well the prince of darkness was at it again, he came up with his serial excuses and irritating lies!

Today i just want to sit back and watch. i'm really tempted to hold this dude responsible for all the ills in my life, but i just realised that hating him isnt going to solve my problems,
its not going to ease the hurt, and if i let him take that most precious buddle of joy away from me, i'll be forever bereft and full of hate! I cant live like that!
I'm not going to let him hurt my baby! I will do everything in my power to keep him safe. God help me!

Just took another look at my dysfunctional relationships today and i need not say that i am grieved. I met this guy who makes me so happy, i could burst; but i cant have him 'cause he's already had. There's one who would, in Tunde's words, 'trade his 6th finger for me' that i can't stand. There's one who's just like the waves at the seashore...refreshing when he's around but not enough to guard you from the sun's heat.
If its any consolation, I will get through this! and it won't last too long...what i need now is STRAGEDY!!!lol

That forthright..upright....brother

2006-07-18T11:18:00.000+01:00

Ooh that downright forthright, upright...brother with his....

After that nerve recking expose into my diary, i have since decided that such details in my life are better left to the Mills and Boons of this world.
Hello World!!!!
I've had quite an interesting week. Not as juicy as it should be, but the kind that makes you look forward to another week being even more glorious...Well i'll begin with the fact that my baby sis is finally graduating...halleluyah!!!
It promises to be a huge bash...even my dad wants to rent a hall and invite all and sundry to the graduation party of the grand duchess! So you are all invited (take flights if you have to 'cause it promises to be grand!)
ME???
First, an old flame shows up. he's repented, calm and refreshed from the vacation he just had. What was must intriguing about this guy was how the chemistry fizzled at just a thought. I mean one moment, i was pretty sure that what we had would defy the laws of gravity and the next thing... i couldnt bare to even speak to him. Not that he isnt still the same person, lets just say i got to know a whole new side of him that i didnt find all too palatable. (I think Tunde's rubbing off on me)
Well so the dude's back; says a warm hello and looks at me as though he's expecting me to ask him how his trip was. I smile politely and tell him that i have to get back to the office. The guy looked stunned as i walk away. After such awkward goodbyes, i usually call...I guess he's still waiting for that....omo...the guy go wait till he lose weight!

Ok, who has seen this movie?? Guys and dolls (Marlon Brandon, Frank Sinatra)? well, if you have, you'd understand the phrase...ooh that forthright, downright, upright brother with his close shaved chin up, who somewhere is marching along the proper road to pro you... Thats was Skye Masterson's impression of 'holy Sarah's idea of an ideal guy. I woke up this morning feeling liket that. A huge part of me is expecting that downright forthright brother...LOL. Don't ask!
I think it's hormones. Anyway, in marches another former prospect...he actually went and pimped himself up. LOL the brother is looking a lot easier on the eyes; i think he's even trying to make me jealous - what do i know? He may just be trying to hook himself a more delectable fish! The more i think about it...Its more likely to be those endorphines!
Then as if it were not perfect enough...Mr Smith came to see me in the office. IT was nice! though half the time felt wierd, I must say there's a certain kind of feeling you get when you know that someone drove 5 minutes through the rain to come see you. Trust me, like the oliver twist that i am, i want more!!!!
As usual, my wants are stuffed in a huge trunk marked 'OPEN AT YOUR OWN RISK'. I dont think i've opened that humoungous box in ages! Ooh yeah, i opened it early June or was it May ending? That is another day's blog.

Sunday was mama's birthday! It wasn't as cool as I had planned it. The gift is still stuck in transit! How uncool! Well she totally understood and even prayed for me -ain't that sweet! I really miss her. Its been long since I had a thorough hassling courtesy the only woman that still thinks the best time to have a heart-felt conversation is when you least expect it.(try 4a.m. in the morning)
I MISS HER...

Doo be dooo be dooo ba e! See y'all

Walking Backwards II

2006-07-13T10:53:00.000+01:00

Hey y'all,

Comments are coming in....My apologies Miguel, My thoughts were ill-expressed. See, i'm not ace like you guys yet, still working at being better!
In other day's news, today's just like any other...work and more work! however i did something silly yesterday. i went to a girlfriend's room to wile away time. Actually the internet connection in my room was bad(typical naija story abi?) and I needed to send a mail. She was chatting with a friend of hers so she just got up and handed over the system... Apparently the guy didnt know she had gotten off and he kept on talking...He was talking about how he did his own share of saving the world...LOL. it was too hilarious. I hadn't had that much fun yapping someone! Man,, he made it too easy! In less than 5 mins, i had written up over 2000 words of mentally stimulating trope! Man it was sweet...for me sha, the guy didnt find it funny. I had to use my hard earned credit to call jand! anyway...the day was saved...Thanks to Wonder Teva!!

and Today eh?
Man...I usually dont get pissed but today? He just crossed the line! What does he think i am? i may be doing dirt but i'm not stupid.......AARRGGGGHHHHH!
See how my kind remarks turned into insult! My mate's not feeling too well so i've been playing the perfect gal-friend..'how's my baby doing?' 'take it easy o!' that kinda' thing. So, as usual, called him up this morning and he's like 'I'm busy!'. i felt like i had just been tossed like a day-old salad...What????
Omo no be ya fault...na me carry myself come greet you this morning. if i sit down dey do my work, all this early morning insult no go come jam me!

I guess now i know why people say that i'm a tad too sensitive to little squabbles. Like right now, i'm not talking to him. At this rate, dont know if I have the stomach for this type of friendship anymore!
However, I have alot of things to be grateful for today, the 3 month old silence with my his imperial majesty ended yesterday. I called and i was surprised at his politeness. I hope its not just the constrictors slick circling of the prey before the big SQUASH!

Please keep the comments on my previous post. I'm hoping to resume writing by the start of next month...
See y'all...
Keep Talking GOOD....it WILL come true!

Tinu's written Words

2006-07-11T18:14:00.000+01:00

Hallo,
i guess not many people know that i write alot. I have a book i've not published...its very dear to my heart 'cause it take a exerpts from my own life and...truthfully, my folks banned it! they said i was writing to an audience older than I was at the time...I guess it wasnt a surprise that the diary i wrote it in disappeared...
Still trying to get the story back together though...that's a digression. Well below are some ideas for novels i got, i figured y'all super storytellers in blog land would say a word or two that would point me in the right

Story 1
After squandering the family’s resources, Jua Thomas has only one means of salvaging his family’s reputation – marrying the plainest girl in the whole of Alake, the dreaded daughter of Kola Ogun. It should be a piece of cake, all he had to do was make her fall for him without realizing his intentions. It should be very easy, not only was kate a push over, a people pleaser but she really wasn’t his type. It would be a business transaction that would change his life.

***Thoughts****
I want to write something that is relevant to the Nigerian society and people. A book that would sell (amongst igbos, Hausas, Yoruba and all other nigerian races....we all read! LOL). I want inspiration that would spin a tale so deep, so profound, so intense it would capture the minds of readers all around the world. It would be like the animal farm that was relevant to the society they lived in.
It really would not be a political expose but rather a book that connects with you on any platform and makes you see hope at the end of a long dirty dark tunnel.
***Question****
Do people really like sad stories, sad stories are mostly true stories, people who preserve and still end up on the wrong end of the award tables.

Story 2

“This is merely a demonstration of what we can do?” a final warning also to America and all other G7 countries, disarm all your nuclear weapons within the next 3 days otherwise we would detonate them causing severe damage to your economies!

I want to know who is behind this; I want him stopped within the next 72 hours
But sir, he wants a world free of nuclear weapons? He asked baffled, that’s about the best non-selfish intention given to anyone who can blow us up any minute!
The world does not need a modern-day Robin Hood sergeant so that Jamaal had better return to the land of the dead.
In this tale of modern-day crusaders, a Judas was found amidst them. He masterminds the after effect of the machine’s electrostatic forces to transfer drugs around the world. The leader’s right-hand man is in charge and when the operatives from the US began their investigation, he linked it to the leader and caused world-wide protests and enmity with the masked crusader.
He is almost dead before he realizes the source of his doom.

Story #3
A stunning woman works in the ministry of defense, trying to solve the clues of terrorist attacks and military espionage and vows to see it through because one of the attacks led to the demise of her only son.
Her world turns upside down when she starts stumbling on clues that change the lead and points her husband out as the killer, or does it?

Please let those comments rain in...Thanks!

New Creed

2006-07-11T15:28:00.000+01:00

There so much to be said, and very little said. How do u draw the line between right and truth..
Here's a creed I try to live by, so if i default, please mail your complains to me...LOL

One day at a time

‘DON’T BE ANXIOUS…GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOUR TOMORROW …LIVE ONE DAY AT A TIME.’ MATTHEW 6:34 TLB
Need a philosophy to live by? Try this one.
‘Today I will delete from my diary two days – yesterday and tomorrow. Yesterday was for learning and tomorrow will be a consequence of what I do today. Today I will face life with the conviction that this day will never return again, that it may be the last opportunity I’ll have to contribute because there’s no guarantee I’ll see tomorrow’s sunrise. Today I will be courageous enough not to let opportunity pass me by; my only alternative will be to succeed.
‘Today I will invest my most valuable resource, my time, into my most important possession, the life God has given me. I’ll spend each minute purposefully, making today a unique opportunity. I’ll tackle every obstacle, knowing that with God’s help I can overcome it.
‘Today I will resist doubt and pessimism and illuminate my world with a smile. I’ll maintain a strong faith, expect nothing but the best, take time to be happy, see every task as an opportunity to honour God, and endeavour to leave His footprints on the hearts of those I meet.
‘Today I invite you to start afresh with me, to dream again, to “…Live one day at a time”, remembering that, “…with God all things are possible”’ (Matthew 19:26).
One day at a time

Wants vs. Needs

2006-07-03T12:48:00.000+01:00

You know how we all struggle between giving into our wants and waiting for our needs? Well, I had the real deal recently so I thought I’d share it. Below are excerpts from my diary.
Enjoy!

I WANT

It started like a joke…I was talking to a new ‘silent face’; meeting a plain canvas to paint a person.
At first it was curiosity then it grew to warm fellowship and a sensing of feelings;
With each stroke of conversation I built a man I could love, a man that understood my unspoken words; he met me halfway and made the journey worthwhile. He shaped into a man I could desire endlessly.
Then Fact met fiction and desire met reality, coupled with a little intrigue it kindled a raging fire that soon threatened to engulf reason and duty!
We’ve been fighting it for so long…it now seems like a daily struggle!
I smile and keep conversations pleasant but my mind is consumed; I can’t seem to go five minutes without seeing a dark green jeep without spare tires!
What was most amusing was the way its chemistry undulated like AC currents. In the midst of that bewilderment, my only hold on sanity was his restraint. It amused me how he fought his instincts; how he kept holding back and raging to explode simultaneously.
However
Shockingly I found him standing in my door way one fateful day. His eyes were fixed on mine and his look was solemn. He looked harassed from within and spun beyond control. I could tell that the moment of truth had come
‘May I come in?’
I stop aside and he walked in. My heart pounded endlessly as I shut the door behind him –I held unto its handle for as long as I could. As soon as he stepped in, I knew my fate was sealed for it was clear that he had fought and resigned his fate to my arms.
I tried to make small talk but his eyes (wondering along with my every move) never left mine, willing me to feel his ache. We touched and it tingled, he held me and I gasped for breath.
It seemed the more I willed my body to resist, the more he intoxicated my senses and at last I was quiet in his arms. It was a beautiful awakening, one that I would not soon forget.
By morning, all inhibition had eroded into the shadows of the night and I was wholly his.

I NEED

Last night you were here, you held me so warmly, so tenderly
You were so real… and I remember saying to myself how much I love you.
As I drifted to sleep last night, I remember looking at your face, recalling those smooth lines of your jaw, and (laugh) the day old beard you always seemed to grow just before you sleep and the slight snore you make when your mouth opens by the corner…
I remember thinking how beautiful you are, and how I was ever so blessed to have you in my life. How you always seem to be the missing puzzle piece, how you never failed to annoy me, just when I needed a change of pace
You look so peaceful when you sleep [the complete contrast to when you are awake] always up and about when you are awake. If you are not stirring up the baby, you are busy showing me a dance move you just perfected; or just standing by the kitchen door smiling at me. And you look adorable even in those really backward steps you concoct!
I always wondered how someone could love me as much as you do. I just could not phantom how a successful, handsome, wonderful, exciting, fantastic, talented man, who has enough activity in his life to write an epistle, would revolve around my little world. I mean, how do you do it? How come I always feel like the sun in your universe, the rain in your drought, the object of your every fascination?
Sometimes I get so scared that I'm just having one of my daydreams, and I’ll soon rouse to be alone with myself.
Is it normal to be so happy? To be crazily in love with someone that loves you more than life itself? When we argue, its always silly, at the end…I always wonder why we were arguing anyway.
My guys just can’t get it. Yes, I'm a great girl, and yes he’s a phenomenal guy, but how do u people do it? Don’t you ever get tired of each other? Your third child is almost entering college and you two still act like you just met yesterday. How do you do it?’
I look at you and we smile. I know what comes to your mind; you are wondering how fast we can ditch this guy. And I burst into laughter.
“You are simply incorrigible! I don’t think folks will believe all the stuff you’ve made me do, (not that I didn’t end up wanting more)
I remember when we first met and everyone kept asking me what I did to you. How you just seemed to light up when you saw me. Everyone thought that you would be bored with me in weeks, especially with my ‘oh so conservative ways’.
‘Where did you find this wild one?’ My mom said the moment she saw you. It was true, where did you find me, where did I find you? It always seemed to bog everyone, even with their many misgivings they never once denied how happy we were, how like jigsaw puzzles we complete each other.
[Sigh]
For some inexplicable reason, I knew for the umpteenth time, that I loved you! It had nothing to do anything. It wasn’t a trait I could place and it was irrevocable too. I couldn’t stop it (primarily because I didn’t start it), I can’t control it. I can’t even pipe it down…all I can do is LIVE it and thank God for you!

Tinu's Silent Words

2006-06-28T09:26:00.000+01:00

I've done it again....I've fallen flat on my face just 'cause you smiled!
How am I ever going to grow up and enjoy a mature relationship if all i do is crush!
In fact, I suppose i must have crushed on the pope sometime past!

AAAARRRRRHHH!
What is wrong with me?
Can't I hold an emotion for longer than twelve minutes?
or is it just that I can't handle the truth?
I fold my legs against my chest and hug my pillow -Damn! It's wet from all the tears.
The radio is on...Its baby face telling me that its not about relationships, or drama but the two of us
'The two of who?' Its only me!!!

And when I get close to that warm kiss...
Feeling the maniless of his breath... it turns out its all a lie!
Its either he has to run or I'm so freaked the next thing I remember i'm lying alone in my big wide bed.

if your somebody mess up...you take it in
don't let no body come between you you just deal with it
HOLD ON...
aint 'bout ur pride
aint about yourself,
it's about the two of you and no one else

aint 'bout the hurt
aint 'bout the lies
aint 'bout them crazy things that running through your mind...
it's about the love that's supposed to last and never die ....

What love...?[sobs]

walking backwards

2006-06-16T12:54:00.000+01:00

Its today is i look through the past week that i realise that most things are never as easy as it looks! Have you ever walked past a guy and girl, holding hands, looking more into each other's eyes than on the road ahead of them, giggling without a care in the world? The guys holds her by the waist, the girl leans irresistably into his warmth?
You think to yourself that they must have a secret...some style, technique well..something that they know that you dont. or maybe you think they are just lucky to be each other's perfect match?
I walked into a perfect scene like that early last week. it was refreshing as well as it was excrutiating! the monday of that week was cluttered. I had a backlog of work and my boss was not letting up on me and as i walked back to my hotel room that night, I was really tired and I so desperately wanted a massage.
I looked through the window of our moving bus and there they were in working slowly along the sidewalk. smiling and looking like two children clinging to each other for warmth...

to be continued

Truth eyes!

2006-05-31T18:55:00.000+01:00

Now take a good look at the picture right beside these true words and wonder what she would look like now....Any super model coming to mind???LOL. Model yes... super? i'm not so sure!
See me at that age was thinking food, food...food and oh the most prominent...Play! Life was so simple! sometimes i feel that i actually step back in time and re-live such beautiful moments -like the time I would chase our pet dog tirelessly around the yard or the time when I would bath in the rain in my new clothes or even the times when my mom would spank me and i'd come back calling her offensive names like "jaga jaga mommy...table mommy chair mommy!' (I guess now i know why I love my mother so much...she was almost always in every happy event of my life.) Hmmm... i'm humbled by that thought....can I live up to that? Will my kid say same of me someday? Will I be able to give my all and more importantly, will my all be enough?

Well that was then, now all I think about is boys, books and blessings!boys because the need for companionship seems to grow as one ages; books because frankly you are you are a direct product of what you read; and blessings because that's all that makes life exciting and worth living!(I hope you dig the rhymes....LOL)
Everytime i look into that picture's eyes, i guess I understand or guess how new parents feel about their kids. I wont dream of claiming apt knowledge but emphathy comes so naturally with a young innocent child.

Can i ever truly be that free spirited again?

Intro!

2006-05-31T17:50:00.000+01:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

Welcome!!!! Its long but here is where i hope to be honest...truly honest about those silly things I am really about?
I hope its fun....I hope i one day consolidate this into some form of book 'cause trust me, someday you're going to be buying my books!
I guess I owe this inspiration to Tunde (who by the way turns out to be more twisted everyday) That man is a contradiction! and i'm truly lost for words when it comes to him.
For anyone who reads this...I hope u don't get it twisted...I love the whole honesty thing but just dont take me too literally!
I hope it has spice... I hope it has meaning...and more importantly I hope you find something in it that you can relate to!!

Cheers!!

Tinu's Silent Words

The gist as said by me :-)

Just Like Me

Prodigal Daughter returns

TIME TO SHINE!!!

A less than inspirational speech

September - Winner's Circle!

Happy August...MY 100th post..Yippie!!

its August...i'm getting married soon...LOL

Month of champions!

Happy June

TIWA TOPE

I am a complex woman

Its been 3 montsh WAOH

Baby you're not lost...

Odun Ikore de o! (the Year of Harvest has come!!!)

the prodigal daughter returns

if one more person asks me this....imma hurt somebody!!

Deeply touched

Be like say na EU o!

You think you have it bad? I got five good options and I still cant pick!

Would you?

Post No.80

Trevor and Teva

A tribute to my darlin'

Tinu ...hmmm!

Ohh what a world, what a life...i'm in love

My Celebrity Look-alikes

I'm upset...must every story have a sad ending??

Edelweiss, Edelweiss

Perfectionist Anonymous!!!

Jolly J

Nerves......

A Drink you should never turn down!

Mothers & Drinks...

What thinketh thou?

March

I walked and walked and what did i see?

And the party was....

"Happy new year, here's your mandate!"

A short trip down memory lane...(A val's day special!!!)

positive thinkin-

E wa bami jo o! (come rejoice with me)

Romance in February.....

hmmmm....Small change, Big Change

i'm on another level that you cant afford...

How do you do?

About *blinging* time!!!

illusions

Geeky stuff!

Ok...Recap and Assessement

ITs new, its fresh....its the NEW YEAR!!!

"Insured"

Random Rhymes.....

really burnt?

A long way to come

An Experiment to test the hypothesis: Does Teva need a man??

What's going on here????

A fabulous weekend

someone's watching over me.....

...you had a bad day..........

Dont Ask!

10 Reasons why i hate how i feel

how i feel?

A piece of me

The boy, The club and the mistaken identity II

The boy, The club and the mistaken identity

hmmm all the love in the world..

happy independence!

FYI

New Policy or is it?

On a lighter note....

The Scales have tipped!

Am I too optimistic????

Ole ole ole ole....

Naughty Tinu!!!

STRADEGY Unveiled

STRAGEDY....(its not a typo)

Admirers.....BEWARE!!!!

Too many cooks

About blinging time!!!