Post No.80
emi eni taye tiro ,
pe ko le da oun kankan se,
(I was thought of as inconsequential)
sugbon mo ri anu re gba (but I found favour in your sight),
Oluorun lo ba mi se (my heavenly father did this wonder for me)....
Folks when i cast my mind back, to this time last yearm i cant help but wonder what the heck I was doing? Was there indeed a future for me???
I ask myself, was it not this time last year that I was starting a masters?...Was i not the one thought of as 'Lost', the one with emotional baggage, the one with serious family issues?? but today i'm a testimony.
For a long time i was grouchy, upset with God, upset with myself, discontent ...when i see someone doing something great, instead of praising God's work in their life, i wonder why not me. Geez if i had my way, i'd have been everything to everybody which i can boldy declare is an impossible task for any mortal soul.
This saturday morning, i was thinking about the events this past week, Monday morning, i landed the interview i'd be craving for months, Tuesday my Uncle died suddenly, Wednesday i spent with my widowed aunt, thursday night i finished my project draft and my java program came to a screeching halt, friday, i had one of those bouts of insecurity that ended making me really really angry. but this ofcourse didnt stop me from seeing Transformers in the cinema...LOL
This morning, i woke and the word for me was 'You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.... Its not a struggle of wits, nor of strength or power. its by faith. I felt as though God was asking me 'What about the great things I did for you?' What about your distinction? What about your job offers? What about health and vitality? What about the love that binds your family together? What about being able to pay your rent and seeing movies in the cinema?? (ok, maybe that's my petty version of movie-love) what about winning the swiss battle?? What about Trevor??
'Teva, You are one ungrateful little twat!' I said out loud and then i realised it was true. I was so consumed with what i didnt have, that I didnt realise I had much more than I needed. So today, I am grateful. I thank God for me. For helping me realise how blessed i am, and as i listened to this song by Kirk Franklin, i realised I had to share....
OOh glory... Halleluyah People!!!!!
pe ko le da oun kankan se,
(I was thought of as inconsequential)
sugbon mo ri anu re gba (but I found favour in your sight),
Oluorun lo ba mi se (my heavenly father did this wonder for me)....
Folks when i cast my mind back, to this time last yearm i cant help but wonder what the heck I was doing? Was there indeed a future for me???
I ask myself, was it not this time last year that I was starting a masters?...Was i not the one thought of as 'Lost', the one with emotional baggage, the one with serious family issues?? but today i'm a testimony.
For a long time i was grouchy, upset with God, upset with myself, discontent ...when i see someone doing something great, instead of praising God's work in their life, i wonder why not me. Geez if i had my way, i'd have been everything to everybody which i can boldy declare is an impossible task for any mortal soul.
This saturday morning, i was thinking about the events this past week, Monday morning, i landed the interview i'd be craving for months, Tuesday my Uncle died suddenly, Wednesday i spent with my widowed aunt, thursday night i finished my project draft and my java program came to a screeching halt, friday, i had one of those bouts of insecurity that ended making me really really angry. but this ofcourse didnt stop me from seeing Transformers in the cinema...LOL
This morning, i woke and the word for me was 'You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.... Its not a struggle of wits, nor of strength or power. its by faith. I felt as though God was asking me 'What about the great things I did for you?' What about your distinction? What about your job offers? What about health and vitality? What about the love that binds your family together? What about being able to pay your rent and seeing movies in the cinema?? (ok, maybe that's my petty version of movie-love) what about winning the swiss battle?? What about Trevor??
'Teva, You are one ungrateful little twat!' I said out loud and then i realised it was true. I was so consumed with what i didnt have, that I didnt realise I had much more than I needed. So today, I am grateful. I thank God for me. For helping me realise how blessed i am, and as i listened to this song by Kirk Franklin, i realised I had to share....
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OOh glory... Halleluyah People!!!!!
posted by Teva | 2:08 PM
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