the heart of man is desperately wicked and sprawn like woven leaves of dirt and mud.
who says?
who knows?
who sees? and is not himself seen?
truth speaks,
its words are heard in tones
its colours in spectrums of grey
its message polluted,
diluted,
mangled with selfish ambitions,
thoughts of naked exploitation.....
Those who weep do,

The gist as said by me :-)

Found an old blog i dont think i published...
well here it is


The gist as said by me :-)


I don’t know how I’ve managed to transform into a glorified gossip. I mean honestly, I have friends who keep up with me just to hear the latest gossip because for some reason, I attract gist. Ha! See my life. I do not find it funny o! You people, you know yourselves...be warned or Imma (I’m gonna) cut you off! (that’s Yeye inc’s threat, lol, you should hear her say it)
Ok, let’s get back to the basics...where do I need to resume filling the blanks. Hmmm.... for the sake of those who do not know me, well, read my earlier blog entries...I guarantee you’ll be just as frightened as I am now. The weird thing is that I feel so mature all of a sudden. That is so annoying! Not that I can’t run around or whatever (that reminds me, maybe I should) but the fact that the yeye boyfriend I have is making me calm. I have not experienced that with any guy. I mean even my ‘forbidden fruit’ ex and our psycho connection only managed to keep my blood running at extreme levels, but this boy/man keeps the calm and the fire at the same time. Hmmm! Lord help this faithful daughter of yours.

Right! Enough soul searching...more gist giving!
1st,
Buble got a girlfriend??? Imagine the yeye boy, after I dreamt of him, prayed for him, listened to all his songs, what more did that nigga want that I didn’t do for him? Well, for starters, he aint a nigga! LOL. I am happy for him but that girl had better come pay homage to me if she loves herself or else...imma show her why they call me ‘Wonder Teva’
2nd,
I told y’all I moved out of my old flat. Well before I left...hmm you should hear the weird things that happened. OMG every day, it was one bizarre story after another. Let’s begin the great news... ‘yep! I broke the lodge house curse’. I know I lost half the readers with that statement. Well the lodge house curse is that ‘Any single (mostly female) person that got into lodge house would leave the house single.’ Well, what can I say, ‘some mothers do have em’. The odd thing is, several days to our departure, all the girls started acting up. They just couldn’t stand each other. The irony of it all was that they all confided in me. So roomie C would say crapy stuff about roomie E, roomie E and A would complain about roomie C. The thing for me was that as soon as roomie F left, they all became boring to me. So C would try to chat me up for a while then curse out E, E would make me eat dinner in the kitchen so we could chat...then A would come and E would fashi me...can you imagine? Anyways that chapter of my life is closed now, and what a grand finale it had. Then omo as I was packing to leave, omo, all the guys suddenly remembered me. It was funny.
Ok, with all said and done, I am grateful to the almighty. His love for me remains a wonder, and how he sorts my life, I can never say thank you enough.

Just Like Me

..She's just like...
....He's just like me...

Have you heard the Jamie Foxx song? 'Just like me'. I love the R&B, even though I want to reach across the radio...in this case my TV scream to smack his face! Oooh, so its cool to play games on your girl, but if she flips the script on you...its wrong???? N***a if i werent so in love with Jesus, I would give you a beatdown. He actually brings Joe to mind...i wonder where that guy is anyway???

Hello mes ami :)
J'apprends francais avec un tres belle prof, tres marront ... Yes, i'm showing off my level 3 soon to migrate to level 5 french. Damn, shortcuts arent as great as they are made out to be.
Ok. I am rambling...Will start afresh.
OLA!!!!
Eyin peeps, bawo ni! What do you do when you come home and find your beloved on top some person, do you wait see if its a guy or a girl? Do you scream and run? Or do you stand and watch and learn some new tricks which might keep the next guy from doing dirt??
I mean, do you not that the slow motion feeling like every thing is grinding to a halt and no matter what you do, you cant rewind it just outside the door...I mean seriously, what idiot brings a trick to the home he shares with his girlfriend? Worse, Who asks a girl to marry him and the next week goes 'girl-shopping'???
What kind of men do we have in the world today??? As if all the drama in the world is not enough, men have to add a little fire to it...yes I said MEN! Just cause she hasnt acused you doesnt mean she doesnt know...

Its amazing though, I have met some guys who claim that the girls have screwed them up. I actually know one...but thats a tiny fragment right? It always feels that way to the one in pain anyway...so back to my question? What do you do when your gal calls you up in the middle of the night, screaming...crying...telling you that the guy you all know as the 'spiri' has a less than spiritual appetite for the pleasures of the flesh?
I honestly am speechless...you???

Prodigal Daughter returns

It feels weird being back here...I have spent so much time away, the art of writing...putting my words to pen rather than saying the 'sweet mushy version' is becoming a bit strange to me.

yes i have been 'girlified' and 'mushified' and for what??



I am listening to this song right now with lyrics like 'what can I say? How many rules must I break?' Aaah maybe i'm just a bit bummed that two years doesnt seem to ignite the spark i was looking for. And again...i'm rambling!

Hello people!!!

Happy, so happy to see/ hear you...I've heard such great things happening! Some of us are now wonderful wives, others loving mothers of many children...some of our men have trail blazed! Achieved things aforehand thought to be impossible...gotten that dream job in a foreign land, made that entrepreneural dream come true.



For me its been another year gone so quickly. I dont know what i can grasp in my hand and call 'my thing'. I have done a lot of tiny good things...you know, like pay my bills...LOL, or go to church regularly, via internet or otherwise, or been a good samaritan any chance i got.

You know i'm the ambitious type...tiny person with dreams that scare even myself. I just cant help wondering if i am on track...i feel lost! in the wilderness of 'maybe's'. in the valley of the shadows of 'Its Ok' and the systems of 'It aint that bad'....boy! i've done it aint that bad in london and i think imma tired of that!



Hmm, I'm guessing alot of you are bored...so i'll skip the soul searching and head on straight to gist. GIST OOOO!! Naija people1



You remember my friend yeye inc....dont mind the yeye gal, she left my arse and shacked up with her beau...uuuh he fine and you should see her go all girlie on him...its almost a wonder to behold. I think she finally found her kryptonite...and he's one HUGE brother :)



My terrorist friend at uni, you wont believe that gal, she left all our asses in the single's club and got herself married to the sweetest guy ever. aah, they are cute to watch...only for a few seconds before you might gag from the plentious display of strong African affection.



Now that i think about it, all my friends are with much calmer and sweeter guys than they are. So does that mean i should stop complaining about mine? there is sweet and there is sweet, just as there are chalks and there are balls. Man, i need help! SHRINK!!!

On the bright side, have you heard the new buble song...See, i always knew that n**ga was looking for me...see there's my proof. his life is so imperfect without me...awww! its just 'cause he hasnt met me yet. Now i dont know if this is legal or not but i got the song, Its available on his webpage.. www.michaelbuble.com

Give him a holla,
Give me a holla....
Have a good one peeps,

Well its my birthday today... Happy birthday Buble's biggest fan!

TIME TO SHINE!!!

OBAMA won!!!
Can we still say there is something too hard for God???

Hallo ma belle famille,

How are we all? Are we excited? Are we glad for what God is doing in our time? He said it himself that in the last days he will pour out his spirit on all flesh...and no one will need to tell his neighbour -"know God!", for the knowledge of the Lord will cover the earth as water covers the sea'. ARE WE EXCITED??? We are in the era where nothing is impossible, we are in the season of triumph and victory. Paul rightly puts it when he said ' Ye are past conquering' Romans 8:37-39, We have transcended the realm of uncertainty, the shackles of want and poverty, the captivity of hopelessness...IT IS A NEW DAY!!
A day when you can be whoever you want to be.... it doesnt matter where you come from, it doesnt matter what your geneology looks like, YOU CAN ASPIRE! YOU CAN BE GREAT!
It seems like the dream of Martin Luther King became a reality yesterday. His hope that '.... children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character." affirms the word of God in Joel 2 vs 28 "And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions". I will really encourage everyone that we should meditate on the book of Joel especially the second chapter because there God shows us a road map. He gives us the KEY to profitting in out time, he positions us to be at the forefront of success.

What are we doing to avail ourselves of this opportunity? Just as many prophets of old earnestly desired to see Jesus in the flesh, so the world around us is pining for a forecast, a map, a compass to direct their steps in the days to come...but friends we have a ANCHOR! we have a WAY!, we have the LIGHT that no darkness can resist...Oooh glory! Let us therefore STAND, knowing this '
1 Therefore we ought to give the more earnest heed to the things which we have heard, lest at any time we should let them slip. 2 For if the word spoken by angels was steadfast, and every transgression and disobedience received a just recompense of reward; 3 how shall we escape, if we neglect so great salvation; which at the first began to be spoken by the Lord, and was confirmed unto us by them that heard him; 4 God also bearing them witness, both with signs and wonders, and with divers miracles, and gifts of the Holy Ghost, according to his own will?
Hebrews 2 1-4.

My people, this is our time! Let us load our spirit with the arsenal we need to reign in this life. Let our minds be so rooted in God's word that we cannot complete our sentences without a thought to his greatness. Let us get excited for what great plans God has for us. He says " When men are cast down, then thou shalt say, There is lifting up; "Job 22 vs 29. Do not tremble because of the credit crunch, Do not let job creation statistics rule you! The Bible says, we should cheer that there is a lifting up! It has to get better, because God has brought me here for a time like this!
HALLELUYAH!!!


Take care and remember THIS IS YOUR TIME TO SHINE!!!

A less than inspirational speech

Ok, so I've been busy, and now with the credit crunch, all the bad news hovering around me, people expecting more from me, me forgetting my brother's birthday...ok, he's not my biological brother, same difference! my darling boyfriend refusing to propose...i think i have some time to vent.
I dont know, I guess I expected more, I expected that we would be riding on some cloud of awesomeness, and sipping champagne with world leaders, trying to joggle all that work.
hmmmmmmmm
You know what bothers me most, the fact that I let it all get to me. I mean, look at me, I survived emotional trama, gave quite a few to be honest, didnt do any of the nasty stuff and yet I wind up literally 'wound up' to a guy who's just growing...I mean, come on! WAKE UP GIRL, this never happens to you! you know how to deal with this kind of things, you cut your losses and move on, that's why you'd have made a great businesswoman if you had just devoted a tiny portion of that time to something else other than him........

Now, anyone reading this that doesnt know me will so get the wrong idea. You will misunderstand everything I'm saying and come to the world's wrongest conclusion. Its safe to say I have been know to throw people off...not intentionally mostly but it generally happens. I mean, it really takes a 'yeye-inc' or a soundboard or a 'coulda-shoulda' or a 'NEO' to get me. So why sprechenth me? Because I cant keep silent anymore!
je déteste ce silence exaspérant!! I want to speak!!!
LET ME TALK!!!
I want to speak [this would be the appropraite time to cry but naah, dont wanna ruin my mascara]
Ooooh dear GOD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

I missed it,
I let it slip from my hand,
I let this perfect opportunity slide,
Now it scares the crap out of me that it may never come back again,
I may just have let it go...FOREVER[in phoebe's silly voice]

Damn!
I let him become more important than me...
I've become that woman...the one that throws it all away for love,
The sad sad cliche!
I've let him take that from me.
Right now i'm thinking of millions of ways to barbeque is tiny ass but i know i wont, so it makes me even more angry! if this is love, i'm sick of it!

In the midst of it all, i know i love him, i know i would do anything for him, but i hate that its true, is that normal? does every girl on the planet think like me? or is everyone thining...'psycho, lets get outta here!'
I really dont get why i have to be one in the relationship with the brain of a guy and the body/emotions of a girl. while he looks, talks, and craves like a guy but feels like a girl. He doesnt want me to move because he'll miss me too much...COME ON, i'll miss you too but that dont mean i'll pass up something that good just to keep staring at you...I mean honestly, I really dont think i'm being unreasonable...
Not to mention, my biggest concern in the future is how to leverage this, because i can think of ways to wangle out what i want, i mean that comes naturally to me...like air :)
But i cant with him....he's my achille's heel, my very own kryptonite!

To be fair, he is more than patient, i think no will be at peace with me as much as he is. I may scare him from time to time...but he sees me, he knows me, and he loves me with this kinda love thing that is like a sedative for raving madness. He hugs me and it feels like an avalange hit my erupting volcano...I should wring his neck!!!!
Well since i cant and i know i wont, i'll just succour in the knowledge that I at least vented!
Yearh!! HArd core chick...LOL

Help!

September - Winner's Circle!

As I prepared to write this month's words of encouragement, i pondered on how we define REALITY. When the morning of the first of September started, I felt elated! First because, its the last month of the 3rd quarter, which means we are done 3/4th of 2008, also because the month of september is dear to my heart for many reasons. I rejoiced in my spirit, I knew it was going to be a turn-around month for many. And yet today, my heart is heavy and my mind hesitant to trust the same words I announced days earlier...Was it because the truth in the words had changed? Or was it that my perception had changed? This leads me to my question for this month...What makes a thing REAL?Is it our ability to percieve it with our senses? if that were true, that would make microbes unreal, that would make AIR unreal, that would make radiowaves, telecommunication signals and many of the perks of modern day life UNREAL.Is it whether or not it can be scientifically or emphirically measured? That would mean everything we are yet to discovered is UNREAL (the folly of that is in its definition, as we know that a discovery does not disprove the existence of a phenomenon prior to its discovery) or to bring it closer home, are our feelings, our intuition etc are unreal because we dont have an empirical definition for them? SO what then is REALITY? Recent theories of Quantum physics suggest that time is not a linear plane. In other words at every moment in time, we can alter the direction of our reality. It took scientists hundreds of years to discover what Jesus had told us 2000 years ago when he said 'ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE TO HIM THAT BELIEVETH'. He said 'If you say unto this mountain ...BE MOVED and do not doubt in your heart, it shall be done unto you'. He said 'Ye shall walk upon scorpions and...nothing SHALL BY ANY MEANS HURT YOU'. When i re-read this scripture, it occured to me that Christ was showing us THE way to discovering the many outstanding REALITIES that exist.So in September I ask you all, WHAT IS YOUR REALITY? Do you want God's reality to be yours, Do you want his thoughts for your life to be the only TRUTH for you? Do you want to look back at the end of this month and realise that you just walked on WATER???The Choice is yours today....May the Lord bless us, and teach us his words...his reality and help us become the Champions we really are...AMEN